So it's been almost a month since my grandfather passed. I've cried some and I'm working through my grief. I think it's now really hitting me. I guess I was in shock at first and just in survival mode that I didn't have to time for me to grieve. I was trying to be strong for my Mom and Grandmother. I have gone back on my antidepressants at least for a few months. I am not in the mood to celebrate Christmas but I will because of DD. I am uninspired with what to buy people this year. I have adopted 4 angel tree kids (this is more than we normally do) and honestly if I am still feeling this way next year we probably will just buy $50 GC for everyone and spend the rest of our $$ on angel tree kids. I am feeling like his death has changed me for the good in certain ways. Sorry to be a Debbie Downer, DH is asleep and I really don't want to bother my grandmother or mom with this.
Re: I need all the hugs
Harry Styles = Life Ruiner
There’s a lightning in your eyes I can't deny
Then there’s me inside a sinking boat running out of time
Without you I'll never make it out alive
But I know, yes, I know we’ll be alright
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J. 1.14.13 my reason for breathing