Hi all,
Hope you had a great Thanksgiving (and found super Black Friday sales):)
Wanted to just write for a bit about my fears that I have for my first appt. this Thursday when I'll be 6 weeks, 1 day. I know they'll do a U/S at this appt., and my heart is in my throat every time. I think of what could be wrong, but then I also think about how the last time I was PG the first many appts. went well, until my 20 week anatomy scan when we found our lives turned upside down. So, needless to say, I have tons of emotions running through my head, and just don't know how I can go to each appt. without fearing the absolute worst (if things go great this week, as I hope, what about the next appt. or the one after that?) It's like I'm just waiting for the next shoe to drop:(
Sorry, I hate writing about this, but I just had to vent b/c I try not to talk about it with my DH too much...he's been great, and feels that we already went through the worst, things have to get better, right? But me, I don't necessarily see it that way...I fear about going through the same situation or worse:(
Thanks for listening (or reading!)...
Wishing you all well.
Re: Nervous...first appt. this week!
BFP 4/17/13, MC began 5/2/13 @ 6 weeks
My FF Chart
APS, hetero factor v leiden & MTHFR
bfp #1 - 12.11.07, edd 8.14.08, mm/c 1.21.08 (10w4d)
bfp #2 - 4.4.08, edd 12.3.08, mm/c 5.14.08 (11w)
bfp #3 - 8.3.08, edd 4.15.09, mm/c 9.17.08 (10w)
bfp #4 - 1.15.09, edd 9.26.09, mm/c 2.16.09 (8w2d)
bfp #5 - 6.16.09, edd 2.25.10, mm/c 7.23.09 (9w)
bfp #6 - 8.12.10, edd 4.27.11, mm/c 9.16.10 (8w1d)
one more try -> bfp #7 - 2.11, our miracle baby boy arrived 10.11
ttc again -> bfp #8 - 5.3.13, edd 1.13.14, mm/c 5.30.13 (7w3d)
TTC Since June 2012 BFP #1 08/01/12, D&C 09/07/12 9 weeks, Blighted Ovum BFP #2 01/01/13 m/c 5 weeks BFP #3 03/02/13 D&C 4/15/13 m/c 11 weeks, 07/19/13 Hysteroscopy for Scar Tissue, 9/12813 Hysteroscopy & Laparoscopy for Scar Tissue, Cleared to TTC October 2013.
BFP # 4 11/01/2013 EDD 07/12/14
Dear God, Since I couldn't hold my little one in my lap and tell him about you, could you hold him in your lap and tell him about me?
BFP 3.8.16 EDD 11.20.16