I thought I'd be okay with it, but now I'm filling up with a sense of dread. I just keep imagining trying to feel "normal" with all my in-laws and them sitting there feeling sorry for me. They are nice and not stressful, but I just want to blend into the background and I can't with DD there always needing me.
I asked DH how he was feeling, then he made some jab about antagonizing him. Apparently he thought I was insinuating that he wasn't "missing her enough" which I wasn't, but he's processing things as well. It was a big misunderstanding, but we got into a huge weepy disagreement and now I really, really hate the idea of going even more.