I am so so sorry for your loss and SO being a jerk face. Your DS will always be in your heart and was welcomed today by other Jan14 angel babies who will love and hold him till you meet again.
I am so sorry you had to go through that alone. I am glad you were able to hold your son and be with him, even if for just a short period of time. I hope you are with people now who care about you and support you.
Mama of boys, Landon (Jan 14) and Harrison (Aug 15).
So sorry for your loss. Glad you were able to hold him and spend some time with him first. I hope family and friends are able to supply some support now and you take some time for yourself. Sending hugs!
I'm 33 DH is 36
Married 6/27/2009 Together since 10/22/2005 TTC since 8/2010 (off BCP since 8/2009) Unexplained Infertility
12/26/2012 U/S #2 8w6d - No more heartbeat, MMC; D&C; Chromosome testing normal; male RPL testing normal
4/3/2013 DX Asherman's Syndrome caused by D&C, hysteroscopy done
June 2013 IVF #4 planned
5/12/2013 SURPRISE BFP! Natural cycle
7/11/2013 Panorama results Normal!!! Team Pink, partial previa moved up in 2nd tri9/5/13 (19w) AS scan shows short cervix, 2.5 cm 9/19 (21w) Cervix is worse 1.87cm, bed rest 10/26 & 10/27 steroid shots 12/19 (35w) DX: SGA Baby went from 57% percentile to 18th percentile in 6 weeks. Weekly BPP and NST until she is here. 1/17/18 Growth scan puts Abby below 10th percent in size, low amniotic fluid, and less movement. Time to induce! 1/18/14 2:11am Abigial Morgan is here! 5lbs 14oz and 18 inches of pure cuteness!!!
Trying to conceive #2 Me: 36 - slight DOR (AMH: 1.1), decent OAR; DH: 41 - Morphology 4% NTNP July-Aug 2014, ATTC Sept 2014-Present October 2014 - CP July 2015 - Clomid + #1 IUI = BFN September 2015 - Clomid + #2 IUI = CP October 2015 - Letrozole (5 follies - yay!) + #3 IUI = BFN November 2015 - CP December 2015 - CP February 2016 - Letrozole + #4 IUI = CP April 2016 - CP May/June 2016 - IVF #1 and IUI #5 (Estrace + Follistim + micro-hCG + HGH) = BFN
Struggled to conceive #1 2012-2013
Me: Chronic Pain Condition since 2009, DH: Slightly Abnormal SA
Clomid #1: March 2013 - BFN; Clomid + IUI: May 2013 CXL;
BFP on 4/22/13 = Baby Boy #1 1/1/14
Married October 2009. Me 29 H 28. After 1 year of infertility, our little miracle was conceived via our 3rd IUI on May 5, 2013. Holland Sophia was born Jan 24, 2014.
I am so sorry for your loss and pray that family and friends can give you the strength you need to get through this heartbreaking time. I also hope that your SO does some deep soul searching about the kind of person he wants to be versus the kind of person he is.
Thank you all for the continued support, prayers and encouragement!! It means so much to me to be a part of this amazing board. I feel as if we are all family even though we've never met!! Each day has it's new struggles but each day is a new day. Praying for all you mamas and for your LOs.
I am so so sorry. I have lost many babies. A daughter at 3 months old, another daughter at 23 weeks and several miscarriages. I know how you are feeling. You are in my prayers.
Re: Update #2: Prayers please!!
BFP 11.8.12 * EDD 7.17.13 * MC 12.20.12
TTC since 8/2010 (off BCP since 8/2009) Unexplained Infertility
12/10/2012 U/S #1 6w4d - heartbeat EDD 8/1/13
1/18/14 2:11am Abigial Morgan is here! 5lbs 14oz and 18 inches of pure cuteness!!!
Fell in love: Dec 2005 // Married: Feb 9, 2013
Little Miss Rosalie Harper--Born Jan 9th, 2014
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katharine
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Me: 36 - slight DOR (AMH: 1.1), decent OAR; DH: 41 - Morphology 4%
NTNP July-Aug 2014, ATTC Sept 2014-Present
October 2014 - CP
July 2015 - Clomid + #1 IUI = BFN
September 2015 - Clomid + #2 IUI = CP
October 2015 - Letrozole (5 follies - yay!) + #3 IUI = BFN
November 2015 - CP
December 2015 - CP
February 2016 - Letrozole + #4 IUI = CP
April 2016 - CP
May/June 2016 - IVF #1 and IUI #5 (Estrace + Follistim + micro-hCG + HGH) = BFN
Struggled to conceive #1 2012-2013
Clomid #1: March 2013 - BFN; Clomid + IUI: May 2013 CXL; BFP on 4/22/13 = Baby Boy #1 1/1/14
Married October 2009. Me 29 H 28.
After 1 year of infertility, our little miracle was conceived via our 3rd IUI on May 5, 2013.
Holland Sophia was born Jan 24, 2014.
Natural M/C at 7 weeks 9.17.08 Natural M/C at 7 weeks 2.1.13
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TTC #1 since 10/11

BFP #1-10/01/12 | ended in m/c11/19/12
Jan-2013-Cycle 10: Clomid 50mg + Trigger + TI = BFN
Feb-2013-Cycle 11: Benched due to cysts.
March-2013-Cycle 12: Clomid 100mg + Trigger + TI = BFP
4/22/13-Beta#1 33.9-- 4/24/13-Beta#2 117
EDD 12/30/13