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irons633irons633 member
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Went for a walk today to clear my mind and allow myself to just talk tommy babies and cry without the DH being around because he goes back to work tomorrow and I don't want him to be to worried about me. I found a bench and sat down and just looked over the lake and cried. While I was there two butterflies came and flew past me and sat in the grass in front of me for a few moments. I cried very hard at seeing that but as I cried I told my babies I loved them and thanked them for coming to see mommy. After I spoke to them they flew away. I do believe that those small insects were gestures of my babies letting me know that mommy it's okay to cry and that we are always here for you. Yes today has not been one of my better days and I have cried most of the day but I know tomorrow will be better.
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    diamante1181diamante1181 member
    I'm grateful for the little signs. Just this morning I smelled baby powder in my room. We don't have any baby toiletries in the house so that was already weird. It smelled like the baby perfumes/colognes they used to use back in the day. I'm glad your babies came around to say hello, and I'm glad you were open enough to receive the message. I hope your day gets better.
    On 10/23/13 Baby Sophie and Baby Gabriel born at 21+5 weeks. They grew wings and flew away from us. May God bless them always. We love you beans!
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    irons633irons633 member
    @diamante1181 thank you. Yes I do know that everything can be a sign of our babies. And I am also happy that you as well are open enough to see the signs and embrace the memories of your babies. I know that today is just one and that even though it's rough today it shall get better.
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    kz's_girlygirlkz's_girlygirl member
    Thinking of you <3  I'm glad you felt some sign of your precious babies presence today, and I hope little things like that continue to give you a sense of comfort.   
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    irons633irons633 member
    @kz's_girlygirl you are awesome!! Thank you so much!!! :)
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    CRUN2012CRUN2012 member

    I am so glad you had that experience today. Isn't it strange how it helps us to see things in a different light? Like what used to be easily explained away by coincidence, we now recognize as signs?

    I told my husband yesterday, the day of the memorial service for our son, I ran into his name 'Carter' everywhere. I randomly saw a sign for 'Carter Road' and two separate TV shows had a character named Carter on them (shows that I never watch btw)! Those small things give me so much comfort knowing that my baby boy is still with me and always will be!

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    irons633irons633 member
    @CourtRunde that is so true!! We are so open to things at this time that things we would've taken for granted mean so much now.
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    schulme2schulme2 member
    That is so beautiful. I am so happy for you that the babies came to visit and show you they're ok. I know it's hard to see because more than anything, you would just want them in your arms but even a little glimmer of their spirit is such a wonderful thing to hold on to.
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    bunnybun4bunnybun4 member

    i love this.

    I see bunnies ALL.OF.THE.TIME now...for a while we were seeing one outside of our neighborhood multiple times a day...I totally think it is God and our babies telling us that they are ok and that they love us. 

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    irons633irons633 member
    @marylaurena that is precious!! I believe the same thing and knowing that gives me the energy to keep going each day. @schulme2 thank you!! It is hard but anything I can egg to help me thru I will take.
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