Went for a walk today to clear my mind and allow myself to just talk tommy babies and cry without the DH being around because he goes back to work tomorrow and I don't want him to be to worried about me. I found a bench and sat down and just looked over the lake and cried. While I was there two butterflies came and flew past me and sat in the grass in front of me for a few moments. I cried very hard at seeing that but as I cried I told my babies I loved them and thanked them for coming to see mommy. After I spoke to them they flew away. I do believe that those small insects were gestures of my babies letting me know that mommy it's okay to cry and that we are always here for you.
Yes today has not been one of my better days and I have cried most of the day but I know tomorrow will be better.