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To stroll down the baby aisle or not

crpatecrpate member
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So today I did it... I walked thought the baby section at target. We've had 3 failed ivfs and next week we have a transfer of 2 donor embryos. I'm so excited but trying to keep my emotions in check. It is going to be devasting if this doesn't work. On one hand I felt happy to allow myself a moment to look forward in a happy way. On the other hand I felt dumb being in the baby aisle without a a baby or even being pregnant. Do you guys allow yourself these moments or how do you keep excitement in check?
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  • ksgsmuksgsmu member
    I try and keep the excitement in check most of the time... but other times It gives me hope to do a bit of dreaming.  I have a secret "baby" pinterest board that if in the mood I will pin nursery ideas etc...  Sometimes I love to do this... other days I wouldn't be able to handle it.


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    Me DX: Hashimotos,Hypothyroid, DOR, MTHFR,  DH: normal

     IUI #1-#4 BFNs and a few cancelled cycles in the mix.
    - poor responder
    ***Suprise BFP on 6/13/13. Natural MC @6wks 3days
    IVF#1 and 2- Cancelled due to no response on max stimms
    FET 5/20- BFP
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  • AJC&MaggieAJC&Maggie member
    Just want to say good luck with you up coming cycle!!!!! Best of luck!!!
    Me:35,  DH: 39   
    TTC since March 2011. All bloodword, SA & HSG are normal.  
    8/12: Clomid & TI - BFN 
    10/12: Colmid & TI - BFN 
    3/13:  Clomid, Trigger & IUI - BFN 
    4/13: Gonal F, Trigger & IUI: BFN  
    6/13: IVF #1 (1AA blast & 1BB blast) = BFN 
    8/13: FET #1= BFN
    10/13: FET #2= BFP!!!

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  • Lm92599Lm92599 member
    I think its good your excited. Hold on to that when you can. Good luck on your up coming cycle :)
    Me: 35  low AMH, normal FSH
    DH: 31 Fair DNA fragmentation test :( Normal SA
    TTC: since March 2012

    09-21-13 start IVF #1
    10-04-13 ER 6 eggs, 6 mature, all 6 fertilized. 3 frozen
    10-08-13 fresh transfer canceled due to high progesterone
    waiting for FET
    10-18 started BCP
    10-29 baseline appt scheduled
    11-20 scheduled date of FET #1
    12-2 BFN :(

    3-1-14 moving on to the next step. Switched RE. going to plan 3 IUI cycles while saving for IVF#2

    April 2014- IUI#1  BFN
    May 2014- IUI#2 BFN
    June 2014 IUI#3 BFN

    Taking a break for a while, focusing on our wedding.

    Sept 24th missed period! Surprise natural BFP
    10-15-14 first ultrasound
    06-05-15 EDD

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  • Jetta83306Jetta83306 member
    Sometimes I do that. I was at Target today shopping for TWO baby showers I am going to on Nov. 2nd and 3rd. It was fun looking at all the cute stuff and thinking of what I would put on my registry.

    I did however have a moment where I broke down into tears. We were in the card section picking out the baby shower cards.I picked up a really cute one with elephants on it and when I opened it it started playing Somewhere Over the Rainbow  by that IZ guy and I just burst into tears. It kind of came out of nowhere and I was so embarrassed.



     

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    ***1st RE appt. April 10th, 2013
    ***IUIs #1-4 all failed
    ***IVF Consult October 7th, 2013
    ***IVF #1- January 2014: ER 1/20, ET of 2 embryos 1/23, Beta 2/5 *none to freeze*

    ***Feb 14th, 2014- M/C #2 @ 5w5d :'(

    ***RPL Bloodwork---- diagnosed with Factor V Leiden and MTHFR

    ***appt. w/ Genetic Counselor- April 18th

    ***hysteroscopy/laparoscopy scheduled for May 22nd- looks good

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    ***7/28 ET- 2dt of 2 embryos, stick little embies!!!

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  • RunCC37RunCC37 member
    I can't do it! I always cop out and get gift cards for baby showers recently. I think it's wonderful that you were able to go down that aisle and have a little hope :) Good luck with your cycle!!
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    Dx: Poor Embryo Quality, Arcuate Uterus, Poor Uterine Blood Flow, Mild Endo, 
           Protein S Deficiency, Sjorgen's Syndrome 

    IUI #1-5: BFN
    Laparoscopy & Hysteroscopy: minimal endo, partial septoplasty
    IVF #1: 10R/6M/6F ~ Day 3 ET = BFN
    IVF #2: 14R/9M/5F ~ transfer canceled ~ all embryos arrested at 1-2 cell stage
    IVF #3: 9R/5M/5F ~ 1 frosty!
    IVF #4 (FET #1): BFN

    IVF #5 (DE IVF #1 with Dr. KK protocol): Currently PREGNANT!!!!!!
    Synthroid + Prednisone + Metformin + Baby Aspirin + Supplements Galore = 15+ pills a day
    Lupron + Lovenox + Delestrogen + IVIG + B/W = 2-5 pokes a day
    19R, 17M, 17F - transferred two Grade A blasts 11/16, four frosties!!!
    Beta #1 11/24 (13dpo/8dp5dt) = 367 ~ Beta #2 11/26 (15dpo/10dp5dt) = 709
    Beta #3 11/29 (18dpo/13dp5dt) = 1,997 ~ Beta #4 12/1 (20dpo/15dp5dt) = 3,403

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  • mccall0113mccall0113 member
    I recently had to shop for a baby shower. I was dreading it and put it of until the very last second. I was pleasantly surprised at how much fun it was. Kinda gave me a little hope
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  • becomingmommyagainbecomingmommyagain member
    During ivf #1 we would stroll down the baby aisles.  But after two failed cycles...I didn't want to think about it.  It got hard to envision it all working.  Now...at 6w tomorrow I still find it hard to go down the aisle..but I've started window shopping online and pinning!!!
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    IVF Cycle #1 - 4/06/2013 -3dt of 2 embryos, nothing to freeze - BFN 
    IVF Cycle #2 - 7/18/2013- 3dt of 3 embryos.Froze one 3AA 6 Day Blast! - BFN
    IVF Cycle #3 - 9/15/2013 - 3dt of 4 embryos, nothing to freeze - BFP!!!
    10/7 - +HPT - Beta #1 10/10 - 72, Beta#2 10/14 - 518,Harmony 21 @ 12 weeks shows one very healthy little BOY!!


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  • babydreams13babydreams13 member
    Having those moments has backfired on me. I have bought some random baby things on sale throughout the years and now I'm like am I ever going to use them. So now I buy nothing and try to not get my hopes up. I know its sad.  IF sucks.
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    DX: Unexplained
    6 Failed IUIs (Clomid and Gonal F).  
    IVF #1 began August 2013- BC, 4 days of Estrace, stimmed with Gonal F and Menopur, Ganirelix, 9R 5M 5F, Medrol and Doxycycline, 5 day transfer of 2 early blastocysts- good quality, Progesterone, Estrace, and baby aspirin, BETA on 9/20 BFN,   IVF #2 began September 2013, stimming with Gonal F (higher dose) and Menopur, Ganirelix, 18R 14M 9F with ICSI, 5 day transfer of 2 BBs one was starting to hatch, 2 frosties: 1  BB and 1 AC, BETA on 10/21, BFN BETA was a 5- chemical 
    Getting some more testing and trying to figure out what the issue is before FET in December, started acupuncture on 11/10, RLP and some other BW nothing major to report except slightly high Prolactin. Prolactin was slightly high when I started with my RE and I already had an MRI which was Neg.  Endo biopsy=negative.  WTF is wrong with us???
    12/18/13 FET of 1 BB and 1 AC.  Hoping for a miracle.  Beta 12/26 Low BETA-8 2nd BETA 5- chemical
    After 3 failed transfers IDK where to go from here.  Still no real answers as to why this isn't working.  Getting a second opinion in February and looking into immune testing.  
    2/14- NEW RE- Immune testing showed a partial dq alpha match with DH- On prednisone and did intralipids prior to transfer.  3/14 Lupron, gonal f, menopur, HGH.  ER 15 mature all 15 fertilized!  5dt of an early blast grade 1 and an expanded blast grade 2.  BETA on 4/21.  1 grade 2 embryo frozen
    BETA #1 59 BETA #2 148 BETA #3 283 BETA #4 2,783! US at 6w2d shows 1 bean measuring right on track! HR 121.  US at 8w3d measuring on track HR 177. Released form my RE.  EDD 12/28


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  • Lacyj67Lacyj67 member
    I too have been though 3 failed ivfs and one FET that was a etopic. I still allow myself to buy one thing for the baby before every cycle. I've for quite a collection of stuff jammed in the guest room closet. Sometimes I go in there and look through it all and other times I can't even go near it. And yes I occasionally do go Theough the baby isle is target. It makes me sad !:(
    Me 34 and DH 39 married in aug. 2002
    Did 5 round of clomid 2010 =BFN
     High levels of NK CELLS DX sept.2012 DOR:# 0.02 
    IVF #1 May 2012  ER 4, EF 2, ET 2 =BFN
    MINI IVF Oct.2012  Cancelled 10-27-12
    Ivf #3 Antagonist Protocol April 2013
    Shared cycle..Donor cycled in July Got 12 eggs 9 fertilized and 8 frozen!!
    DE FET #1 Sept. 3rd 2013 FIRST BFP EVER 5dp5dt
    miscarried Sept 24th at 5 weeks 5 days
    Etopic  D&C and hysterscopy Nov 5 2013
    dx with pre genetic blood clotting dec 2013
    FET #2 Jan 31st  2014 
    Miscarried for a second time again at 5 weeks 5 days
    Currently fostering to adopt an amazing little 1 year old boy..P.J!
    FET#3  is Oct 29th 2014
    BFN on fet #3
    Last and FINAL FET coming JAN 28th 2015
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  • shelbeans82shelbeans82 member
    I generally don't. The times I have to buy things for baby showers I buy online or scope it out online and just run in and pick out what I already planned.  I used to have a huge file and tons of bookmarked baby stuff on my computer but I haven't touched it in a year or so.  It just brings up more emotions that I am ready or willing to deal with. 
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    Dx: Unexplained Infertility, probable endometriosis
    Feb-April 2013: Femara + TI: BFN
    May - September 2013:  Follistim + Ovidrel + IUI#1-4 = BFN
    IVF # 1 November 2013: transferred 1 perfect blast = BFN
    IVF # 2 April 2014: Endo scrape, transferred 2 blasts = BFP!! (first ever!), CP
    FET #1 June 2014: transferred 2 blasts = BFFN
    New Dx: Repeat Implantation Failure
     IVF # 3 November 2014 = BFP!!  Beta #1 9dp5t 272  Beta # 2 11dp5dt 626
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  • missusw218missusw218 member
    Good for you, @crpate! That shows an extraordinary amount of strength! 

    I currently can't do it :(  I was at the store this afternoon and was buying something for my nephew. Thankfully... it was on the endcap.. cause I couldn't bring myself to go down that aisle!
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  • Holly&TroyHolly&Troy member
    @ ksgsmu, I have a secret baby board too on pinterest. 

    It's been fun for me looking/browsing/shopping for baby stuff but this is only my first IVF and it was fun until today when I found out, they may have to cancel the transfer until next month. It kind of put an end to my wanting to look at baby stuff. I usually search around pinterest, target website and just didn't want to do it tonight :(
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