Short version- water broke on Saturday afternoon (10/19), labored for 18+ hours with 3 hrs on Pitocin. I never progressed passed a 3. Decided a C-section was the way to go. Mason was born on 10/20 at 10:24am weighing in at 8lbs 2oz and 19in long.
Long version: I decided to take a drive to my mom's (45 minutes away) for a last weekend visit before baby. We were going to take all my siblings to go bowling. About 10 minutes before we were going to leave, I'm sitting on the couch when I feel a gush of fluid. I get on my feet pretty darn quick, and another gush. I ran into the bathroom to check and my underwear and pants were completely wet. I walk out into the kitchen and tell my mom "I think that my water just broke."
My brother and SIL (who's a nurse) were visiting from out of town. I sat down and she started asking me questions. We decided that everyone would come to the hospital with me since someone had to drive my car for me. When I stood up, my water was just pouring out of me in the middle of the kitchen. So there I am screaming that it's definitely my water as I'm staring at my brother's face, lol!
I got to the hospital and the nurse asked me to leave my pad on the counter in the bathroom after I changed. I then noticed that there are streaks of green on it. I tell the nurse and she says that baby probably pooped. When I was checked (first time ever) I was only at a 1 and when she took her hand out, I had another gush of fluid, and it was not clear.
I was admitted at 4:30pm and by 10:30pm I caved and got the Epi, even though I was only at a 2. They checked me again at 6am and I was at a 3, so they started me on Pitocin to see if that would help open me up. I was checked again at 9:30am and I was still a 3. That's when the OB came in and recommended a C-section since I was past the 18 hour mark of my bag breaking (and being GBS+). I agreed and I was being wheeled into surgery about 10 minutes later.
I started to cry when DH got into the room because I was pretty scared even though I was super excited to see my little man. I could see the reflection of what was going on the other side of the curtain from the light that was above me. I remember a lot of pulling and tugging and then them lowering the curtain and holding up Mason, which made me start crying all over again.
DH got up and went over to where Mason was and the next thing I know is that I started to feel a shooting pain that started in my stomach area and went up to my chest. The anesthesiologist asked if I was okay and told her what I was feeling. The next thing I know is that I'm waking up in the recovery room.
It took me a little while before I was awake but when I was, DH said that he had to tell me something. He then explained to me that after Mason was born, my uterus started to bleed and wouldn't contract down. The OB even injected Pitocin into it and it wouldn't stop bleeding. Because of my blood loss, I had to have a blood transfusion. The surgical staff (which included 2 OB's from my OB's practice) did everything they could to try and stop the bleeding but nothing worked. To save me from bleeding out, I had to have an emergency hysterectomy, where the only thing left is my left ovary.
DH said it was the scariest 3 hours of his life. He noticed something was wrong when the nurses kept running in and out of the room he was in with Mason and the NICU nurse. He asked if something was wrong with me and they just told him that they couldn't stop my bleeding. DH was the one to tell my mom and my sister who were in the waiting room. In the beginning they were told that it would be an hour for the C-section to no one telling them anything for over 3 hours, so they had a feeling something was wrong.
I was in the hospital for 5 days and were finally released to go home on Wednesday. I am just so grateful for the amazing surgical team that I had because it could have ended very differently. I am taking each day as it comes, because even though DH told me what happened, it didn't really click until the next day. I cry everyday because of my loss, which my OB said is completely normal.
It took us 3 years to get pregnant with Mason, and we wanted to give him a little brother or sister in the future, but now we can't unless it's through surrogacy, which we can't afford. I am completely in love with my little man but just knowing that I can't have any more kids in the future is heart-crushing. I just feel like it's my body giving me one last "Fuck you" after dealing with IF.
Sorry to be such a Debbie Downer (or a Dear Diary, lol)
Here are some pics for those who got through all that
Mason born 10/20 at 10:24am, 8lbs 2oz, and 19in long
Re: One and done, not by choice (LONG)- Mason's birth story (@shortie24)
I'm sorry to hear about the complications, but I'm so happy you are able to experience mommyhood! Enjoy!!
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My heart breaks reading your story and I can't imagine the pain of dealing with that loss. Sending you creepy internet hugs over here too.