I have been going to bed around 830/9pm every night. We have been getting DS to sleep, typically I nearly nod off while I'm getting him down, and go from their either to a bath then bed, or straight to bed. I'm so exhausted that I can't stay up.
There are things coming up for work that I have no desire to do or be a part of, and some of the work needs to be getting done now. I'm so very hopeful that I'm getting a new job soon and won't have to do them, that I'm not really getting a lot of the prep work done.
All I want to eat is fries. Hot, salty, fresh fries. It's a craving that is going to kill me.
At 8:00 this morning I walked down to CVS from my office and bought a pack of Milano Mint Chocolate cookies (that are now half gone) and a Ginger Ale. If that doesn't scream I'm Pregnant, I don't know what does but I don't care. It was so necessary.
I screamed at bf last night because he complained that my kids had walked past something of theirs and left it laying around for 2 days (in my defense, he yelled at ME for it instead of the girls). I told him to leave and find other people to hang out with because nobody in our house likes him.
I then proceeded to make dinner and realized that when he got off of work he bought me a case of cream soda and a package of Klondike bars that that I've been dying for all week.
I secretly do not care what color DH wants to paint the upstairs bathroom. It annoys me that I have to take his opinion into account at all.
I'm usually not this bitchy about decorating, it's his house too, but if he had his choice, he would paint every room a different shade of green. I am over pretending to consider it. Besides, we already did 2 rooms green. That's enough!
I'm kind of bummed that I'm measuring a week behind, now I feel like I'm doing week 7 all over again. I'm not changing my ticker until my follow up u/s JIC, lol.
FFFCs normally are one of the most commented on posts of the week - is no one posting because of what happened yesterday? Are people scared to post? I don't get it.
I am SO behind in grading in terms of actually grading stuff and updating grades for students and the last day of the quarter is on Thursday. Thankfully I have yet to hear from parents. Most of my free time is spent researching pregnancy related items or planning for the house that we close on any day now. Now I have to spend probably all of Sunday catching up, and that still probably won't be enough time. UGH
I ate an entire large cheese pizza to myself (ok, one slice for my two year old) yesterday. Not in one sitting, but throughout the day. Still. Pizza is the only thing that is SO delicious to me.
My fave liquor store is having a Grand Wine Tasting tomorrow. If we can find someone to watch C for an hour, I'm going. I'll drink the tiniest sips ever but I'm going and testing and I will enjoy every. last. sip.
Confession: I didn't post earlier because I didn't know what the hell FFFC was! ...and I was trying to figure out how to edit my stupid signature.
JNerd - I might stalk you on this board so I can see Chris Hemsworth wink at me over and over and over again! Lol. J/k... Sort of
I made my toddler pancakes for lunch and he told me: "good job! It's good! It's good! It's good!" And I didn't even make them! They were the microwavable kind!!
FFFCs normally are one of the most commented on posts of the week - is no one posting because of what happened yesterday? Are people scared to post? I don't get it.
Lol I was also curious about this. Maybe we all just lead boring lives? I can't think of anything to confess!
Pregnant women *always* have confessions - I ate crap food all day and it was awesome. Can't stop eating chocolate. I'm wearing yoga pants and a tunic to work today because I dont want to wear dress pants. I'm pretending my ms is worse than it is so hubby will do the dishes. I did nothing but watched DanceMoms last night etc.
I pretended to be sick this morning so I wouldn't have to go to class. I have to work this evening and all day tomorrow and I just didn't want to go. Besides I have a huge test to cram for right now!!
Confession: I didn't post earlier because I didn't know what the hell FFFC was! ...and I was trying to figure out how to edit my stupid signature.
JNerd - I might stalk you on this board so I can see Chris Hemsworth wink at me over and over and over again! Lol. J/k... Sort of
I made my toddler pancakes for lunch and he told me: "good job! It's good! It's good! It's good!" And I didn't even make them! They were the microwavable kind!!
Thats totally why I did it. I rarely have crushes but am totally enamoured with him. I dont even need to see his abs to get all blushy.
All I want to eat is carbs. Yesterday for lunch I made almost an entire box of spaghetti with the intention of saving some for DD's dinner, but instead I ate the entire thing. At 3pm. And still had a normal dinner.
Also, I just bought new boots and a new pair of shoes, neither of which I would normally have spent that much $$ on. I had them delivered to the house yesterday when DH was at work so he woudn't know.
I had DH bring down the Halloween stuff from the attic a few weeks ago and its been sitting in the hallway ever since. Now that Halloween is less than a week away, I decided I don't feel like putting any decorations out.
After 3 failed Clomid+TI cycles, DD was conceived with IUI#1
FFFCs normally are one of the most commented on posts of the week - is no one posting because of what happened yesterday? Are people scared to post? I don't get it.
Lol I was also curious about this. Maybe we all just lead boring lives? I can't think of anything to confess!
Pregnant women *always* have confessions - I ate crap food all day and it was awesome. Can't stop eating chocolate. I'm wearing yoga pants and a tunic to work today because I dont want to wear dress pants. I'm pretending my ms is worse than it is so hubby will do the dishes. I did nothing but watched DanceMoms last night etc.
There is something else going on for sure.
I was thinking that these are all of my confessions, they just don't seem scandalous enough to post.
I just went to the 6th floor to use the bathroom because I had to poop, and I knew it was going to be painful and probably take a while, and didn't want anyone around.
Also, I lied to my office about a Dr's appointment earlier this week when I really had a job interview. They don't know I'm KU'ed yet, but with the actual Dr's appointments, and the 2 job interviews that I said were Dr's appointments, all in the last 3-4 weeks, they've got to know something is going on.
FFFCs normally are one of the most commented on posts of the week - is no one posting because of what happened yesterday? Are people scared to post? I don't get it.
Lol I was also curious about this. Maybe we all just lead boring lives? I can't think of anything to confess!
Pregnant women *always* have confessions - I ate crap food all day and it was awesome. Can't stop eating chocolate. I'm wearing yoga pants and a tunic to work today because I dont want to wear dress pants. I'm pretending my ms is worse than it is so hubby will do the dishes. I did nothing but watched DanceMoms last night etc.
There is something else going on for sure.
I was thinking that these are all of my confessions, they just don't seem scandalous enough to post.
I just went to the 6th floor to use the bathroom because I had to poop, and I knew it was going to be painful and probably take a while, and didn't want anyone around.
Also, I lied to my office about a Dr's appointment earlier this week when I really had a job interview. They don't know I'm KU'ed yet, but with the actual Dr's appointments, and the 2 job interviews that I said were Dr's appointments, all in the last 3-4 weeks, they've got to know something is going on.
H's work has just had some changes in management this week, so when he took the day off on Wednesday for our u/s, his old boss got nervous that he was going for a job interview. H finally had to tell him I was pregnant because he didn't believe him at first.
I convinced myself that I have a bump already so I went out and spent $300 on new clothes.
I bought myself a really nice (read: more $ than I would normally spend) pair of flats after I found out I was pregnant. You know, I should be comfortable and not have to wear the high heels everywhere anymore, right?
I'm secretly glad amazon changed its free super saver shipping policy from $25-$35 because it gives me an excuse to order more books!!! And I always order after my husband pays the credit card bill so he won't see the charge for at least a month.
I'm secretly (not so secret anymore) hoping that my MIL falls down some stairs or out of a window or something before she gets a chance to visit tomorrow. It's an evil thought.. But I really don't like her.
I secretly do not care what color DH wants to paint the upstairs bathroom. It annoys me that I have to take his opinion into account at all.
I'm usually not this bitchy about decorating, it's his house too, but if he had his choice, he would paint every room a different shade of green. I am over pretending to consider it. Besides, we already did 2 rooms green. That's enough!
@lest12 When DH and I bought our house 5 years ago we had just gotten engaged. I bought a green shower curtain and DH flipped out. I mean, threw a hissy fit and we almost broke up. Apparently he dispises the color green and was appauled that I had even suggested it.
So long story short, I'm not allowed to bring anything green into this house!
After 3 failed Clomid+TI cycles, DD was conceived with IUI#1
FFFCs normally are one of the most commented on posts of the week - is no one posting because of what happened yesterday? Are people scared to post? I don't get it.
Lol I was also curious about this. Maybe we all just lead boring lives? I can't think of anything to confess!
Pregnant women *always* have confessions - I ate crap food all day and it was awesome. Can't stop eating chocolate. I'm wearing yoga pants and a tunic to work today because I dont want to wear dress pants. I'm pretending my ms is worse than it is so hubby will do the dishes. I did nothing but watched DanceMoms last night etc.
There is something else going on for sure.
I was thinking that these are all of my confessions, they just don't seem scandalous enough to post.
I just went to the 6th floor to use the bathroom because I had to poop, and I knew it was going to be painful and probably take a while, and didn't want anyone around.
Also, I lied to my office about a Dr's appointment earlier this week when I really had a job interview. They don't know I'm KU'ed yet, but with the actual Dr's appointments, and the 2 job interviews that I said were Dr's appointments, all in the last 3-4 weeks, they've got to know something is going on.
H's work has just had some changes in management this week, so when he took the day off on Wednesday for our u/s, his old boss got nervous that he was going for a job interview. H finally had to tell him I was pregnant because he didn't believe him at first.
Bad timing for all of that!
I know that my boss & my manager both probably think it's pregnancy/getting pregnant related. When I had a CP in June, I found out at work and was REALLY upset and left early. And I had about a billion doctor's appointments. So, I had told my boss what happened because I didn't want her to be concerned or wonder why I was out so much that week or so.
After that, she kept bringing up "when I go on maternity leave", as in "We have to think about cross-training your role, for when you eventually go on maternity leave." Who says that to someone who just had a loss?
I got so sick of it (who is that insensitive) that I finally said something to her, like "that upsets me a lot. please stop." So I'm pretty sure now, she is afraid to say anything to me at all. All of these odd lunch hours I'm taking or leaving slightly early or whatever, and she hasn't said a peep. I don't feel bad about it.
Edit - I can't seem to create line breaks. Hmph.
I bought stuff to make caramel apples and rolo pretzels for my SIL pumpkin carving extravaganza this weekend that she does every year for all the kids (including my Niece and nephew) and I've eaten half the bag...of caramels... And rolos... And m&ms ... And Reese's pieces. Looks like these apples will not be dipped in anything.
I secretly do not care what color DH wants to paint the upstairs bathroom. It annoys me that I have to take his opinion into account at all.
I'm usually not this bitchy about decorating, it's his house too, but if he had his choice, he would paint every room a different shade of green. I am over pretending to consider it. Besides, we already did 2 rooms green. That's enough!
@lest12 When DH and I bought our house 5 years ago we had just gotten engaged. I bought a green shower curtain and DH flipped out. I mean, threw a hissy fit and we almost broke up. Apparently he dispises the color green and was appauled that I had even suggested it.
So long story short, I'm not allowed to bring anything green into this house!
At my doctor's appointment, they told me to try to drink a glass of milk every day. H is very serious about my pregnancy diet, so he has been making sure that I drink a glass of milk every day. Yesterday we ran out and while we were on the way home from work, I convinced him to stop and get me frozen custard because I needed a serving of dairy and we were out of milk
FFFCs normally are one of the most commented on posts of the week - is no one posting because of what happened yesterday? Are people scared to post? I don't get it.
Lol I was also curious about this. Maybe we all just lead boring lives? I can't think of anything to confess!
Pregnant women *always* have confessions - I ate crap food all day and it was awesome. Can't stop eating chocolate. I'm wearing yoga pants and a tunic to work today because I dont want to wear dress pants. I'm pretending my ms is worse than it is so hubby will do the dishes. I did nothing but watched DanceMoms last night etc.
There is something else going on for sure.
I was thinking that these are all of my confessions, they just don't seem scandalous enough to post.
I just went to the 6th floor to use the bathroom because I had to poop, and I knew it was going to be painful and probably take a while, and didn't want anyone around.
Also, I lied to my office about a Dr's appointment earlier this week when I really had a job interview. They don't know I'm KU'ed yet, but with the actual Dr's appointments, and the 2 job interviews that I said were Dr's appointments, all in the last 3-4 weeks, they've got to know something is going on.
H's work has just had some changes in management this week, so when he took the day off on Wednesday for our u/s, his old boss got nervous that he was going for a job interview. H finally had to tell him I was pregnant because he didn't believe him at first.
Bad timing for all of that!
I know that my boss & my manager both probably think it's pregnancy/getting pregnant related. When I had a CP in June, I found out at work and was REALLY upset and left early. And I had about a billion doctor's appointments. So, I had told my boss what happened because I didn't want her to be concerned or wonder why I was out so much that week or so.
After that, she kept bringing up "when I go on maternity leave", as in "We have to think about cross-training your role, for when you eventually go on maternity leave." Who says that to someone who just had a loss?
I got so sick of it (who is that insensitive) that I finally said something to her, like "that upsets me a lot. please stop." So I'm pretty sure now, she is afraid to say anything to me at all. All of these odd lunch hours I'm taking or leaving slightly early or whatever, and she hasn't said a peep. I don't feel bad about it.
Edit - I can't seem to create line breaks. Hmph.
That's awful! Who in their right mind thinks that talking maternity leave with someone right after a loss is a good idea?
H is pretty good friends with his boss though, so luckily it was a good thing. Plus, they just changed their vacation policy too so H was able to ask about how that will work for paternity leave without it being awkward asking to take off several weeks in a row.
I regularly tell DH that I need to poop and then just go into the bathroom to be alone for awhile. Sometimes I sit and read a book on the floor. It's wonderful.
"And all the house elves came to help, and THAT was the day Voldemort was defeated!"
Re: FFFC!
I then proceeded to make dinner and realized that when he got off of work he bought me a case of cream soda and a package of Klondike bars that that I've been dying for all week.
The snacks I brought for my desk Monday for the "entire" week were gone two days ago. Oops!
I can be watching HGTV, and I will find something to cry over. I am looking forward to the day when I don't seem like a crazy person. Lol!
I secretly do not care what color DH wants to paint the upstairs bathroom. It annoys me that I have to take his opinion into account at all.
I'm usually not this bitchy about decorating, it's his house too, but if he had his choice, he would paint every room a different shade of green. I am over pretending to consider it. Besides, we already did 2 rooms green. That's enough!
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All I want to eat is carbs. Yesterday for lunch I made almost an entire box of spaghetti with the intention of saving some for DD's dinner, but instead I ate the entire thing. At 3pm. And still had a normal dinner.
Also, I just bought new boots and a new pair of shoes, neither of which I would normally have spent that much $$ on. I had them delivered to the house yesterday when DH was at work so he woudn't know.
I had DH bring down the Halloween stuff from the attic a few weeks ago and its been sitting in the hallway ever since. Now that Halloween is less than a week away, I decided I don't feel like putting any decorations out.
After 3 failed Clomid+TI cycles, DD was conceived with IUI#1
TTC #2
Clomid 50 mg + IUI#1 = BFP, m/c and D&C at 7w1d
Clomid 50mg + IUI#2 = BFN
Clomid 100mg + IUI#3 = BFN
Lupron + Follistim + IVF#1 = 11ER, 10M, 10F, ET of 1 expanded BBA 5-day blast, 2 Frosties. BFP! Beta 10/13 = 264! Beta 10/15 = 702! EDD 6/21/14
I was thinking that these are all of my confessions, they just don't seem scandalous enough to post.
I just went to the 6th floor to use the bathroom because I had to poop, and I knew it was going to be painful and probably take a while, and didn't want anyone around.
Also, I lied to my office about a Dr's appointment earlier this week when I really had a job interview. They don't know I'm KU'ed yet, but with the actual Dr's appointments, and the 2 job interviews that I said were Dr's appointments, all in the last 3-4 weeks, they've got to know something is going on.
@lest12 When DH and I bought our house 5 years ago we had just gotten engaged. I bought a green shower curtain and DH flipped out. I mean, threw a hissy fit and we almost broke up. Apparently he dispises the color green and was appauled that I had even suggested it.
So long story short, I'm not allowed to bring anything green into this house!
After 3 failed Clomid+TI cycles, DD was conceived with IUI#1
TTC #2
Clomid 50 mg + IUI#1 = BFP, m/c and D&C at 7w1d
Clomid 50mg + IUI#2 = BFN
Clomid 100mg + IUI#3 = BFN
Lupron + Follistim + IVF#1 = 11ER, 10M, 10F, ET of 1 expanded BBA 5-day blast, 2 Frosties. BFP! Beta 10/13 = 264! Beta 10/15 = 702! EDD 6/21/14
"And all the house elves came to help, and THAT was the day Voldemort was defeated!"
Zoe Johannah, born 6/3/2014