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Cold feet??

+SouthernMomma++SouthernMomma+ member
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Since everything came back normal from the SIS and blood work, My husband and I decided to give ourselves the "go ahead" to start TTC again. (Because we couldn't get in to see our doctor again for a month and half and didn't want to waste cycles. We assumed this is what the Dr. would tell us to do anyway) I should be O-ing within the next few days, so last night we decided to go ahead and "try"... (first time since MC) But I couldn't do it... I got emotional and in a way, Scared.... By the time my husband talked me down and I was able to relax, the mood, night, and "want to" had already passed by. Ugh I feel so ridiculous for reacting that way, but I cant help but wonder WHY??? or Will it happed again?

Any thoughts ladies?

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Re: Cold feet??

  • Jen071407Jen071407 member
    I'm sorry :( Don't even think about beating yourself up over being emotional. I had such a hard time BDing after my loss. TTC or not, I just had to remind myself that intimacy with MH is important for us as a couple, and just one of many ways to connect emotionally. Big hugs to you. MC and everything associated with it just plain ol' stinks. 

    Two DDs 10/08 and 08/10, no primary IF
    TTC #3 since 10/2011 - dx unexplained/weak ovulation
     3 BFN clomid + TI cycles, 5 BFN clomid/gonal f IUIs, 1 mmc IUI
    2/19/2014 IVF #1 Unexpected low E2 (oversuppressed) -> increased to max doses = 3 or 4 follicles, converting to IUI
    BFFP Saw 1 beautiful heartbeat at 6w6d, follow up u/s at 9w showed mmc. Eff this.
    NTNP 5/2014-9/2014, OPKs and TI 10/2014 - 1/2015. 
    RPL testing all normal, AFC, AMH, and FSH all normal. 
    IVF 1.2 1/22/2014 natural cycle start, AFC 28, 300 gonal f/150menopur. 
    ER 2/3/15 14R 8M 3F w/ICSI Day 5 transfer on 2/8/15 of one "Grade A+" blast and have TWO frosties! 

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  • freakyfastfreakyfast member
    Awe I am so sorry.  I think that it is normal.  It takes time, and unfortunately I think it takes a lot of time.   I think once the want for another baby outweighs the sadness of another possible loss takes over you will be fine.  
    I worried the same thing, but then thought, I am strong and I can get through this no matter what. ((HUGS)) to you love.  



      


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  • +SouthernMomma++SouthernMomma+ member

    Thank you for the kind words, ladies. I think I was more in shock of how hesitant and just flat out scared I got of going through this again. Whew! I am seriously contemplating getting ridiculously drunk this cycle. Maybe it will help take the pressure off!  lol.

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  • Gator_Bride07Gator_Bride07 member
    I don't have experience with this, but want to extend some ((hugs)) ....and a cocktail? ;)
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  • pettycrockerpettycrocker member
    IF is so incredibly difficult alone, and I can not imagine having to deal with this on top of a loss. It's all so hard, and sometimes we all have break downs. You know yourself better than anyone else, maybe this was your own way of letting yourself know you need a little bit more time? 


    *Big big hugs* I hope you are feeling a little better today. 
    :o3


    Spontaneous pregnancy #1
    DD1 July 31, 2011

    Trying for #2 since Oct 11
    732973 Clomid Cycles
    2 IUIs 
    3 Fresh IVFs= 1 Ectopic treated with MTX
    Spontaneous pregnancy #2= Ectopic #2= lost left tube
    Spontaneous pregnancy #3= DD2 January 29, 2016
    Spontaneous pregnancy #4= Ectopic #3
    Spontaneous pregnancy #5= Baby #3 is a BOY!!! 



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