I feel like I'm at my breaking point. For those that don't know I'm currently a SAHM. SO works long hours this time of year so I am pretty much home alone. We don't live near any friends or family. DS is a pretty needy/fussy baby most of the time. DS was supposed to start going to daycare this week 1 day a week so I could get a break and he could be around other kids. But SO said that's not happening anymore as we don't need to spend the money! Ugh. I can't find any decent jobs around here either. I love my son but I think I can love him better if I'm not with him 24/7! It gets so stressful being home with DS all day alone when he is super fussy and nothing works to make him happy and no one is around to help me out. I also feel like I'm getting depressed. I blew up on the phone to SO tonight when he told me he would be late. I told him that I can't do this much longer and if I have to pack up me and DS and move to find a job I will, I can't handle being home alone anymore. I am mentally and physically exhausted!! Sorry so long....I just needed to vent to people that would listen to me.
Re: I don't know what to do anymore!!....vent!
Seriously, that daycare is MONEY WELL SPENT. Your DH is a giant douchecanoe for not realizing this.
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Yeah I usually make allowance jokes to SO. I hate not having my own money. I'm kicking around the idea of starting my own business as a home care assistant so hopefully that will work out and A) it will get me out of the house and a break from DS and
I also live in a small town, but there are jobs here. Is there possibly a job you could take part time that isn't perfect for you but would work for now? Or check out teleworking jobs so you can work from home and send LO to daycare on those days.
I hope things get better for you soon!
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Also, this is random, but check if your town has a Facebook page/website or a garage sale page. If they have a FB page/website it may have activities posted. Or if its a garage sale page you can ask there if there if there are any events in your town.