1) Totally just had two homemade cinnamon rolls (caramel pecan) for second breakfasts
2) Yesterday my ankles swelled up so bad and my mom brought me Ted Hose... I wore them over night and she told me to wear them to work today... yeah did not wear them to work... I wore a dress and didn't even shave
3) TMI part: I have a little more discharge today than normal and I hate wearing pads (you're not supposed to have to use that stuff when you're pregnant!) so I feel gross, and am having a little panic attack inside because I feel like LO is just being so quiet... I'm sure he'll perk right up after those cinnamon rolls
I just had a good one and lost it. Darn it! So here's what I have for now:
My birth coach is annoying me. She is REALLY into learning about L&D which is great and all but seriously I already know all of this. I've spent years learning about pregnancy and L&D and recovery. The only think left is for me to experience it. I think the lady teaching birth class is a moron and my coach keeps saying "like we learned in class". STFU!!!! No, like I learned over the last 15-20 years while considering a career as a OBGYN or midwife and workign with pregnant and pp moms!!! It's totally obnoxious. I'm sort of wishing I had just hired a doula.
I've been on my GD diet for a week now and have been cheating on it pretty much every day.
In memory of Corbin Scott 10/28/11-12/3/11.
Heaven got another angel the night you left this world behind
Heaven got a little better the day it took you away from me
Missing you tonight, see you again sometime
For now I'll close my eyes and dream of heaven tonight
I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
Now and Forever
My baby you'll be
There are at least two people on here that I roll my eyes at every time they post. I will not reveal who they are because I don't want to hurt their feelings. One is a know it all and I see her being the opposite of a sactimommy. She will do everything wrong or backwards, but she KNOWS how it's done. I actually work with a guy like her. Everything he has done, he has done it for 20 years or since he was four. People like them or either really fucking busy or really full of shit.
The other is an AW.
Please no guesses. It is against TOU to directly call someone out.
I've been on my GD diet for a week now and have been cheating on it pretty much every day.
I'm with ya sista! I was good the 1st week. I totally have more then 3 snacks
a day, and screw measuring, just eyeball the shit.
I test my sugar and then eat stuff I really shouldn't.
In memory of Corbin Scott 10/28/11-12/3/11.
Heaven got another angel the night you left this world behind
Heaven got a little better the day it took you away from me
Missing you tonight, see you again sometime
For now I'll close my eyes and dream of heaven tonight
I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
Now and Forever
My baby you'll be
I wish I had done more drugs in college. The ones I tried were all really cool. I was just a big scaredy cat about some others and now I wish I had those experiences. Unfortunately, your late 20's is not an acceptable time to experiment.
My sister recently asked me a drug related question and it made me nostalgic.
Disclaimer: I have not touched anything but alcohol in 8 years. This was all a looong time ago.
Oh, and I am a serious goody-goody to the public eye. I hate getting in trouble or doing anything wrong. None of my co-workers know how bad my potty mouth is and I hate making others feel bad. Ever notice I am not super snarky? Or that I don't really take part in the epic posts. I even have an AE that I created in order to be more snarky. I have only ever used it to vote for more people on winner polls.
There are at least two people on here that I roll my eyes at every time they post. I will not reveal who they are because I don't want to hurt their feelings. One is a know it all and I see her being the opposite of a sactimommy. She will do everything wrong or backwards, but she KNOWS how it's done. I actually work with a guy like her. Everything he has done, he has done it for 20 years or since he was four. People like them or either really fucking busy or really full of shit.
The other is an AW.
Please no guesses. It is against TOU to directly call someone out.
:-w
Shitballs! Now I'm all paranoid. :-SS
HAHA right? I will say I agree with Garden though. There's someone on here for me too that every time I read their replies I just massively eye roll. Some stuff is legit and I agree but other times I'm just like "oh you're just here to hear yourself talk and be holier than now." But I'll NEVER tell! ;-)
There are at least two people on here that I roll my eyes at every time they post. I will not reveal who they are because I don't want to hurt their feelings. One is a know it all and I see her being the opposite of a sactimommy. She will do everything wrong or backwards, but she KNOWS how it's done. I actually work with a guy like her. Everything he has done, he has done it for 20 years or since he was four. People like them or either really fucking busy or really full of shit.
The other is an AW.
Please no guesses. It is against TOU to directly call someone out.
:-w
Shitballs! Now I'm all paranoid. :-SS
HAHA right? I will say I agree with Garden though. There's someone on here for me too that every time I read their replies I just massively eye roll. Some stuff is legit and I agree but other times I'm just like "oh you're just here to hear yourself talk and be holier than now." But I'll NEVER tell! ;-)
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This is all very hilarious, because I have two people on here that I feel the same way about.
It's seriously like being in a sorority! I love it lol.
Can we say who the person is not??? You know process of elimination?
I am sure you all could figure out the know it all that doesnt know shit, if you think about it. I can't be the only one who has noticed. As for the AW, she is inconsequential. We all get a little AWish.
Oh, oh, I have another! I have a lot to confess this week. I like porn when I take care of myself. Well, I usually watch it on my kindle, but I was feeling nostalgic the other day and I watch an old DVD that DH and I bought together. Yeah, I left it sitting out and DH laughed at me. ">
I haven't done any sort of exercise other than tidying up our place, using the stairs up and down from our 3rd floor apartment, or shopping in about 2 weeks (hey, Carrie Bradshaw said "shopping is my cardio" so that counts if you ask me). Part of me feels like this means I'm gunna be underprepared for the hopefully natural L&D I have my eyes on but then I get all wishy washy like "meh...I've run a few half-marathons in the past few years, how bad can it be?" Famous last words right? I fear I'm in for a rude awakening but...I just don't WANNA exercise most days.
IDK if this is even remotely classified as a FFFC or if it's just after-IF/after-loss brain talking but I'm having a hard time getting excited for LO to arrive. People ask me if I'm getting excited or if I'm ready for LO to be here and it hasn't really even hit me yet that the belly will actually mean a baby. Insofar as "stuff" goes, the nursery is ready, we have everything we need, and I'm as prepared as I can be for labor. But somehow I feel like the rug's going to get pulled out from under us and we're STILL going to walk away empty handed.
I really hope all this mindfuck doesn't interfere with bonding once the baby arrives, ugh.
Six years of infertility and loss, four IUIs, one IVF and one very awesome little boy born via med-free birth 10.24.13.
IDK if this is even remotely classified as a FFFC or if it's just after-IF/after-loss brain talking but I'm having a hard time getting excited for LO to arrive. People ask me if I'm getting excited or if I'm ready for LO to be here and it hasn't really even hit me yet that the belly will actually mean a baby. Insofar as "stuff" goes, the nursery is ready, we have everything we need, and I'm as prepared as I can be for labor. But somehow I feel like the rug's going to get pulled out from under us and we're STILL going to walk away empty handed.
I really hope all this mindfuck doesn't interfere with bonding once the baby arrives, ugh.
I just want to hug you. I can't really relate since I haven't been in your shoes, but as someone that struggled with bonding, you can and will get through it. You are going to be a wonderful mom. I would be more worried if you werent thinking of these things. KWIM? (((HUGS)))
To go along with what @KFran84 said..
I miss getting baked.
When I was in college my pals and I would pick one of our cars and smoke ourselves out. It's so stupid, but it was so much fun.
DH has never puffed the magic dragon, but I made him promise that he would light up with me one day. Maybe when our kids are older.
I'm so lame for having to plan this out.
I was laying in bed with DH last night and said, "Doesn't it seem like forever ago when we used to smoke every night?" He was thinking the same thing! Someday we will get back to our hippie roots....someday....
IDK if this is even remotely classified as a FFFC or if it's just after-IF/after-loss brain talking but I'm having a hard time getting excited for LO to arrive. People ask me if I'm getting excited or if I'm ready for LO to be here and it hasn't really even hit me yet that the belly will actually mean a baby. Insofar as "stuff" goes, the nursery is ready, we have everything we need, and I'm as prepared as I can be for labor. But somehow I feel like the rug's going to get pulled out from under us and we're STILL going to walk away empty handed.
I really hope all this mindfuck doesn't interfere with bonding once the baby arrives, ugh.
I have eventually walked of the hospital with 2 babies (one sick and the other healthy). This hasn't changed my feeling of disconnect between swollen belly and soon-to-be baby. Emotional trauma is a bitch. Bonding will happen. Whether it's in the first few moments after baby has been placed on your chest, or within the first few months after you're home. Either way, I wish you and LO nothing but health and happiness!!
1. I hate having to depend on DH for everything. I'm scared he's going to resent me for being on bed rest.
2. I feel terrible about this but I have this weird calm feeling about LO being born early. Like I have a feeling she is going to be early but I know she's going to be okay.
Me: 28 yo | DH: 28 yo Married 2012 DD: 3 yo TTC #2 August 2017
My FFFC: I got an e-mail earlier this week from someone who saw me at church and thought we should be friends, have playdates with our kids, etc. I made up an excuse and declined because...I don't want to be friends. Just imagine the effort...I would have to put a bra on for playdates, what if her children are monsters and I don't want my kids around them?, and...I'm just too lazy for the effort being an even halfway decent friend entails.
And I apologize profusely if I'm one of the annoying AW or know-it-alls! I think I like to hear myself "talk."
And @ashleyross...I'm so guilty of the huge siggy pic. I don't know how to size things after the switchover. I miss tinypic. =(
IDK if this is even remotely classified as a FFFC or if it's just after-IF/after-loss brain talking but I'm having a hard time getting excited for LO to arrive. People ask me if I'm getting excited or if I'm ready for LO to be here and it hasn't really even hit me yet that the belly will actually mean a baby. Insofar as "stuff" goes, the nursery is ready, we have everything we need, and I'm as prepared as I can be for labor. But somehow I feel like the rug's going to get pulled out from under us and we're STILL going to walk away empty handed.
I really hope all this mindfuck doesn't interfere with bonding once the baby arrives, ugh.
Big hugs. I feel this way most days too. And I find that if I do catch myself getting excited that I will smack myself down telling myself not to get my hopes up. Hell, I had a dentist appointment yesterday and when the hygienist was making my next appointment she goes "well baby girl will be here by then, you'll have just have to bring her with. You will bring her with right?" All I could muster was "we'll see." I know she heard it as "I may have a sitter." I meant it as "I hope she's still with us by then." PGAL blows! >:D<
In memory of Corbin Scott 10/28/11-12/3/11.
Heaven got another angel the night you left this world behind
Heaven got a little better the day it took you away from me
Missing you tonight, see you again sometime
For now I'll close my eyes and dream of heaven tonight
I'll love you forever
I'll like you for always
Now and Forever
My baby you'll be
My FFC. I've been lying to my boss about my plans after I leave here for months-- and I think she's on to me. She thinks I'm just going to stay at home, but the truth is I am either starting my own practice or leaving here for a bigger firm. She had texted another partner at the firm I'm considering joining saying that she heard that is where I'm going. Luckily he played dumb. The truth is that I just don't want to have the difficult conversation with her explaining all the reasons I would never come back to work here-- including her terrible money management and lack of investing in important resources for the firm (like updated computer programs), her husband/paralegal who has fits like a 5 year old including slamming his fists on his desk, the fact that I could probably make more at McDonald's than she is paying me, and the staff member that is horrible that she continues to defend. I guess she'll learn the truth soon enough.
@DebateThis ::hugs::
My FFFC to go off what garden said about porn. Guilty. Except I watch... Lesbian porn.
And nope, I'm not the least bit gay. Idk why it does what it does for me, but Lesbian porn + pregnant me = a job well done!
No advice here, but always willing to listen. I'm sure we all have that little panic of will I bond with him/her? Will they even like me? At least I know I do...
FYI, none of the ladies that have commented about the know it all should be worried. None of you are that person or the AW. Even the ones that are worried.
I'm a SAHM and have not been cooking much for my family this last week or so. I feel like a POS. Here's your PB&J and carrots for dinner, DS. Enjoy! DH even has to come up with his own dinner a few nights a week lately. Cooking was so high on my priority list before I hit the 3rd Tri. What happened? I like to make things from scratch, but now I want to buy a freezer to put in the garage so I don't have to cook. :-??
FYI, none of the ladies that have commented about the know it all should be worried. None of you are that person or the AW. Even the ones that are worried.
FYI, none of the ladies that have commented about the know it all should be worried. None of you are that person or the AW. Even the ones that are worried.
Oohh...thanks! For a second, I thought you were tagging me as the AW person that you are talking about and my heart dropped. I'm sorry if it is me. I just posted about falling down my stairs...that's a total AW post.
All this talk about porn and getting selves off is grossing me out today. I'm not sure why as usually I don't care. I'm sorry, I had to say it!
And I can completely relate to the fear of not being able to bond with baby. I do not know about pgal personally, aside from my twin sister going through it twice (which was still hard for me as we are very close), I do know that bonding will be there for you guys sooner or later, and that it is in our nature to do so. That cannot be taken from us, or just magically doesn't exist. It is hardwired into our beings. I believe that the fear will subside, and the strong connection to our LOs will grow stronger with each passing day. For me, the second time around is much different than the first. The feeling of bonding comes much quicker the second go round.
I'm still bitter about that kick count thread and there are a few of you that I look at completely differently now.
Oh no, what did I miss. *off to scout out this thread...*
it really wasn't even anything that good just people saying I don't do them because...... My dr didn't tell me to, they cause extra stress, I feel my baby move all the time....
IDK if this is even remotely classified as a FFFC or if it's just after-IF/after-loss brain talking but I'm having a hard time getting excited for LO to arrive. People ask me if I'm getting excited or if I'm ready for LO to be here and it hasn't really even hit me yet that the belly will actually mean a baby. Insofar as "stuff" goes, the nursery is ready, we have everything we need, and I'm as prepared as I can be for labor. But somehow I feel like the rug's going to get pulled out from under us and we're STILL going to walk away empty handed.
I really hope all this mindfuck doesn't interfere with bonding once the baby arrives, ugh.
This morning I totally reamed out one of the employees that I supervise for not doing his job and spending too much time distracted on the Internet. Then I got on TB to see what's going on with you ladies
There are at least two people on here that I roll my eyes at every time they post. I will not reveal who they are because I don't want to hurt their feelings. One is a know it all and I see her being the opposite of a sactimommy. She will do everything wrong or backwards, but she KNOWS how it's done. I actually work with a guy like her. Everything he has done, he has done it for 20 years or since he was four. People like them or either really fucking busy or really full of shit.
The other is an AW.
Please no guesses. It is against TOU to directly call someone out.
:-w
I'm going to put this thing to bed for everyone and totally confess that it's me. Both are me.
Also, I don't like sandwiches.
BFP#1 10/19/09, m/c 12/5/09, BFP#2 2/03/12, m/c 2/12/12, BFP#3 3/18/13, LO born 11/22/13
And @ashleyross...I'm so guilty of the huge siggy pic. I don't know how to size things after the switchover. I miss tinypic. =(
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I still use tinypic for siggy pictures, you just have to experiment with size and which code to copy.
Now I really feel like an idiot. I thought people were commenting after the switch that they no longer knew how to insert pics...I took this to mean tinypic didn't work anymore. I guess I should have tried it! Thanks @GOBLU1274!
Re: {{{FFFC}}}
In memory of Corbin Scott 10/28/11-12/3/11. Heaven got another angel the night you left this world behind Heaven got a little better the day it took you away from me Missing you tonight, see you again sometime For now I'll close my eyes and dream of heaven tonight I'll love you forever I'll like you for always Now and Forever My baby you'll be
corbinsmommy.blogspot.com
I test my sugar and then eat stuff I really shouldn't.
In memory of Corbin Scott 10/28/11-12/3/11. Heaven got another angel the night you left this world behind Heaven got a little better the day it took you away from me Missing you tonight, see you again sometime For now I'll close my eyes and dream of heaven tonight I'll love you forever I'll like you for always Now and Forever My baby you'll be
corbinsmommy.blogspot.com
My sister recently asked me a drug related question and it made me nostalgic.
Disclaimer: I have not touched anything but alcohol in 8 years. This was all a looong time ago.
#LOLFITMAMA
#LOLFITMAMA
#LOLFITMAMA
...if he *will* leave his iPad out and the sound on so it goes "ding!" every time he gets a message...
I really hope all this mindfuck doesn't interfere with bonding once the baby arrives, ugh.
I just want to hug you. I can't really relate since I haven't been in your shoes, but as someone that struggled with bonding, you can and will get through it. You are going to be a wonderful mom. I would be more worried if you werent thinking of these things. KWIM? (((HUGS)))
Bonding will happen. Whether it's in the first few moments after baby has been placed on your chest, or within the first few months after you're home. Either way, I wish you and LO nothing but health and happiness!!
Married 2012
DD: 3 yo
TTC #2 August 2017
Big hugs. I feel this way most days too. And I find that if I do catch myself getting excited that I will smack myself down telling myself not to get my hopes up. Hell, I had a dentist appointment yesterday and when the hygienist was making my next appointment she goes "well baby girl will be here by then, you'll have just have to bring her with. You will bring her with right?" All I could muster was "we'll see." I know she heard it as "I may have a sitter." I meant it as "I hope she's still with us by then." PGAL blows! >:D<
In memory of Corbin Scott 10/28/11-12/3/11. Heaven got another angel the night you left this world behind Heaven got a little better the day it took you away from me Missing you tonight, see you again sometime For now I'll close my eyes and dream of heaven tonight I'll love you forever I'll like you for always Now and Forever My baby you'll be
corbinsmommy.blogspot.com
:-??
Also pregnancy brain on top of mommy brain has me second guessing everything I spell and all my grammar. I finally stopped caring
And I can completely relate to the fear of not being able to bond with baby. I do not know about pgal personally, aside from my twin sister going through it twice (which was still hard for me as we are very close), I do know that bonding will be there for you guys sooner or later, and that it is in our nature to do so. That cannot be taken from us, or just magically doesn't exist. It is hardwired into our beings. I believe that the fear will subside, and the strong connection to our LOs will grow stronger with each passing day. For me, the second time around is much different than the first. The feeling of bonding comes much quicker the second go round.
it really wasn't even anything that good