self dx

I have a history of depression, so I'm not surprised that I'm feeling PPD'ish, but I'm still struggling with it. I was on a combo of prozac and wellbutrin while pregnant but weaned off the Wellbutrin so I could nurse.  I stayed on the Prozac because I knew I needed it. I can't seem to 'get my $shit together' and I've gained a TON of weight. I know I have PPD, but I no longer have health insurance, so I haven't gone to the Dr. I pay for my meds out of pocket, and I'm not working so I can't really afford any expensive meds. I'm feeling really frustrated and down... I guess I just need some reassurance that I can get through this and that I'm not crazy!