Waving the white flag

BellaOso · September 2013

I surrender.

I believe I have PPD. I have been trying to be a little "Pollyanna" about everything, but I can't pull it together. I can't pull myself up anymore. My DH is trying like heck to help, even my toddler is on her best behavior and I'm still a mess.

I already made the call to my doctor. I'll go in on Monday. I'm waving the white flag.

I'll see you guys when I can pull it together, in the meantime, I will miss the crap out of you guys.

If you think you have PPD, tell someone and GET HELP.

NikkiD522 · September 2013

Sorry to hear this! But kudos to you for identifying it and getting help!! Thank you for sharing and good luck!! Ts & Ps!

WildRumpus · September 2013

Good for you for realizing you need some help.
((Creepy Internet stranger hugs))

We'll be here when you get back

emmaleigh05 · September 2013

Best of luck. You're doing a great thing by getting help.

cortneyloo · September 2013

Good for you for recognizing there's a problem. It's only going to go up from here now that you're seeking treatment!

MitsB707 · September 2013

Glad you can recognize it an are seeking help. Sending good thoughts and prayers your way!

tdmklm · September 2013

Good luck, @BellaOso. You have my T&Ps for quick resolution to your PPD.

henderson1026 · September 2013

I'm sorry, I hope your Dr is able to offer the help you need

floridababy3 · September 2013

I'm so sorry!

RK125 · September 2013

Good luck! Hope you feel better soon!

MinnesotaMomma91 · September 2013

Good luck. Take care of you!

CBiggs85 · September 2013

If you don't mind sharing, what made you come to that realization?

Good for you for seeking help. Stay strong!

shelbell1028 · September 2013

Hope things are better soon!!

kmichln · September 2013

Good luck hun! I'm so sorry you are going through that. We are all here if you need to talk!

LEMSA · September 2013

So glad your getting help. We'll be here whenever you need us.

Ruger04 · September 2013

I'm so sorry hope your feel better soon!

bendicott7 · September 2013

Good luck with your dr appt. TnP's coming your way!

Katie6202 · September 2013

Feel better soon!! Lots of hugs to you'

krb03 · September 2013

Glad you have support at home and are getting help. Hope you are feeling better soon!

WashingtonQueen · September 2013

I'm so sorry

Take care of yourself and good luck.

MommyBolty · September 2013

Thoughts and prayers coming your way!

CourtJack · September 2013

First step is so huge. Best wishes and positivity to you.

BellaOso · September 2013

CBiggs85 said:

If you don't mind sharing, what made you come to that realization? Good for you for seeking help. Stay strong!

CBiggs85 - You know, I'm usually an open book - I have trouble keeping any secret, or even keeping myself from spouting off, but I'm so ashamed of how I feel I can't even begin to articulate it even with the anonymity of the interwebs. I think that is how I know it is bad. It's so bad I don't even want to talk about it or acknowledge it, and I take everything head on - to a fault. I told my DH and my best friend both of whom are going to help me with the babies because my girls are what is most important. DH and BFF love me unconditionally, and I'm not sure if I said the things I have been thinking out loud that everyone else would.

Maybe when I am on the other side I can share if anyone wants to know, but there is someone on this forum right now who is wondering if they need help; I know it, and I am hoping if I admit it and get help, it will inspire someone else to.

Thanks ladies. I hope i'm not gone long and you all remember me when I get back so I don't have to take too many lashings for being "new".

BellaOso · September 2013

msspeedymarie said:

Good luck to you. I've been on Prozac since 1st tri,and since I've had anxiety and depression since I was a teenager. I stayed on the Prozac to avoid PPD, as I was sure I'd have ended up with it otherwise. Congrats on asking for help.

Thank you Speedy. I was previously on medication for generalized anxiety disorder but it has been 5 years and 1 career ago. I appreciate you being candid about your experience as well.

Oh! And I will still do the "Whip Em Out Wednesdays". I just realize I need to step away most days and take care of me and my ladies.

CaliforniaDream87 · September 2013

GL to you and I hope you feel better soon!

TurtleMomma · September 2013

I have PPD, too. You are not alone. Send me a PM sometime if you want to talk.

KiKiMe · September 2013

I admire your strength. I hope you are able to feel better very soon!

KatyKatMeowz · September 2013

Good luck, and take care of yourself.

sfeebs13 · September 2013

Dammit @bellaoso. You're in my prayers.
I have a very long hx of depression and was so afraid of PPD I started taking my meds as soon as I got home from the hospital. I am EBF and it is ok for baby. I hated the thought of it at first but I had to reAlize its best for all of us involved.
Sending you lots of love.

Millie1984 · September 2013

Take good care, and good luck.

Soleil3 · September 2013

We're here for you, take care ofnyourself!!

rissa06 · September 2013

I question if I have a form
Of ppd and im not ready yet
To verbalize it.

Luckymomma4 · September 2013

Many thoughts and prayers to you. It's so not fair what us ladies have to go through. I've been there and I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy. I'm glad you recognized you needed help.

gnomely · September 2013

You're not alone. I definitely had some of my darkest, darkest days after DD1 was born. Like you said, it was impossible to even verbalize what I was thinking it was all so awful.

Take care of yourself, and I'll be thinking about you. Hope you get some relief soon.

karabear11 · September 2013

I hope you feel better soon and I admire you for realizing there was a problem and seeking help.

lydsyjane · September 2013

Lots of love and hugs to you, mama! Being a mom is a VERY, very hard job and everyone needs a little help sometimes. I'm so proud of you for coming forward and seeking help!

AmeliaKris · September 2013

I was in a bad place too but after 2 weeks on meds I'm a new person. I'm super type A and it really, really sucked not having control of my emotions and I was terrified. I thought it would never end but it is soooooo much better now. It will get better. I promise. We will be here when you're ready. Huge high five for taking the first step. You aren't alone.