May 2014 Moms

An update to I probably wont be here much longer..long *Updated*

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edited September 2013 in May 2014 Moms
I feel like I'm perpetually in limbo. 

To back it up a bit, on Sunday I went into the ER for bleeding.  At that point it was early in week 5.  They did the ultrasound, found gestational sac and yolk sac.  No embryo, which is normal for week five.  Hcg came back at 3853.
On Tuesday I went back to the ER because I couldn't get an appointment with any OB before the 8 week mark, even with bleeding.  The bleeding was heavier and they did draws again, which came back at 5935.
I managed to get in to see my OB on Wednesday.  Bleeding was the heaviest on that day with some very small clots.  Draws were done yet again, and came back today at 6600.  So, kind of a slow rise, but within normal limits.

Of course I'm classified as threatened miscarriage and high risk.  I'm still bleeding, but it's much lighter than it was on Wednesday.  Still dark and red though.  They did another draw today, and I go in for another sonogram on Monday with a follow up appointment on Thursday.  I'll find out my numbers from today on Monday.

I just feel like I need to know, one way or another.  This limbo is driving me crazy.  On one hand I am hopeful.  On another I am trying not to be hopeful.  I don't want to get my hopes up and have them come crashing down when my numbers drop. 

We tried for 3 years for this baby, and I've been in a funk of depression since Sunday basically.  I don't know what to think, what is normal, or even how to feel. 

I feel like I got to enjoy the thought of being a mother for all of a week before it was snatched away.  And it's not even snatched away yet, I just feel like it is! 

This is actually the first time since Tuesday that I allowed myself to come to May board, because every time I tried I would burst into new tears.


Update:
I had an ultrasound this morning and they did find a subchorionic bleed.  They saw the fetal pole and yolk sac and a little flickering heart beat on the abdominal scan, and obviously clearer on the transvaginal scan.

A few things confuse me though, as I was tracking ovulation the measurement was 5 weeks 5 days.  It did say plus or minus 3 days though.  I guess that's normal?

The heartbeat is only 96 bpm right now, but I hear that's normal for so early on. 

I wont find out my next beta's until later today, but I guess everything is going as planned!  Anyone out there have any input or thoughts?  This is my first pregnancy and I'm just at a loss as to what is normal and what is not!



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  • I am so, so sorry you are going through this.  Hopefully soon you will have some answers so you can heal and feel at peace with all this.  Sending you sticky baby thoughts!
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  • So sorry you're going through this.  I wish I could say something to make you feel better...it must be a good sign that the bleeding is decreasing, no?  And that the numbers keep going up.

    I understand not wanting to get your hopes up though.  I hope you can take some time for you this weekend and do something enjoyable, even to get it off your mind for a few hours.  I'll be thinking about you, and please let us know when you have more information next week.  Good luck.
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  • So sorry you have to go through this. Lots of T&P that your counts come back good and your sonogram goes well. Lots of sticky baby dust
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  • I am so sorry that you are going through this. I hope that the bleeding stops soon and that you get good news soon. ((hugs))
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  • I know this is really hard and hopefully you'll have clear answers next week. Take it a day at a time. Lots of T&Ps for you ((Hugs)).

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  • I am so sorry you are caught in this limbo. Just know that there is nothing you can do, nor have done any differently. Try to keep your mind busy this weekend. T&Ps that you get good news on Monday. (((Hugs)))
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  • I'm so sorry you're going through this :( Waiting is the hardest and most frustrating part! Hoping the bleeding stops and you have some positive news.
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  • I'm so sorry that you're going through this and in such limbo.  I really hope you get an answer for the bleeding and that lo is OK.  My T&P's are with you.  ((hugs))
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  • Praying for a sticky baby!  I hope your definite answers come sooner rather than later.  ((hugs))
  • I'm so sorry you are going through this! I hope you get some good news soon!

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  • So sorry you are going through this. I hope you get some positive news on Monday!
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  • I'm sorry. I hope you get answers soon. ((Hugs))
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  • oh I'm so sorry you're going through this.  I will be hoping for good news! Chin up!
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  • I'm sorry you have to go though this. Praying that you get good answers soon!
  • I'm so sorry you are dealing with this.  I'm hoping for good news as the days continue! 

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  • i am so sorry that you are going through this. limbo is not a good feeling, i know. But i am sending tons of positive thoughts & prayers & vibes your way! i hope it all works its self out for the best & good news comes next week. try to stay strong (((((BIG HUGS))))

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  • I'm so sorry your having to go through this. Prayers that the bleeding stops.
  • I am so sorry you are going through this, I know it must be a roller coaster of emotions. My OB told me today that she bled throught three of her four pregnancies, and that sometimes its very normal for women. Fingers crossed for a sticky baby!
  • I'm so sorry you're going through this. Keeping my fingers crossed for good news and sending you lots of sticky baby vibes!! Hugs!! <3
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  • Thanks everyone!

    If this little seed survives, I tell you, it will be our little miracle.  Worked so hard to get it, working so hard to keep it! 

    I'm on bed rest right now and I'm pretty miserable.

    I'm going to be alone for the first day since Tuesday, so I'm a bit apprehensive that things are going to get worse while I'm alone. 

    Right now I'm just spotting, which is making me hopeful.  I'm trying to tell my brain to stop with the May baby daydreams. 
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    BFP #2: February 14th 2014 EDD October 25th 2014 CP February 17th 2014

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  • I'm so sorry you're having to go through this. Fingers crossed that you get some good news soon!
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    So sorry you are dealing with this, sending you lots of love xx

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  • Stay positive! Maybe read a funny book to distract yourself a little. I recommend Chelsea Handler's books, they are hilarious! Thoughts and prayers for your little baby!

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  • I'm so sorry... thoughts and prayers are with you!
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  • Very sorry you are going through this.  As others have said, try to think positively
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  • I'm so sorry you're going through this :( It could be a subchorionic hematoma since your betas are rising. If they do another u/s they should be able to see something.
    I had one with DS, lots of bleeding and cramping at 11wks, went to the ER had an u/s and that is what it was.
    Good luck getting answers fast! :)
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  • Praying for you now! So sorry you're going through this!
  • Menrandes said:

    Thanks everyone!

    If this little seed survives, I tell you, it will be our little miracle.  Worked so hard to get it, working so hard to keep it! 

    I'm on bed rest right now and I'm pretty miserable.

    I'm going to be alone for the first day since Tuesday, so I'm a bit apprehensive that things are going to get worse while I'm alone. 

    Right now I'm just spotting, which is making me hopeful.  I'm trying to tell my brain to stop with the May baby daydreams. 

    I hope this doesn't sound foolish, but at my age, I did everything I could think of from traditional Chinese medicine to hypnotherapy. There is a fertility ap that I fall asleep to every night. For the past several months I've awaken at different spots but couldn't tell you everything said. The brain is the most powerful thing in the world and I believe these positive affirmations helped me after a July 4th miscarriage through to the 5 weeks I'm at, right now.
    TCM says that lotus seed consumption will 'cool' your kidneys and help prevent miscarriage as is also said for chaste berry or other vitex plants.
    I'm military and even though I'm high risk for my age (44), they won't relent on standard procedure as to when my first appointment will be.
    I know all about bedrest. It can make the days sooo long. Now would be a perfect time for video binging or watching season after season on Netflix. You will get through this.
  • So I updated the first post, some good news!
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  • I'm glad you had a good u/s!

    Even though you know when you ovulated/conceived, I'm sure it's still normal for measurements to be ahead/behind so I wouldn't worry much about that at this point.
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  • Yay for a heartbeat! That is huge!!

    I wanted to tell you that with DS, when I went in for my 1st u/s, they measured him at 6w5d, which was about 3 days behind what I thought he was based on O. I was worried, but he ended up catching up and measured right on track the next 2 u/s I had. GL!

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  • That's great news re the heartbeat!  It's absolutely normal for measurements to be ahead or behind at any time.  They are just estimates and will adjust constantly. 

    Congrats!

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  • Yay for a heart beat!!

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  • I had a subchorionic bleed like you and I have a 20 month old little girl now :) they will usually heal but it may indicate your progesterone is low
  • Congrats! FX everything progresses in the right direction for you!!!

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