I feel like I'm perpetually in limbo.
To back it up a bit, on Sunday I went into the ER for bleeding. At that point it was early in week 5. They did the ultrasound, found gestational sac and yolk sac. No embryo, which is normal for week five. Hcg came back at 3853.
On Tuesday I went back to the ER because I couldn't get an appointment with any OB before the 8 week mark, even with bleeding. The bleeding was heavier and they did draws again, which came back at 5935.
I managed to get in to see my OB on Wednesday. Bleeding was the heaviest on that day with some very small clots. Draws were done yet again, and came back today at 6600. So, kind of a slow rise, but within normal limits.
Of course I'm classified as threatened miscarriage and high risk. I'm still bleeding, but it's much lighter than it was on Wednesday. Still dark and red though. They did another draw today, and I go in for another sonogram on Monday with a follow up appointment on Thursday. I'll find out my numbers from today on Monday.
I just feel like I need to know, one way or another. This limbo is driving me crazy. On one hand I am hopeful. On another I am trying not to be hopeful. I don't want to get my hopes up and have them come crashing down when my numbers drop.
We tried for 3 years for this baby, and I've been in a funk of depression since Sunday basically. I don't know what to think, what is normal, or even how to feel.
I feel like I got to enjoy the thought of being a mother for all of a week before it was snatched away. And it's not even snatched away yet, I just feel like it is!
This is actually the first time since Tuesday that I allowed myself to come to May board, because every time I tried I would burst into new tears.
Update:
I had an ultrasound this morning and they did find a subchorionic bleed. They saw the fetal pole and yolk sac and a little flickering heart beat on the abdominal scan, and obviously clearer on the transvaginal scan.
A few things confuse me though, as I was tracking ovulation the measurement was 5 weeks 5 days. It did say plus or minus 3 days though. I guess that's normal?
The heartbeat is only 96 bpm right now, but I hear that's normal for so early on.
I wont find out my next beta's until later today, but I guess everything is going as planned! Anyone out there have any input or thoughts? This is my first pregnancy and I'm just at a loss as to what is normal and what is not!
We met in middle school. We got married 15 years later in a February blizzard of 2010.
TTC since February 2010
Diagnosed with Lyme Disease June 2010 Diagnosed with PCOS March 2011 Diagnosed with Celiac Disease January 2013
BFP #1: August 25th 2013 EDD May 4th 2014 SCH MC October 3rd 2013
BFP #2: February 14th 2014 EDD October 25th 2014 CP February 17th 2014
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Re: An update to I probably wont be here much longer..long *Updated*
Me: 31, DH: 34, Married 5/29/05
BFP #1: 6/22/10, EDD 3/6/11, DS born 2/25/11 @ 38w5d
BFP #2: 7/27/13, EDD 4/9/14, CP 8/3/13
BFP #3: 8/31/13, EDD 5/10/13, DD born med-free 5/9/14 @ 39w6d
BFP#1 - 11/27/09 EDD 8/5/10, DS1 arrived 7/24/10 via emergency c-section.
BFP#2 - 6/18/12 EDD 2/23/13, sweet baby girl born sleeping on 10/4/12 at 19 weeks, 3 days.
BFP #3 - 1/18/13 EDD 10/1/13, natural mc on 2/2/13 at 5 weeks, 4 days.
BFP #4 - 8/29/13 EDD 5/12/14, our sweet rainbow, DS2 born 4/29/14 via c-section
i am so sorry that you are going through this. limbo is not a good feeling, i know. But i am sending tons of positive thoughts & prayers & vibes your way! i hope it all works its self out for the best & good news comes next week. try to stay strong (((((BIG HUGS))))
9/11/2011 BFP#1 , 9w3d MMC, 11/9/2011 D&C
2/7/2012 BFP #2, CP 2/11/2012
8/19/2013 BFP #3 1st Beta 12DPO 166 PG 15.5 2nd Beta I was told was great (need #'s still) Stick Baby Stick!!!
9/12 u/s measuring 7w1d HB 137!!! Grow Baby Grow!!!
BFP#1 10 wk missed mc
BFP#2 DS born at 40+2 on 8/14/12 BFP#3 DD Born at 39+3 on 5/13/14
If this little seed survives, I tell you, it will be our little miracle. Worked so hard to get it, working so hard to keep it!
I'm on bed rest right now and I'm pretty miserable.
I'm going to be alone for the first day since Tuesday, so I'm a bit apprehensive that things are going to get worse while I'm alone.
Right now I'm just spotting, which is making me hopeful. I'm trying to tell my brain to stop with the May baby daydreams.
Diagnosed with Lyme Disease June 2010 Diagnosed with PCOS March 2011 Diagnosed with Celiac Disease January 2013
BFP #1: August 25th 2013 EDD May 4th 2014 SCH MC October 3rd 2013
BFP #2: February 14th 2014 EDD October 25th 2014 CP February 17th 2014
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So sorry you are dealing with this, sending you lots of love xx
Kieran born 21.1.10
Angel baby 1 lost 18.6.13
Angel baby 2 lost 30.10.13
BFP#1: 11/20/11, EDD 7/25/12, Emily Iris arrived 7/29/12 at 7 lb., 3.5 oz.
BFP#2: 8/25/13, EDD 5/4/14, MMC confirmed on 9/23/13, D&C on 9/26/13
BFP#3: 2/3/14, EDD 10/15/14, fraternal TWINS confirmed 2/21/14, two BOYS confirmed on 4/15/14!
TCM says that lotus seed consumption will 'cool' your kidneys and help prevent miscarriage as is also said for chaste berry or other vitex plants.
I'm military and even though I'm high risk for my age (44), they won't relent on standard procedure as to when my first appointment will be.
I know all about bedrest. It can make the days sooo long. Now would be a perfect time for video binging or watching season after season on Netflix. You will get through this.
Diagnosed with Lyme Disease June 2010 Diagnosed with PCOS March 2011 Diagnosed with Celiac Disease January 2013
BFP #1: August 25th 2013 EDD May 4th 2014 SCH MC October 3rd 2013
BFP #2: February 14th 2014 EDD October 25th 2014 CP February 17th 2014
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Even though you know when you ovulated/conceived, I'm sure it's still normal for measurements to be ahead/behind so I wouldn't worry much about that at this point.
LCT - 5.15.14 ~ 9lbs, 22.5 inches
Yay for a heartbeat! That is huge!!
I wanted to tell you that with DS, when I went in for my 1st u/s, they measured him at 6w5d, which was about 3 days behind what I thought he was based on O. I was worried, but he ended up catching up and measured right on track the next 2 u/s I had. GL!
Congrats!
EDD 5/2/14, NMC 9/11/13
EDD 10/15/14, CP 2/8/14
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My Chart
9/11/2011 BFP#1 , 9w3d MMC, 11/9/2011 D&C
2/7/2012 BFP #2, CP 2/11/2012
8/19/2013 BFP #3 1st Beta 12DPO 166 PG 15.5 2nd Beta I was told was great (need #'s still) Stick Baby Stick!!!
9/12 u/s measuring 7w1d HB 137!!! Grow Baby Grow!!!