Ok so.....had my daughter She is perfect in every way. The birth was fine, the recovery was a little more painful than I last remembered, and my SO/Baby Dad was even there for everything....
Now I'm home....Alone....Everyday with the baby.... SO doesn't live with me. In fact he lives 3 hours away (work) and I cry myself to sleep everynight. The only time we really talk is on the phone and 85% of the time it's argueing. I get no help with the baby. I have no family up here and all my friends just had babies too.... I really need my SO to come back up here to help with both our kids but he says he cant right now because he has no job or a place to stay up when he knows he can stay with me but he refuses and says he needs to save up money (I live with my mom until august to help heal) But so far hes had about 3 paydays and claims hes making all this money but complains to me about how he'll only have maybe 100 left after bills (he only has a phone bill).....I can tell my PPD is setting back in...and i hate it. I even decided to stop pumping because I was so stressed everytime I started to pump I'd break down and cry..... I dont know what to do.... I go to a therapist and everything....I just need help that I know I cant ever get...
Re: It's Back....(update)