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Just found out my SIL is pg

And I am happy for her, but I am still sad for me. I should be holding a 2-month-old right now. Instead DH and I are 99% sure we are done. We have spent the past year and a half devoted to TTC and I can't take it any more. The more I am on a break the more I realize this may just be the end of that journey.

And I was getting fine with that until I heard she is pg. What is wrong with me? She has had 4 c/p and gone through 3 rounds of IVF. I know this is her miracle baby. I guess I am just upset because as we get ready to part with every thing DS has outgrown since birth she is expecting a child and would love for me to give her all of our stuff. I actually would like to take it to a consignment place and get some money back. They make twice what we do, but her DH is very cheap.

I hate that IF brings up so many ugly emotions. I just want to go back to bed. And DH doesn't get it at.all. Men. Grrrr. and Ugh.

Dx: PCOS and short luteal phase
18 cycles (3 with our RE) - Metformin + Clomid + HCG booster did the trick!
BFP #1 6/22/09 EDD: 3/2/10 DS born: 3/8/10

TTC #2 since Dec 2011
BFP #2 7/8/12 EDD: 3/18/12 M/C @ 9w1d: 8/16/12

Re: Just found out my SIL is pg

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    I'm sorry you're having a crappy day, and I can totally relate. Just when we think we've got a handle on our emotions related to SIF the world likes to throw us a reminder. Maybe there's a nice chocolate bar or bottle of wine in your near future?!

    Two DDs 10/08 and 08/10, no primary IF
    TTC #3 since 10/2011 - dx unexplained/weak ovulation
     3 BFN clomid + TI cycles, 5 BFN clomid/gonal f IUIs, 1 mmc IUI
    2/19/2014 IVF #1 Unexpected low E2 (oversuppressed) -> increased to max doses = 3 or 4 follicles, converting to IUI
    BFFP Saw 1 beautiful heartbeat at 6w6d, follow up u/s at 9w showed mmc. Eff this.
    NTNP 5/2014-9/2014, OPKs and TI 10/2014 - 1/2015. 
    RPL testing all normal, AFC, AMH, and FSH all normal. 
    IVF 1.2 1/22/2014 natural cycle start, AFC 28, 300 gonal f/150menopur. 
    ER 2/3/15 14R 8M 3F w/ICSI Day 5 transfer on 2/8/15 of one "Grade A+" blast and have TWO frosties! 

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    I'm so sorry.  It is so hard to deal with others around us getting pregnant.  And, yes, the DHs often don't get it at all, God love 'em.

    At least we have each other to understand it all.  :-)

    Me: 42. DH: 46.

    1st Pregnancy: MC, 11/19/00.

    2nd Pregnancy: DS born 04/10/06.

    3rd Pregnancy: CP, 03/11.

    4th Pregnancy: MMC, D&C 11/30/11, Genetic testing revealed Trisomy 4.

    5th Pregnancy: Ectopic, 2 doses of Methotrexate unsuccessful, surgery 4/10/12, right tube removed.

    Tried Letrozole January 2013-July 2013 (including 2 IUIs), all BFN.  After 2 1/2 years of trying for child #2, decided to "give up" after July cycle, based on AMA.

    August 16, 2013:  BFP our first month of "not trying!"  Still in shock.  Beta #1 (14dpo): 183.  Beta #2 (17dpo):  611.  Ultrasound 8/30/13: baby measured 6 weeks, 1 day, heart rate of 118 bpm! 
    Ultrasound 9/13/13:  8 weeks, heart rate of 176!
    Baby is due 4/26/14

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    I hate those mixed emotions over other's "happy news".  Truthfully if it bothers you too much to give away your baby stuff, either ask them to buy it from you or just hang on to it until they would no longer need it.  

    Hope you have a reason to still need that baby stuff soon. 

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    DD conceived after 3 years of ttc.
    MFI - DH had varicocele repair and took Clomid to get DD b. 02/2010

    TTC #2 since 6/2010
    10/2012 DH diagnosed with Epilepsy
    A few failed IUIs summer 2012 and 2013. 
    DH taking clomid and waiting to see if he needs another vericocele repair. 
    Hoping for a 2015 baby or babies. 
    Wishing, hoping, waiting.


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    I hate how ugly my emotions get.  I feel like a bad person because I am not happy or jealous of others who are getting pregnant.  Even if they have a hard time getting pregnant and get pregnant, I still am insanely jealous.  I don't want to be.  I have 2 kids and want a third and still feel this way.  Hate what IF does to me.
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