i had my baby last year 03/28/12 and i was doing pretty good for the
first few months until i had to stop breast feeding bc i wasnt producing
enough milk. the depression hit me like a hammer, really really
hard.i'm not going to go into dramatics but things got pretty bad. i
stopped eating and lost a lot of weight and kind of had to pick myself
up. i have a live in bf and tons of support from my family but no one
really understood where i was in my life. no one could see how hard it
was for me to just wake up everyday. and then i have to read abt women
killing their babies it really really terrifies me. i still get down
every now and again. my baby boy is a joy and he's a really good baby.
but i still feel like i'm a bad mom sometimes. just bc my son and his dad are like peas in a pod mostly bc i work and my bf doesnt. i try to keep myself happy but its hard. i feel like i can talk to no one bc no one understands. i'm currently going through a pregnancy scare and i'm on the fence on whether i want to be preggo again. on one hand i would love more children on the other hand i'm not ready financially and emotionally i'm terrified
Hi! I had DD on 3/5/12 and had extreme PPD... I have always struggled with depression and anxiety but I was hit really hard too. I loved my baby girl so much, I just never felt like a good enough mom. Did you ever talk to a doctor or get on medication? I go through the EXACT same thoughts about more children. I would love more, but I get scared to go through PPD again especially when I feel like I am still going through it sometimes. It sounds like you definitely need to talk to someone - you are NOT alone and you sure aren't a bad mama!
Re: still going through it