I am hungry and can't leave for another half hour.
The peanut butter crackers in my desk drawer did not taste as good as I wanted...
This protocol will not read itself.
Protocols are boring.
I want to go back on vacation.
Lots of Sads,
Panther.


TTC #1 since 10/2012.
BFP#1 11/28/12, MC, BFP #2 CP
BFP #3 10/21/2013, EDD 7/3/2014
Beta #1 (4W6D): 1768 Beta #2 (5W1D): 5255
1st US at 6W4D HB of 112 BPM!
1/20/2014: IT'S A GIRL!
6/30/2014: Happy birthday baby M!
Re: Dear Diary...
I want to go back on vacation.
I just planted a garden. It makes me happy.
It's 4 pm and I'm trying to convince myself that's it's not to early to start drinking.
DH is going to be working all evening and I got a positive OPK this morning. I need his sperm. After that, he can go back to work. That sounds bad but I want some alone down time this evening.
I want to hug everyone and smack them at the same time. That's not normal.
XOXO,
Sue
ETA: words
Me: 32 DH: 31.
B/W: good. SA: good.
November 2012: Paratubal cyst found during U/S.
January 10, 2013: Lap removed paratubal cyst and Stage 2 Endometriosis.
3 cycles of Femara + TI = BFNs
June 2013: Femara 2.5 mg, Gonal F Injects 37.5 IU, Menopur, trigger + IUI = BFN
July 2013: Femara 2.5 mg, Gonal F Injects 75 IU, Menopur, trigger + IUI = BFP!!!!
Beta 1 @ 11 DPIUI = 76. Progesterone = 27.3
BFP 8/16/2013 // EDD 4/28/2014
Jordan Samuel born April 19, 2014. 6 lb, 12 oz and 18 inches long.
CLICK ME!!!11!!1111!!
Dear Diary,
I really need my house to stop breaking.. were the fence, sprinkler system, and first basement flood not enough? I just had to pay for new tires, and now I have to pay several hundred dollars to get a sump pump installed.. I'm probably going to have to tear out my carpet and start over there as well
To be positive, I am thankful to have such a great job.. and I get to go home in about a hour and a half. Please let it pass quickly.
Dear Diary
I am glad that currently there is really no drama in my life. It may sound a bit boring, but this is the way I like it.
That is all...'til next time!
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Today, I am thankful.
XoXo,
Sully
Dear Diary,
I wrote Panther a PM a week ago and she still hasn't written me back. Sad.
My period is coming and I want to eat everything in sight. Too bad my rear gets larger just thinking about food. Life is hard.
Love,
Sun
Trying to get knocked up since June 2012 ~ Dx: PCOS
BFP 7.24.13 ~ EDD 4.2.14 ~ m/c 9.16.13 @ 11w4d
BFP 5.4.14 ~ EDD 1.12.15 ~ stick little bean!
TTGP 2013 Best Blog ~ Fruit ~ My BFP Chart
Dear Diary,
I really don't want to finish this month's invoicing. Work can suck my azz right now.
Also, Is there a way to temporarily speed up things to next Tuesday? If not, I'll take this Thursday. I'm really tired of my life feeling like it's totally on hold.
It's been just 1 day since hubby & I disabled our FB accounts, so far I love it. I'm seriously considering deleting.
Thanks for listening,
mwah!
Ummm....wut? I didn't even know I had a PM! I replied though!
TTC #1 since 10/2012.
BFP#1 11/28/12, MC, BFP #2 CP
BFP #3 10/21/2013, EDD 7/3/2014
Beta #1 (4W6D): 1768 Beta #2 (5W1D): 5255
1st US at 6W4D HB of 112 BPM!
1/20/2014: IT'S A GIRL!
6/30/2014: Happy birthday baby M!
Dear diary,
people on home renovation shows annoy the crap out of me.
I wish DH would get in the healthy eating train with me so I would not be tempted by the junky goodness he convinces me to buy. I did awesome this morning, but this afternoon I definitely busted out the caramel apple dip.
my new bathrobe is incredibly comfortable. I may never get dressed again.
xoxo,
Panda
ETA: change real name to shortened sn
BFP April 24, 2018 | EDD December 29, 2018
Dear Diary,
DH is driving me nuts. How many times do I have to explain how to NOT shrink clothes when doing the laundry before he either understands or just leaves it for me to do? I think he needs to just go back to work.
On a more positive note, one more day of work before I have 7 days off and taking a mini vacation with friends!
Ready to get out of the house,
Spark
Dear Diary,
I am thankful to have a job today- as others were fired. Also, I am thankful I have a DH who helps me clean... My precious little puppy is a tornado of disaster and after this long day I don't feel much like mopping up the paw prints. However, I will take the snuggles.
Dear diary,
I want to go home and cuddle my DH and chocalate lab on the couch while watching horrible tv and eating lots of food. ugh, Tuesday...I loathe your distance from Friday in every direction.
Love me, me.
Dear Diary,
Please let me O before H leaves on business next Tues. I really want to have a decent shot this cycle. There's been something about cycle 10, double digits, that just makes my mind go to bad places - and I know, don't borrow trouble, I just have to keep saying that to myself. I had both SILs this weekend inquire about when H & I will have kids and I just wanted to say, "If it were up to me, I'd already be KU!". Thanks for letting me write this down, I don't really have any other place to let that out - feels a little better already
~jaytee
Team Purple!!!!
I really want my June vacation now. I would much rather be in Vegas/Tahoe then at my desk editing presentations.
My brain is distracted and my body is confusing me. Hopefully iron man 3 will ease the obsessing.
TTC #1 since August 2012
BFP 7/5/13 ~EDD 3/17/14 - MC 7/22/13
DX PCOS 9/17/13 - Cyst on left ovary benched on BCP
10/12/13 Cyst is gone starting cycle #1 Femara - U/S shows no response
11/19/13 Large cyst on right ovary. Benched again.
12/18/13 2 cm cyst still on my right ovary. Back to BCP.
1/10/14 start femara 5mg for 10 days
I smuggled it into someone's else thread to you awhile back. I think it was the first day you started your new job, so you may not have come back.
...off to read reply...
Trying to get knocked up since June 2012 ~ Dx: PCOS
BFP 7.24.13 ~ EDD 4.2.14 ~ m/c 9.16.13 @ 11w4d
BFP 5.4.14 ~ EDD 1.12.15 ~ stick little bean!
TTGP 2013 Best Blog ~ Fruit ~ My BFP Chart
Dear Diary,
I just want someone to come deliver me a root beer, bag of chips, a pint of ice cream, and a hot dog so I don't have to change out of these ridiculously old, holey yoga pants. If this makes me lazy, so be it.
Also, if AF could come swiftly and not draw this month out, that'd be great.
Also, if my dog could stop farting, that'd also be great.
Also, I need the last season of 30Rock to be on Netflix already. I neeeeeed it.
Ok, I think that really is all. Sorry I'm so crabby and whiny. Let's blame it on the hormones.
xoxo,
Amanda
Dear Diary,
I am so hungry right now. I can't wait to go home and eat my yummy left over chicken. There is only one piece left and I don't want to share with DH. I also want to eat all of the cheesy cauliflower cakes and not let DH have any. I guess I will share the asparagus with him. I love fresh asparagus, but it makes my pee stink.
Speaking of pee, my POAS addiction is back full force since I am testing out my trigger. I love seeing two lines on my test even though I know it is from the trigger. I will be really sad when my trigger is gone.
LYLAS,
Twink
TTC #1 since August 2011
My Blog
September 2012: Start IF testing
DH (32): SA is ok, slightly low morph, normal SCSA Me (32): Slightly low progesterone, hostile CM, carrier for CF, Moderately high NKC, High TNFa, heterozyogous mutated Factor XIII, and +APA
October 2012-May 2014: 4 failed IUIs, 3 failed IVFs, and 1 failed FETw/donor embryos
November 2014: IVF w/ICSI #4 Agonist/Antagonist with EPP and Prednisone, Baby Aspirin, Lovenox, and IVIG for immune issues. Converted to freeze all due to lining issues. 2 blasts frozen on day 6!
January 2015: FET #2 Cancelled due to lining issues
April 2015: FET #2.1
PAIF/SAIF Welcome!
Dear Diary,
I started spotting today at 8 DPO. So that makes 5 consecutive months of an LP less than 11 days. And then my friend Dr. Google basically told me I'm screwed and to call my doctor. So I'm pretty bummed about that. I really, really thought this was our cycle.
Also, Diary, my in-laws will be here tomorrow. I really just want to curl up in bed with my Ny Quil and tell the world to go to heII. But I have another final tomorrow and family to cater too. Pity me, Diary.
Your truly,
Deblondie1
Dear Diary,
Tuesdays are always so blah. It is the most annoying day of the week, IMO.
I can't wait to go home so DH and I can go hike together. It is such a pretty day.
I'm making Island Soyaki shrimp for dinner tonight, with pineapple curried rice. I'm pretty excited, but also paranoid that if I eat too much pineapple, it'll change the PH of my vaj.
Also, can we please hurry up the weekend?
x,
Anna
Dear Diary...
What.the.fluck.
That is all.
--Hennybee
OMgosh this makes me want to go pull my teenage diary out now!!!
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Dear Diary,
I want this new job. Why won't they call???
One thing I do not miss about natural cycles is planning sex in with our schedules. Just inseminate me already!
~Schwind
TTC #1 since February 2011
C/P 5W3D
Betas 8/30 (108) and 9/3 (565)
Me: 29 (3/5/13- high NK cells) DH: 28 (5/8/12- MFI low morph and motility)
Cycle #21 (IUI#1), Cycle #22 (HSG 9/21/12) and Cycle #23 (IUI#2)=
Cycle #24- December Snow Bunny IVF #1
ER 12/6/12 (14R, 11M, 9F), ET 12/9/12 transferred 2 day 3 embies
Bleeding and low betas=very cautious
Cycle #26 March Lucky Duck- FET #1
scheduled 3/20/13- CANCELLED- lining issues
Cycle #27 May Emerald- FET #1.2
delayed- Starting Trental for 3 months + natural cycles Cycle #28-30=
Cycle #31 August Shooting Star- FET #1.3
transferred 1 hatching blast 8/21/13=
U/S 9/19/13- HR is 128! U/S #2 10/4/13- HR is 174!
It's a BOY!
Dear Diary,
I am trying to wait patiently.....but I would really like to ovulate soon. Also, DH made supper tonight and had a heavy hand with the red pepper flakes
xoxoxo,
Pets4Life
IUI # 1: March 2014 - Clomid 100mg , BFP, EDD 12/10/2014, MMC 8w5d, D&C 5/6/14
IUI # 2: August 2014 - Clomid 100mg, BFN
September 5th: Consult with new RE--so happy we switched!!!
October-CD 3 bw, fluid sonogram, testing for NK cells. Possibly moving to IVF depending on results........bloodwork showed low AMH, elevated natural killer cells, H SA showed mild male factor. Officially signed up for Dec IVF with intralipid infusions.
Dear Diary,
Today was a pretty great day. My students were extra fantastic and learned more than we usually do on (terrible) Tuesdays. DH is away on business, which stinks, but also allowed me to stay late at work, eat Wendy's for dinner, and wear pajamas on the couch since 4pm.
I can head to bed guilt-free in approximately an hour, and to top it all off, SYTYCD is on now.
The only downer of today? Methinks AF is on the way
Love,
Burritos
I hate these employers offering me half of what I'm worth. Please let a legitimate job be in my immediate future.
Also, I'm still pissed that we aren't TTC. DH keeps emailing me baby name ideas and my mom keeps buying me children's books. We are approaching my next birthday, friends due dates, and our next anniversary... I just want to at least start trying.
Oh yea, and as much as I love my FIL, I hate that he showed up to our home with no notice and plans on staying over a week. Warning would have been nice.
Love,
VJ
PS: A little sad that my name reminds me of VaJayJay when I shorten it like that.. le sigh.
My Ovulation Chart Simple Link: My Ovulation Chart
My orgasms have been weak as shiiit since I've been on the pill. I took the last one tonight. GET OUT OF MY SYSTEM.
Yours truly,
Bring on tha BOOM!
CLOMID: 4 rounds, 50mg + TI = BFN's. FEMARA: 1 round = no response
12-24-2012 : Laparoscopy, Softball sized cyst/endo/scar tissue removed.
Cycle #14 - Feb 2013 : 50mg clomid. Ovidrel Trigger. IUI on 2/14/13 = thin lining, multiple cysts.
Cycle #16 actively trying (May/June): Femara, TI = BFN
Cycle #17- #20 - Med/Treatment break, trying on our own = BFN's all around.
Cycle #21 - Femara, MORE Femara, Ovidrel and a Christmas IUI = BFN
Are you there God? It's me, Black Books.
I have peed on so many opks this month but guess who got a positive a week before she thought she would - this gal! :: points thumbs at self::

Also, I want to get ktfu this cycle only so that I can make a bfp post that amounts to screw standing on your head, lifting your hips up .etc. Because we did it doggy style and we are now having some crazy azz Dothraki dragon babies or some shizz.
Stay sweet,
BB
P.S. Where are my night owls at? I has a feel but only after 9 pm Central
My H does this too
M/C 1/15 @ 6 weeks
RE 8/16
Monitored Clomid 11/15
M/C 12/16 @ 6 weeks
Clomid & Ovidrel Shot
M/C 2/16 @ 8 weeks
*Currently on Clomid (monitored) and waiting on tissue results.
Dear Diary,
I really need to know if I passed my boards.
I also need to stop stalking the board website to see if I'm licensed on there as this is likely to induce a stomach ulcer.
Please let me find a new house to rent soon. I need (ok, desperately want) a bigger place.
I would be very happy if the air conditioning my car would magically start working again. Alas, I am sure this will not occur until pay day when I can recharge the freon in it, but as long as I'm wishing, I might as well try!
Nervous and stressed out,
Flutepharm
Today I'm just frustrated, I failed a test for my new job yesterday. Which is my own fault but I did know a lot of the things I missed it was just worded weirdly and really confused me.
Secondly I'm way annoyed dh lost his license today, I knew it was coming. He got a DUI last fall, but he did everything the lawyers said to prepare and the judge threw the book at him anyway. Now we have to get a breathalyzer installed in his car. And I have to drive him around until then.
My inlaws are driving me up the walls, and I have about 12 million things to do this weekend, I just need a vacation already.
Bsharpe
Damn that Judge...how rude to be throwing books in the courtroom. Obviously doing everything the lawyers said should have gotten him off!
Dear diary,
This week has been really annoying me at work. But just have to chug through today & tomorrow and then I can hopefully sleep in Friday
I am hoping theJRD gets the new job he wants- he has testing Friday. If he does, I will consider leaving this job.
Only 2 more weeks until vacation!!! Also I'm ready to O already!!!!!!!!!!!
I didn't think doing what the lawyer said would get him off, he was wrong and needs to face the consequences. But his lawyer had us under the impression that since he did the assessment and took the classes and had a clean driving record and low BAC that he would be able to get a work license pretty much right away. Now he has no license for a year then has to get the breathalyzer to be able to get his license back. We were fully expecting fines, court cost, the assessment, classes and community service and fees for that. Just not the not being able to drive for a full year and added cost of the breathalyzer.