Don't Worry!

Like many others here I made the mistake of googling things when something came up as "possibly abnormal"...what I want to let you ladies know is, as tempting as it is, don't do it!  You'll panic yourself for nothing.

To give some background...we have been TTC since September 2011...after a lot of blood work it was found out that my progesterone levels were extremely low (under 5) which is why I couldn't even get a cycle on my own.  I had been on BCP's for a decade, so I didn't realize.  They put me on a round of progesterone pills and I immediately got pregnant in March of 2012, a few months into my newly found weight loss routine.  However, I had a bout of acute bronchitis followed by a severe stomach virus, both of which included 103.5 degree fevers...I didn't even realize I was pregnant because I felt so awful already.  I thought I was having another ovarian cyst.  They did blood levels for hcg and an ultrasound...came back positive for hcg but the numbers were already declining (would've been about 5 1/2 weeks along) and ultrasound showed hemorrhagic cyst scarring but no baby.  They followed my numbers back down.  Kept trying but didn't get a cycle again after that, so a few months later they put me on the progesterone again...low and behold it jump started me and the following month I was pregnant again!  October 2012...at first the numbers were rising, just not quite doubling...then I started to get awful stomach pain and bleeding and they checked the numbers again and they'd gone down.  Once again I was heart broken, on the verge of giving up.

I started going to a new doctor (lots of reasons) and they tried me again early this year on not just progesterone, but followed it with clomid immediately after.  So when I found out I was pregnant again I was ecstatic but paranoid out of my mind!  When I spotted at 5 weeks I freaked out and googled everything.  It was only ever brown so that was good...but I had awful sharp pains in my sides on and off for weeks.  I kept being paranoid all the time, even when my hcg more than tripled and we saw the heartbeat on the first ultrasound at 7 weeks!  They assured me those were all good signs...but when I read the report it said about an abnormally large gestational sac that was oddly shaped and could be an issue, so they were going to follow up in 2 weeks.  I got paranoid once again, just waiting for something to go wrong.  At 9 weeks the baby had grown perfectly, heartbeat was fantastic, but again abnormally large gestational sac and wanted to check in 2 more weeks.  Plus now there were 3 ovarian cysts and some free floating fluid.  More panic.  I saw my doctor at 10 weeks for my first appt and she said everything looked fantastic, not to worry about it, and we even heard the heartbeat!  Well last week, at 11 weeks, we had another follow up ultrasound.  This time the sac is back to being about the size it should be now instead of 2 weeks too large, the baby looks fantastic and was wiggling all around, and heart beat is great!  All the cysts and fluid have gone away, the placenta is formed, and everything's as it should be.  So all of that panic and googling things just made me sick with worry when there was nothing to worry about.  Now i'm 12 weeks, going strong, and excited rather than paranoid for the upcoming appointments :-)

So my best advice...don't worry, be happy!  And stay away from google, lol.