This is me right now...(BFP)

femmepink · March 2013

I just got a BFP this morning at 10 DPO!

I am ecstatic, but super terrified that I'm on this road that will either end with my take-home baby or another m/c.

We've been trying since October. My first BFP resulted in a m/c at 7w6d in December. We've been trying again since the doctor gave us the all-clear.

Symptoms: This cycle I had absolutely no symptoms. My first BFP I had cramping from O until my BFP, but I also had the same cramping last cycle from O until AF so I guess this cycle I subconsciously didn't put much clout into any symptoms since they pretty much mean shiit until that BFP. But now that I think about it, I do have light cramping.

Besides that, DH and I had a really positive feeling about this cycle. We were just unable to see it NOT happening. Which is odd because one of the things DH and I hate about ourselves is we tend to be too negative about things. But in this cycle, we had so much hope.

BFP details: I tested since 8 DPO. Yesterday at 9 DPO I got a BFN with FMU, and a shadow last night before bed. I chalked it up to an evap line (I wrote about this in today's 2WW thread).

But once again, I had a pretty good feeling about it, so since today DH is going with his dad to a golf show, I stayed in bed holding my pee until he left. He asked me if I was going to POAS and I said I didn't know. I didn't want him to know that I'd be testing because I wanted to surprise him if I was to get a BFP. I've got a shirt for my dog that says, "I'm going to be a BIG sister", which is super cute since my dog is 4 pounds. Anyway, I posted in today's 2WW thread from bed and waited for DH to leave. The last thing he said to me was, "I hope you get a big fat P". He was mocking our lingo. Confused lol.

Once he was gone, I peed in a cup.

First I got this:

Then I got this:

and totally freaked out. Then I finished it off for good measure with this:

Now I can't wait for him to get back home. He'll be so excited. He's been really involved with TTC after our loss, and this is something he's been wanting real bad. I'll make sure my dog is all dressed up in her little shirt ready to go when he walks through the door.

More details: We hit O-3, O-2, O-1 & O. I was temping and using OPKs. I didn't notice any EWCM, and only some watery. I honestly didn't think it was a good cycle for CM. I did nothing else special.

EDD: November 13th.

Mushies: I'd like to thank you ladies for always being entertaining and having knowledge that I can trust. I really feel like this board is the only TTC board I would be able to stomach on the internet. Rainbow poops aren't exactly my cup of tea. And if the snark didn't pull me in, I don't know if I would've ever learned about temping and charting, and if I'd be KU today (can't believe I typed that!).

I just hope this is it.

FX I'll see you ladies on the preggly boards.