I am so sorry to hear about your dad. I can't even imagine what you are feeling/going through. You will be in my thoughts.
I lost my nana while I was pregnant with DD1, and I know what you mean about having so much guilt that they will never get to meet your LO. Not sure if you're religious or not, but I found comfort in knowing that even though my nana never got to hold my DD, she already "knew" who she was before any of us. I think of her as my DD's angel and I refer to her as such.
Again, I am so sorry for your loss. (((internet hugs)))
I can't imagine the greif you must be feeling now. I am praying for you and your family during this very difficult time. Please take care of yourself and your little girl.
Thank you so much everyone for all of these incredibly kind comments. I am touched and so thankful to be part of this board... Even though I don't know any of you IRL, it is comforting to feel I am not alone in this.
Re: Lost my dad yesterday...
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BFP 01/01/2015, EDD 09/07/2015, CP
BFP 10/09/2015, EDD 06/01/2016, MC @ 7 weeks
BFP 03/12/2016, DD#2 born 11/15/2016
BFP 01/28/2019, EDD 09/29/2019
Charlotte Ella 07.16.10
Emmeline Grace 03.27.13
I am so sorry to hear about your dad. I can't even imagine what you are feeling/going through. You will be in my thoughts.
I lost my nana while I was pregnant with DD1, and I know what you mean about having so much guilt that they will never get to meet your LO. Not sure if you're religious or not, but I found comfort in knowing that even though my nana never got to hold my DD, she already "knew" who she was before any of us. I think of her as my DD's angel and I refer to her as such.
Again, I am so sorry for your loss. (((internet hugs)))
BFP #1: 08/17/2012 DD1 born 05/01/2013
BFP #2: 07/31/2015 M/C 09/23/2015 (11.5 weeks)