I can't do this...school vent

PurrCrasher · February 2013

Are any of you other moms in school? I am struggling so badly.I can't focus. I can't motivate. I feel panicky and overwhelmed. I have to get straight A's to have even the slightest prayer of getting accepted into the nursing program. I've already done this college thing once, ten years ago, and I swear it wasn't this damn hard. I feel like a total failure. Between working and balancing the care of the babies I just don't have enough time and when I do finally have time I'm so overwhelmed with the idea of having to get an A or it's not worth it that I shut down.

Do any of you have any motivating ideas? How do you make it work? Tips? Tricks? Ugh, someone save me from myself. I have to make this work and I don't know how to do it.

Cheerilee · February 2013

My advice is to keep your eye on the prize! I am on a fellowship so don't have to work, but I do side consulting and am in the midst of 2 research projects that require me to be in the field collecting data. I stay afloat by having school work marathons. For example, I made DH handle things this weekend so I could do my online portfolio for my oral comprehensive exam. I worked 3 days straight from wake up to bedtime with only short breaks to get SOME time with DD and DSS. Hang in there. You can do it!

Cbarajas08 · February 2013

I am!!! It is hard. I think the thing that keeps me going is my five coworkers who are in the program with me. I try to devote 1 day to homework so I can play with DD the other time. Hang in there. You can do it!!

nopegoat · February 2013

Hugs girl!

I did it during and after my pregnancy with my first. The only thing that got me through was this..

The thought of holding my baby while wearing my cap and gown to prove to the whole world that I can do and did do it. I remember too many times sitting on the floor surrounded by flashcards, pens, paper, and books, with a baby attached to my boob just crying and crying thinking I am never going to be done. BUT I did it.

You can do it girl! It is hard but you are stronger than you give yourself credit. Keep your eyes on the prize, but take it one day at a time. Hugs again!!

Surprised84 · February 2013

I'm right there with you! I'm in Grad School and it's hard to find the time to study. When my daughter is asleep I want to be too! What keeps me going is knowing that I'm doing this for HER. I would have gone to Grad school regardless of having her or not but she is my incentive to keep pushing forward.

Please know that you are not alone and that all the hard work will pay off in the end. Here's a little FYI I have learned over the years: when you stop trying so hard to be perfect (straight A's) then it kinda just comes naturally. It seems like the longer I spend on assignments the more I begin to think too much thus causing even more anxiety and a mental block. If I just relax I end up with the straight A's! I do understand your need to get t he A's because of the program though.

acire86 · February 2013

You can do it! I am also in school but I do my easier classes online so I can be with baby and do schoolwork. The only tip I have is to try to remain calm. I'm sure you are smart and will do great. Plus big props for going to school while raising twins!

ks3pink · February 2013

I am so impressed that you are in school while working with twins. I was planning to get my masters but that went out the window when we found out there were two babies. I knew I couldn't do it all. DH is in school, working full time and part time and helps with the kids. Not I! You go girl! You can do it!