DD is almost 9 months old. I experienced a bit of baby blues when she was first born but since then I've just fallen more in love with her and grown more happy with my life. But for the last month or so, I can't stop thinking about death. My death, her death, etc. I'm not really religious and the thought that we won't be able to be together forever (in some form) terrifies me. I keep thinking that anyone could go tomorrow and what's the point of planning a life if that's the case? I feel like I've brought her in the world only to face a lifetime of sorrow and grieving over others' deaths. I think about tragedies like Newtown and how it could strike any person on any given day.
I'm trying to enjoy every moment with her and live in the present but every time I have a happy moment with her I think about how we'll both die some day. It's causing me great anxiety and really interfering with my day to day life. I have an appointment with a therapist but I would like to know if anyone else has had similar thoughts. TIA!