I was wondering if anyone on the board could tell me about PPA? I hear so much about PPD, but not much about the other. I've been having what I believe are breakdowns or panic attacks? I get really upset, anxious really, get really mad, then feel like I can't breathe and just confused. It happened tonight with DH. He kept asking what was wrong and all I could say was I didn't know.
Is OCD part of PPA? I am super obsessed with my baby and breathing. I literally check on him multiple timers during a nap. I have this irrational fear he'll stop breathing and I won't know it.
I had a miscarriage last fall right before this PG, and was only not PG for a month inbetween pregnancies. I do wonder how much this contributes to my general anxiety as a parent. TIA.
[MC 11.20.11] [DS born 9.24.12] [DD born 10.15.14]
Re: PPA ?
It is closely related to "egodystonic thoughts" ? Spelling. I had these as wel", they're a symptom of PPA. It's when you imagine terrible things happening to your child drowning, accidents, SIDS and they feel real and cause a lot of anxiety or panic attacks.
I used to be paranoid of losing my LO in the bed. I would wake up and think that he was lost in the sheets, unable to breate. Even when I realized he was fine, I was still very worked up about it. I also agonized about major decisions starting solids, vaccinations, erc an constantly felt I was making the wrong choice.
I did a 6 month course of Zoloft and it really helped.
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I can't tell you how many times I have woken up, worried about this. I thought it was totally normal! I am definitley going to call tomorrow. Thanks for the advice!
[MC 11.20.11] [DS born 9.24.12] [DD born 10.15.14]
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I had PPA and definitely experienced parts of what you are describing. Even though I consider myself "through the woods", I still check her breathing every night. I was also OBSESSED with her health. I kept thinking things were wrong with her, even though she is perfectly healthy.
OCD can be part of PPA.
I definitely think losses can play into it (I have had 2). I think it makes us realize how quickly something can be taken away from us.
I would suggest seeking a therapist. I know it was integral in getting me back to myself.
GL
I was diagnosed with PPA & OCD. it all goes hand in hand. I had panic attacks and stopped sleeping. everytime I would drift off to sleep my body would jump (like when you feel you are falling off a cliff) and wake back up. talk to you doctor! I agree that medication & therapy has helped me a ton (it's been about 9 months now)
this website is super helpful! https://postpartumstress.com/
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