Postpartum Depression

PPA ?

I was wondering if anyone on the board could tell me about PPA? I hear so much about PPD, but not much about the other. I've been having what I believe are breakdowns or panic attacks? I get really upset, anxious really, get really mad, then feel like I can't breathe and just confused. It happened tonight with DH. He kept asking what was wrong and all I could say was I didn't know.

Is OCD part of PPA? I am super obsessed with my baby and breathing. I literally check on him multiple timers during a nap. I have this irrational fear he'll stop breathing and I won't know it.

I had a miscarriage last fall right before this PG, and was only not PG for a month inbetween pregnancies. I do wonder how much this contributes to my general anxiety as a parent. TIA.


                                                    [MC 11.20.11] [DS born 9.24.12] [DD born 10.15.14]

Re: PPA ?

  • I had PPA with DS1, it's still very serious. I would call your Dr.

    It is closely related to "egodystonic thoughts" ? Spelling. I had these as wel", they're a symptom of PPA. It's when you imagine terrible things happening to your child drowning, accidents, SIDS and they feel real and cause a lot of anxiety or panic attacks.

    I used to be paranoid of losing my LO in the bed. I would wake up and think that he was lost in the sheets, unable to breate. Even when I realized he was fine, I was still very worked up about it. I also agonized about major decisions starting solids, vaccinations, erc an constantly felt I was making the wrong choice.

    I did a 6 month course of Zoloft and it really helped.

    ETA: sorry about the punctuation, I'm on my phone!!!


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  • imagemamaREB29:
    I had PPA with DS1, it's still very serious. I would call your Dr. It is closely related to "egodystonic thoughts" ? Spelling. I had these as wel", they're a symptom of PPA. It's when you imagine terrible things happening to your child drowning, accidents, SIDS and they feel real and cause a lot of anxiety or panic attacks. I used to be paranoid of losing my LO in the bed. I would wake up and think that he was lost in the sheets, unable to breate. Even when I realized he was fine, I was still very worked up about it. I also agonized about major decisions starting solids, vaccinations, erc an constantly felt I was making the wrong choice. I did a 6 month course of Zoloft and it really helped. ETA: sorry about the punctuation, I'm on my phone!!!

    I can't tell you how many times I have woken up, worried about this. I thought it was totally normal! I am definitley going to call tomorrow. Thanks for the advice!


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  • imagemamaREB29:
    I had PPA with DS1, it's still very serious. I would call your Dr.

    It is closely related to "egodystonic thoughts" ? Spelling. I had these as wel", they're a symptom of PPA. It's when you imagine terrible things happening to your child drowning, accidents, SIDS and they feel real and cause a lot of anxiety or panic attacks.

    I used to be paranoid of losing my LO in the bed. I would wake up and think that he was lost in the sheets, unable to breate. Even when I realized he was fine, I was still very worked up about it. I also agonized about major decisions starting solids, vaccinations, erc an constantly felt I was making the wrong choice.

    I did a 6 month course of Zoloft and it really helped.

    ETA: sorry about the punctuation, I'm on my phone!!!
    I agree with all of this. Call someone please. I had PPD and PPA and the anxiety was worse. I had the same terrible fears and even more. Meds and therapy helps!! I still take meds and see my therapist once a month, but things are much better!! I have no experience with Zoloft though.
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  • I had PPA and definitely experienced parts of what you are describing.  Even though I consider myself "through the woods", I still check her breathing every night.  I was also OBSESSED with her health.  I kept thinking things were wrong with her, even though she is perfectly healthy.

    OCD can be part of PPA.

    I definitely think losses can play into it (I have had 2).  I think it makes us realize how quickly something can be taken away from us.

    I would suggest seeking a therapist.  I know it was integral in getting me back to myself.

    GL

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  • They can all go hand in hand. I had PPA, PPD, and OCD problems. The PPA was probably the most uncomfortable. I couldn't sleep and was freaking out all of the time. I couldn't relax. A lot of the same medications are used to treat all three. Call the doctor and you'll start to feel better! HAng in there!

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  • I was diagnosed with PPA & OCD. it all goes hand in hand. I had panic attacks and stopped sleeping. everytime I would drift off to sleep my body would jump (like when you feel you are falling off a cliff) and wake back up. talk to you doctor! I agree that medication & therapy has helped me a ton (it's been about 9 months now)

    this website is super helpful! https://postpartumstress.com/

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  • Definitely call your doc! I had PPA and PPD, and it was the worst experience of my life until I was able to get on medication. I took Ativan and a small dosage of Zoloft for a couple months until I got back on track. The panic attacks were the worst experience of my life. I would literally hide under the sheets and cry, scared to get out of bed. I didn't even want to go on. I hope everything gets better for you very quickly! <3
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