99 percent of the time I adore Cam. I think he is so beautiful and I can't believe that I made such a gorgeous little thing.
1 percent of the time I don't like him. It's when he cries and whines all day long and no matter what I do nothing makes it better. On those days it drives me to my wits end, makes me want to cry, and for a brief bit I don't adore him as much.
I went out to the movies with friends a few weeks ago and loved being away from LO for a bit an let Dh watch her. Tonight we are leaving her with my parents for a few hours so we can go to my work holiday party.
Don't get me wrong I do NOT want to go back to work in a week but its nice to get away now and then.
TTC since Jan. 2010 DX Unexplained infertility
3 IUI's w/Clomid & Ovidrel=all BFNs 3 IVF (2 Fresh, 1 frozen) =BFN Jan 2012 New RE & Fresh Cycle =BFP!
Went to dinner at a friends last night. We stopped at crumbs cupcakes to get dessert... Bought two trays of mini cupcakes... I "forgot" one of those trays in the car, so looks like I "have" to eat those at home
Married my best friend 09.18.11 TTC since 12.10.11, BFP #1 02.10.12 Baby E born 10/18/12. 8.5lbs and 21in of pure perfection!
My kid is freaking adorable and I love him to death.. BUT, I don't think he's the cutest kid that ever lived. Objectively I think he's a 7 or 8 on a scale of 1-10. Is it bad that I don't think my baby is a 10 in the cute department?
I have another one. DH didn't have to go to work this morning, so last night he told me he would get up an take care of LO this morning.... Guess who's still sleeping?! DH hasn't been sleeping well lately but it's not baby related he just didn't pick up his prescription.
I took LO upstairs, because he is cranky today, in hopes that he would wake DH. He didn't.
My kid is freaking adorable and I love him to death.. BUT, I don't think he's the cutest kid that ever lived. Objectively I think he's a 7 or 8 on a scale of 1-10. Is it bad that I don't think my baby is a 10 in the cute department?
i don't think so. I always tell DH if we had an ugly baby I would admit it. Not every baby is cute! I got lucky and LO is super cute!
I put DS in bed with me the other morning after my DH left for work. LO peed through his diaper and clothes. He soaked that area of the bed. It was my DH's side, so I haven't changed the sheets yet. I also never told my DH. He has no idea he's been laying in pee. DS has been so fussy during the day, and I'm trying to squeeze grad school homework in, so I haven't had time to change the sheets.
Stella has a milk allergy, which means I have to give up all milk and milk products in order to keep breastfeeding. 2 weeks after her diagnosis, the bloody mucus in her poop hasn't decreased, so we have an appointment with a GI specialist next week to figure out if she has other issues, other allergies, etc.
Milk is in practically everything and I hate this milk-free diet. Seriously I hate it and if she's allergic to other things I will cry. I want to BF and supplement as little as possible, but she's not making it easy on me (not that babies ever make anything easy on anyone).
I was especially pissy on Thanksgiving because I couldn't eat mashed potatoes, sweet potatoes, or any pies.
One of mr favorite rhings about FF is I can eat anythin I want. It's not why we FF, just an added bonus.
I don't think I am a good SAHM. We have so much cluttered crap and so little space that I get very overwhelmed and give up. Plus I'd rather play with Alice than clean anyway.
After 7 years of no ovulation... BFP#1 10/24/11 ~ EDD 6/29/12 ~ Natural m/c 11/2/11 BFP#2 2/3/12 ~ Alice born 9/26/12
Oh my... This would never fly at my house! We made our annoucementto our parents with 'big bro' and 'big sis' dog bandanas!!
Fff- dh never complains about doing stuff for lo, or if I ask himto help out. But, I still don't think he gets what it's like ALL day alone with her. He has been alone with her, but maybe for 2 to 3 hours. I secretly want to go be gone for 10 hours on a Saturday and then on Sunday , so he has to do it all w no help from me. (for example, she'll cry for a bottle, he'll ask me to make one while he changes her and then he'll feed her, which I do, and don't mind at all bc he's still being hempful). But, I just want him to know what it's like to hVe to do everything alone with a crying baby.
And I can't rationalize why I feel this way, since he is good about helping out, and never makes comments about it being easy or anything. I just want him to KNOW.
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I try and try to get DS1 interested in his brother and it's not working. DS1 wants nothing to do with the baby. I had to bribe him with fruit snacks to sit on the couch with DS2 so I could attempt some pictures of the two of them in their big brother and little brother shirts on. Such a disaster. DS1 will not cooperate AT ALL and it makes me want to smack him. Not like I really will, but I just wish he would hug him and embrace being a big brother At least he's never mean or harmful to the baby though.
My kid is freaking adorable and I love him to death.. BUT, I don't think he's the cutest kid that ever lived. Objectively I think he's a 7 or 8 on a scale of 1-10. Is it bad that I don't think my baby is a 10 in the cute department?
I have not found either of my babies to be particularly attractive newborns. I can appreciate that they are healthy babies, and I love them dearly, but there are cuter newborns out there. I started to find my son a lot cuter once he got to be about 3 months or so. People regularly comment on how cute he is now as a toddler, and I would agree that now he's pretty cute, but he wouldn't have won any contests as a newborn.
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I have to decide if I want to quit EBF at the 6 month mark before Dec. 29th. Hubby and I want to book a cruise for our anniversary with our credit card miles and a lot of the points expire on that day so I have to decide before then. This is a huge commitment and decision. I feel like a bad mom for being this selfish
it drives me nuts that when DH goes out of the house by himself with any of the boys, every stranger praises him for going to the supermarket, out to lunch, picking up from school, whatever by himself with the kids. I do all of these things on a regular basis with THREE kids and no one ever flinches an eye at that, but for a man to do it......he is the worlds greatest husband. Where is my praise for doing it on my own 99% of the time?!
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When Kaley is fussing but not crying and I'm not ready to get up for the day, I just pop her pacifier in her mouth and she goes back to sleep.
same. Sometimes I'll also get in the shower and by the time I'm done he's crying, so basically I've let him CIO for 5-10 min. I feel awful, but mommy has to shower or I will be one cranky biatch.
Also, at almost 6 weeks I'm pretty much ready to make the switch to FF. I've been pumping five times a day and barely get enough for two bottles. I hate it, and quite frankly LO is fine with formula. I feel guilty, but I think it has to be done.
I was cleared at 8 weeks to DTD and we did it once, despite me having very little desire. I lied and told DH it hurt so that he won't pressure me to do it much. Part of me feels bad, the other part shrugs its shoulders and knows he'll get over it.
Remembering my angel baby, Ezekiel, 09/03/2011...you will forever be in my heart.
I have started checking kids movies out of the library and copying them to our hard drive so we'll have a collection for DD to watch when she's older and not be limited to what is already checked out. No way we could afford to buy any and we don't have cable.
My four year old is driving me BSC. I've never felt the desire to shake a baby. But shake my four year old? Yeah, I'm there now.
oh, i feel you on this one, but with my 2 y/o
I thought I was alone on this one. My 2 and 3 yr old are driving me nuts. And I've felt terrible about this for days...I've never been this upset with them before. I wish they would just listen for one whole day!!! It's definitely making me rethink having any more after this one.
My MIL and SIL are coming today for the weekend and I am already pissed off at MIL. Has she done anything yet? No but I know she will. She had a breakdown in September when she visited saying it was going to be so hard on us and she was so sad that she didn't live closer to help out. Has it been super easy? No but it hasn't been complete torture and I am glad that she isn't closer.
I know this weekend she will make me take endless pictures of her with DH, SIL, and LO and will leave me out of all but one of them. I get that she wants pics with her kids but way to make someone feel left out. And I know she will call LO her baby and I swear if she shoves her boobs in my kid's face, I will probably smack her.
It's completely feasible too because she has even shoved her boobs in my face saying, "Want some Mama's milky?" As a joke but apparently this is what she called it for her kids and I just know she's going to say it to Lo.
And I know it's ridiculous to be this irritated at her already but I am. Oh and Dh is a mama's boy so I know even if she is out of line, that he won't say anything. I am praying SIL keeps me sane because she, at least, will say something.
Oh...and also: my company would have a much more productive employee if they would just do themselves a favor and block TB. Clearly that would be easier than me exercising some self control.
Remembering my angel baby, Ezekiel, 09/03/2011...you will forever be in my heart.
My MIL and SIL are coming today for the weekend and I am already pissed off at MIL. Has she done anything yet? No but I know she will. She had a breakdown in September when she visited saying it was going to be so hard on us and she was so sad that she didn't live closer to help out. Has it been super easy? No but it hasn't been complete torture and I am glad that she isn't closer.
I know this weekend she will make me take endless pictures of her with DH, SIL, and LO and will leave me out of all but one of them. I get that she wants pics with her kids but way to make someone feel left out. And I know she will call LO her baby and I swear if she shoves her boobs in my kid's face, I will probably smack her.
It's completely feasible too because she has even shoved her boobs in my face saying, "Want some Mama's milky?" As a joke but apparently this is what she called it for her kids and I just know she's going to say it to Lo.
And I know it's ridiculous to be this irritated at her already but I am. Oh and Dh is a mama's boy so I know even if she is out of line, that he won't say anything. I am praying SIL keeps me sane because she, at least, will say something.
o_O
After 7 years of no ovulation... BFP#1 10/24/11 ~ EDD 6/29/12 ~ Natural m/c 11/2/11 BFP#2 2/3/12 ~ Alice born 9/26/12
My MIL and SIL are coming today for the weekend and I am already pissed off at MIL. Has she done anything yet? No but I know she will. She had a breakdown in September when she visited saying it was going to be so hard on us and she was so sad that she didn't live closer to help out. Has it been super easy? No but it hasn't been complete torture and I am glad that she isn't closer.
I know this weekend she will make me take endless pictures of her with DH, SIL, and LO and will leave me out of all but one of them. I get that she wants pics with her kids but way to make someone feel left out. And I know she will call LO her baby and I swear if she shoves her boobs in my kid's face, I will probably smack her.
It's completely feasible too because she has even shoved her boobs in my face saying, "Want some Mama's milky?" As a joke but apparently this is what she called it for her kids and I just know she's going to say it to Lo.
And I know it's ridiculous to be this irritated at her already but I am. Oh and Dh is a mama's boy so I know even if she is out of line, that he won't say anything. I am praying SIL keeps me sane because she, at least, will say something.
Remembering my angel baby, Ezekiel, 09/03/2011...you will forever be in my heart.
My son is now taking 3 - 1 hr. naps throughout the day. I could use this time to clean, do laundry etc. and sometimes I do. But this is such a new and beautiful luxury, I actually spend 30 mins. of that hour either enjoying a cup of hot tea and responding to emails. Or surfing the internet. I don't feel quilty about this at all. I have to go back to work in 2 weeks.
The second - we are more than 95% sure I will be a SAHM by the end of January. We just can't find suitable/affordable daycare. I am 100% okay with staying home. So is my husband. What bothers me is that when we tell people, they are shocked that I would ever want to do that. The responses vary from "what will you do all day?" to "how can you not work??" Well. It's easy. I am going to spend my time raising my child and love (almost:) every freaking second of it. I find it strange that society has shifted so far from being upset that women wanted to be mothers AND work to women wanting to be mothers and stay at home being some kind of foreign idea. And in my eyes, raising my child has been harder than any 9-5 job I have ever had.
BFP 1/24/2012 - DS Born 9/22/2012 (11 days early!)
I think of taking care of my baby like keeping my Tamagachi alive, like there's a little bar that decreases when he's hungry, sleepy or poopy and it gradually fills back up when I help with any of those things. Of course my Tamagachi died in a pile of its own poop, but I took a lesson from that.
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I was cleared at 8 weeks to DTD and we did it once, despite me having very little desire. I lied and told DH it hurt so that he won't pressure me to do it much. Part of me feels bad, the other part shrugs its shoulders and knows he'll get over it.
I did the same thing cleared at 6 weeks but Dh keeps wanting to try. I've never been so thankful for my period as I was when it came yesterday.
TTC since Jan. 2010 DX Unexplained infertility
3 IUI's w/Clomid & Ovidrel=all BFNs 3 IVF (2 Fresh, 1 frozen) =BFN Jan 2012 New RE & Fresh Cycle =BFP!
I think of taking care of my baby like keeping my Tamagachi alive, like there's a little bar that decreases when he's hungry, sleepy or poopy and it gradually fills back up when I help with any of those things. Of course my Tamagachi died in a pile of its own poop, but I took a lesson from that.
i love you so hard right now.
After 7 years of no ovulation... BFP#1 10/24/11 ~ EDD 6/29/12 ~ Natural m/c 11/2/11 BFP#2 2/3/12 ~ Alice born 9/26/12
I think of taking care of my baby like keeping my Tamagachi alive, like there's a little bar that decreases when he's hungry, sleepy or poopy and it gradually fills back up when I help with any of those things. Of course my Tamagachi died in a pile of its own poop, but I took a lesson from that.
I think of taking care of my baby like keeping my Tamagachi alive, like there's a little bar that decreases when he's hungry, sleepy or poopy and it gradually fills back up when I help with any of those things. Of course my Tamagachi died in a pile of its own poop, but I took a lesson from that.
I think of taking care of my baby like keeping my Tamagachi alive, like there's a little bar that decreases when he's hungry, sleepy or poopy and it gradually fills back up when I help with any of those things. Of course my Tamagachi died in a pile of its own poop, but I took a lesson from that.
Hilarious! LO is trying my nerves to the MAX right now and I needed this laugh - thank you!!!!!
I think of taking care of my baby like keeping my Tamagachi alive, like there's a little bar that decreases when he's hungry, sleepy or poopy and it gradually fills back up when I help with any of those things. Of course my Tamagachi died in a pile of its own poop, but I took a lesson from that.
I think of taking care of my baby like keeping my Tamagachi alive, like there's a little bar that decreases when he's hungry, sleepy or poopy and it gradually fills back up when I help with any of those things. Of course my Tamagachi died in a pile of its own poop, but I took a lesson from that.
This is my favorite thing! Love!
So they weren't just a fad! They taught useful skills.
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Today is my first day back at work (wahhhh) and DH is staying home with LO....not gonna lie Im jealous and very nervous that I am going to come home to the house being an absolute disaster. I dont know that he can handle it!
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I think of taking care of my baby like keeping my Tamagachi alive, like there's a little bar that decreases when he's hungry, sleepy or poopy and it gradually fills back up when I help with any of those things. Of course my Tamagachi died in a pile of its own poop, but I took a lesson from that.
I think of taking care of my baby like keeping my Tamagachi alive, like there's a little bar that decreases when he's hungry, sleepy or poopy and it gradually fills back up when I help with any of those things. Of course my Tamagachi died in a pile of its own poop, but I took a lesson from that.
This is my favorite thing! Love!
So they weren't just a fad! They taught useful skills.
Right? Much better than Furbies.
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I think of taking care of my baby like keeping my Tamagachi alive, like there's a little bar that decreases when he's hungry, sleepy or poopy and it gradually fills back up when I help with any of those things. Of course my Tamagachi died in a pile of its own poop, but I took a lesson from that.
AHHHH that is so awesome!
Also your pic is adorable.
Thank you. I was thinking I looked as tired as I felt.
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Re: FFFC
1 percent of the time I don't like him. It's when he cries and whines all day long and no matter what I do nothing makes it better. On those days it drives me to my wits end, makes me want to cry, and for a brief bit I don't adore him as much.
Don't get me wrong I do NOT want to go back to work in a week but its nice to get away now and then.
3 IUI's w/Clomid & Ovidrel=all BFNs
3 IVF (2 Fresh, 1 frozen) =BFN
Jan 2012 New RE & Fresh Cycle =BFP!
Married my best friend 09.18.11
TTC since 12.10.11, BFP #1 02.10.12
Baby E born 10/18/12. 8.5lbs and 21in of pure perfection!
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I have another one. DH didn't have to go to work this morning, so last night he told me he would get up an take care of LO this morning.... Guess who's still sleeping?! DH hasn't been sleeping well lately but it's not baby related he just didn't pick up his prescription.
I took LO upstairs, because he is cranky today, in hopes that he would wake DH. He didn't.
i don't think so. I always tell DH if we had an ugly baby I would admit it. Not every baby is cute! I got lucky and LO is super cute!
Stella has a milk allergy, which means I have to give up all milk and milk products in order to keep breastfeeding. 2 weeks after her diagnosis, the bloody mucus in her poop hasn't decreased, so we have an appointment with a GI specialist next week to figure out if she has other issues, other allergies, etc.
Milk is in practically everything and I hate this milk-free diet. Seriously I hate it and if she's allergic to other things I will cry. I want to BF and supplement as little as possible, but she's not making it easy on me (not that babies ever make anything easy on anyone).
I was especially pissy on Thanksgiving because I couldn't eat mashed potatoes, sweet potatoes, or any pies.
I don't think I am a good SAHM. We have so much cluttered crap and so little space that I get very overwhelmed and give up. Plus I'd rather play with Alice than clean anyway.
After 7 years of no ovulation...
BFP#1 10/24/11 ~ EDD 6/29/12 ~ Natural m/c 11/2/11
BFP#2 2/3/12 ~ Alice born 9/26/12
Oh my... This would never fly at my house! We made our annoucementto our parents with 'big bro' and 'big sis' dog bandanas!!
Fff- dh never complains about doing stuff for lo, or if I ask himto help out. But, I still don't think he gets what it's like ALL day alone with her. He has been alone with her, but maybe for 2 to 3 hours. I secretly want to go be gone for 10 hours on a Saturday and then on Sunday , so he has to do it all w no help from me. (for example, she'll cry for a bottle, he'll ask me to make one while he changes her and then he'll feed her, which I do, and don't mind at all bc he's still being hempful). But, I just want him to know what it's like to hVe to do everything alone with a crying baby.
And I can't rationalize why I feel this way, since he is good about helping out, and never makes comments about it being easy or anything. I just want him to KNOW.
I made rachelmichelle1 my bitch.
I have not found either of my babies to be particularly attractive newborns. I can appreciate that they are healthy babies, and I love them dearly, but there are cuter newborns out there. I started to find my son a lot cuter once he got to be about 3 months or so. People regularly comment on how cute he is now as a toddler, and I would agree that now he's pretty cute, but he wouldn't have won any contests as a newborn.
oh, i feel you on this one, but with my 2 y/o
same. Sometimes I'll also get in the shower and by the time I'm done he's crying, so basically I've let him CIO for 5-10 min. I feel awful, but mommy has to shower or I will be one cranky biatch.
Also, at almost 6 weeks I'm pretty much ready to make the switch to FF. I've been pumping five times a day and barely get enough for two bottles. I hate it, and quite frankly LO is fine with formula. I feel guilty, but I think it has to be done.
Remembering my angel baby, Ezekiel, 09/03/2011...you will forever be in my heart.
I thought I was alone on this one. My 2 and 3 yr old are driving me nuts. And I've felt terrible about this for days...I've never been this upset with them before. I wish they would just listen for one whole day!!! It's definitely making me rethink having any more after this one.
My MIL and SIL are coming today for the weekend and I am already pissed off at MIL. Has she done anything yet? No but I know she will. She had a breakdown in September when she visited saying it was going to be so hard on us and she was so sad that she didn't live closer to help out. Has it been super easy? No but it hasn't been complete torture and I am glad that she isn't closer.
I know this weekend she will make me take endless pictures of her with DH, SIL, and LO and will leave me out of all but one of them. I get that she wants pics with her kids but way to make someone feel left out. And I know she will call LO her baby and I swear if she shoves her boobs in my kid's face, I will probably smack her.
It's completely feasible too because she has even shoved her boobs in my face saying, "Want some Mama's milky?" As a joke but apparently this is what she called it for her kids and I just know she's going to say it to Lo.
And I know it's ridiculous to be this irritated at her already but I am. Oh and Dh is a mama's boy so I know even if she is out of line, that he won't say anything. I am praying SIL keeps me sane because she, at least, will say something.
Remembering my angel baby, Ezekiel, 09/03/2011...you will forever be in my heart.
o_O
After 7 years of no ovulation...
BFP#1 10/24/11 ~ EDD 6/29/12 ~ Natural m/c 11/2/11
BFP#2 2/3/12 ~ Alice born 9/26/12
Remembering my angel baby, Ezekiel, 09/03/2011...you will forever be in my heart.
I have two:
My son is now taking 3 - 1 hr. naps throughout the day. I could use this time to clean, do laundry etc. and sometimes I do. But this is such a new and beautiful luxury, I actually spend 30 mins. of that hour either enjoying a cup of hot tea and responding to emails. Or surfing the internet. I don't feel quilty about this at all. I have to go back to work in 2 weeks.
The second - we are more than 95% sure I will be a SAHM by the end of January. We just can't find suitable/affordable daycare. I am 100% okay with staying home. So is my husband. What bothers me is that when we tell people, they are shocked that I would ever want to do that. The responses vary from "what will you do all day?" to "how can you not work??" Well. It's easy. I am going to spend my time raising my child and love (almost:) every freaking second of it. I find it strange that society has shifted so far from being upset that women wanted to be mothers AND work to women wanting to be mothers and stay at home being some kind of foreign idea. And in my eyes, raising my child has been harder than any 9-5 job I have ever had.
I did the same thing cleared at 6 weeks but Dh keeps wanting to try. I've never been so thankful for my period as I was when it came yesterday.
3 IUI's w/Clomid & Ovidrel=all BFNs
3 IVF (2 Fresh, 1 frozen) =BFN
Jan 2012 New RE & Fresh Cycle =BFP!
i love you so hard right now.
After 7 years of no ovulation...
BFP#1 10/24/11 ~ EDD 6/29/12 ~ Natural m/c 11/2/11
BFP#2 2/3/12 ~ Alice born 9/26/12
You've made my day!!
um, you're awesome. I heart you right now.
Hilarious! LO is trying my nerves to the MAX right now and I needed this laugh - thank you!!!!!
LOL
So they weren't just a fad! They taught useful skills.
AHHHH that is so awesome!
Also your pic is adorable.
Right? Much better than Furbies.
Thank you. I was thinking I looked as tired as I felt.