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We Lost Our Baby At 11.5 Weeks

I've never posted on here before. We found out a week ago that our baby had passed away. We had known that there was a problem when I wasn't producing enough progesterone. I was put on progesterone pills that were supposed to last till the tenth week. I took them till the eleventh week and apparently lost the baby when the pills ran out. The pregnancy was supposed to take over producing progesterone at that point if it was a viable pregnancy. My first pregnancy went so well we were really taken aback at the thought of there being something wrong with either the baby or me. Needless to say, though, I didn't get my hopes up. The last thing I wanted to do was let me guard down and get really excited only to find out we lost the baby. Unfortunately, though, that's what my family did. We had scheduled the D and C for the Friday after we found out. We waited an excruciating week before the procedure was done. All the while I knew my precious baby was still in me but not alive. That was the hardest part. Aside from actually hearing the nurse break the news to us after seeing my baby's body on the screen. I was thinking how it finally looked like a real baby and that it was beautiful and I kept thinking that she wasn't looking for the heartbeat yet, that was why I couldn't see it or hear it. That was one of the roughest moments of my life. I completely lost it and sobbed my heart out, right there in front of the nurse and in my husband's arms. All week I was terrified of the procedure. I hate the idea of the D and C and what they have to do. It makes me skin crawl. I couldn't believe that they were actually going to do it to me and after they did it, everything would be over. My baby would just be gone. My baby would be sucked into some plastic thing. How horrifying. Thank goodness I don't even remember going to sleep. I just remember waking up and feeling this...lightness. I had been so consumed with worry and anxiety about my baby and would it be ok and was it dead today or today or today. Now, it was all over. I didn't have to worry for my baby anymore. The baby just fell asleep and never had to feel pain or heartache. And I felt a certain deep comfort after knowing that it was all over. Anyway, I guess I just needed to say that to someone. This would be too hard for my family to hear. My Husband has been my rock through this and we're so much closer after going through this because we found out how much we mean to each other and how much we need each other. I hope this helps someone who's going through this, someone who might be scared or someone who might feel just like I do.

Re: We Lost Our Baby At 11.5 Weeks

  • I am so sorry for your loss. {{HUGS}}

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  • I am so sorry for your loss. Take care of yourself and your husband during this hard time.
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    BFP #2- 12/23/2011, EDD- 09/04/2012, m/c- 01/02/[email protected]
    BFP #3- 8/29/2012, EDD-05/12/2012
    BETA #1-16 (8/30/12) BETA #2-486 (9/6/12)
    9/27- First u/s, baby measuring 2 weeks behind with a heart rate half of what it should be. u/s # 2- 10/8/12- No heartbeat, baby stopped growing at 6 weeks. Heartbroken.
    BFP #4- 12/30/2012, EDD- 09/11/2013
    BETA #1-21 (12/31/12) BETA #2- 105 (1/03/13) BETA #3- 1,389 (1/08/13)
    1st ultrasound-baby measuring 5w4d, heartbeat 107!
    2nd ultrasound- baby measuring right on track, heartbeat 180!

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  • Sorry for your loss.

    There are a lot of ladies here who know exactly how you are feeling.

    GL to you.
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    So sorry for your loss.




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  • I am so sorry for your loss ((hugs))

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    #2 BFP 9/13/12 EDD 5/20/13 Natural M/C 10/3/12
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  • I am so sorry for your loss. Lots of thoughts and prayers.
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    BFP #2 1/8/13 Baby Boy Born 10/2/13
    BFP #3 12/13/16 CP
    BFP #4 1/12/17 MC 1/27/17
    BFP #5 3/11/17 EDD 11/2/17

  • I'm so very for your loss.  I'm so sorry your going through this.  
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  • It helps to have a place to express yourself right now. Its a comfort having a  place to turn when the heartache hits again or Im consumed by the pain of the loss of my baby. Im so incredibly sorry for your loss. People say it alot on here and I try to remember it, Be Good To Yourself!
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  • I'm so sorry for your loss.

    BFP #1 8/14/10, DS born 4/30/11 
    BFP #2 9/30/12, M/C 10/23/12 
    BFP #3 12/16/12, CP 12/20/12 
    BFP #4 1/20/13, DD born 10/9/13
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  • I'm so sorry for your loss and thinking of you at this difficult time. 



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  • so sorry for your loss.  i had a similar experience with seeing the baby on the ultrasound screen.  i was so happy and excited to see my LO and after getting the news of no heartbeat I was broken.  T&P

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    -BFP #1 on 9/2/12, D&C 10/18/12 no heartbeat on US @ 10 weeks.

    -BFP #2 on 1/7/13, R was born on 9/22/13 via C-Section

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  • I am so very very sorry for your loss ((HUGS)). 

    me:40; DH:41; 4/30/12 1st visit with RE; 6/30/12 IUI #1 BFN; 7/19/12 IUI cancelled (overmedicated); 8/2/12 IUI cancelled (cyst); 9/1/12 IUI #2 BFP! EDD 5/28/13; 10/9/12 1st U/S at 7w3d--missed m/c (trisomy 16) D&C 10/19/12; karyotyping results normal!; 1/31/13 IUI #3 BFP! EDD 10/25/13 Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers Lilypie Maternity tickers
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