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*newborn mentioned* The "bad person" club

I just need to vent my "I feel like a bad person"ness too.

One of cousins had a baby on the weekend. My other cousin is about to pop one out too. They were both unplanned. They are both ten years younger than me. I just can't muster up any happiness for them. In fact, I feel bitter about it. I blocked both of them on FB a while ago so I wouldn't have to deal with it, but of course someone else posted a picture of it. At least it's not a cute baby.....

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    I'm a bad person because my SIL (who had her baby in August) keeps putting up pictures on FB and I think her baby looks funny. Kind of like her. And the name is horrid. And I'm not at all happy for her. Not even a tiny little bit. It's all jealousy and bitterness when it comes to her. This is her second in less than 2 years and we're still struggling to get pg. I really really don't like her.
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    I am a bad person because I don't really care about anyone elses pregnancy. I feel like blurting out "good for you, I don't care." when they are talking about it.

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    I'm a bad person because I hate all things baby and have just started ignoring anything and everything that has to deal with pregnant people or babies.

    You're knocked up? Great! I'll change the subject, you post your pictures of an ultrasound on FB? I just keep scrolling. There are a few exceptions (usually bumpies :-p), but for the herds of people in my life knocked up, I just don't care.

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    I'm a bad person b/c both of my SIL's are engaged & I'm getting upset b/c I'm convinced that both of them will get KU before me. one of them has a 3 year old ds & she got pg while on BC. 2 years into my ttc journey. I already told DH that if they get KU before we do  to be prepared for a major meltdown from me. (theres a lot more to this story but I'll spare you all the details). so basically I'm upset over pregnancies that do not exist yet. I'm offically nuts.Crying
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    Hugs. I feel bad for sharing so much about Oct 15 with a pregnant friend. She wrote a sweet note back today, but I probably should have spared her some of the awareness stuff because she's had a tough pregnancy. She didnt need to hear about loss right now.
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    I'm a bad person because the pg chick at work that next door to my office, is not just more successful then me at keeping her pregnancy - but also she is more successful at keeping her office plant alive. And she doesn't even have a window like I do..

    so I secretly want to kill her plant just so that there is on thing I an keep alive longer then her. 

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    I am a bad person because I am avoiding my sister and her phone calls.  I just don't care that my niece is pregnant.  I have looked and can't find it in me to even be a little bit happy for her. 
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    It's good to know I'm not alone! My friend had a baby about a month ago... she was due 2 weeks before I was, and we shared the excitement about that at the begining of our pregnancies. I kept telling myself I'd be pregnant again before she had the baby, and it would be fine. Of course, I'm still not pregnant, and I'm more bitter every day. She lives two blocks away, and I keep making excuses that we're so busy and can't come by.
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    You're not a bad person, PK. I am pretty sure DH's cousin and his wife are expecting and I selfishly wish she'd just announce it already so I can get my fake happies out of the way and move on with sulking. 
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    I'm a bad person because I am glad one of my good friends at work is on vacation.  Not because she's having fun,but because she's freaking out she's PG and won't SHUT UP about it.  She hasn't even peed on a damn stick yet.  I really don't want to see her unless that pee stick is negative.  She sits right next to me, so if it's positive I'm going to be a wreck for MONTHS.
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