Well I wasn't expecting to be back to this place. I was told back in May that I had a blighted ovum and shortly after started spotting. I tried to miscarry naturally and it didn't work. I had to have a d&c anyways.
I was so excited in August when I got my next bfp. Things were going so well. At 5 weeks I saw the babies heart beat fluttering away. Everthing seemed to be great. My next ultrasound was scheduled for 10/26. I was thinking this past week that maybe things were going to work this time because I had gotten to week 12 without any problems this time. I thought surely since I'm almost to the second trimester everything would be ok. But I started spotting the day before my ultrasound. I was in the er for 5 hours and they couldn't hear a heart beat. They said my hcg had risen since my last blood test but not as much as they would like it to have risen. After my exam they said it didn't look like I was physically trying to miscarry. But then at my ultrasound the next day there wasn't a heart beat. It was so awful. As soon as the picture popped up on the screen I knew something was wrong. You could see the little baby but it was laying so still. It stopped growing at 9 weeks. You could see my uterus contracting on the screen even though I couldn't feel it.
What makes this more awful for me is I was in the er at 9 weeks. I had a bad feeling and my body felt weird from the bottom of my abdomen up to my neck. I felt like that for two days. The er docs couldn't find anything wrong with me and said maybe I just had indigestion. But they couldn't hear a heartbeat then either. So I feel like maybe that day was the moment I lost my child and didn't even know it.
I'm so depressed. The doc that performed my d&c this time isn't my normal doctor since my normal doc was in Florida on vacation. But he told me that he thinks I need to wait at least a year before trying again......I don't understand why a whole year. I've been wanting to have another child for over a year and a half now. The thought of having to wait a whole other year to try breaks my heart even more because I want this so badly.
Has anyone else had their doctor tell them to wait a whole year?
I'm going to my doctor tuesday and will definitely ask him about ttc again. I'm terrified this will happen a third time because I don't even know how to deal with it this second time.