Really hard day! :( I've decided I need a change.

HayleyBaker1122 · October 2012

So, today was really hard for me. Ever since my m/c I've been so busy and down that I've been eating horribly. On top of eating horribly, a lot of the active things in my life have ended, and I started a work out routine, then got sick and haven't gotten back into it since... With all of that I know i've gained weight, and kept thinking I just need to get back to feeling good and not eating junk every time I'm down. I kept thinking man this has to change.

I finally got up the courage to weigh myself and found that I've gained 10 pounds since my m/c :'( ( I'm 5'2" so 10 pounds is very noticeable on me) I've never gained that much weight in 2 months!! I broke down and started crying. I'm sick of feeling horrible and knowing I'm just getting so much worse. When I was pregnant I already was at the highest weight I've ever been at, and it wasn't horrible, but it's higher than I wanted to be... but after seeing the scale now I feel so deflated and miserable.

DH was really nice and helped me feel better, but I just hate it. The worst part is, I don't feel motivated to change, but I know I have to make that decision or it'll just get worse. I've decided to fit in a work out routine 5 days a week, and completely eliminate all junk food of any kind. I think this is what I need to do to really change this. I want to hold myself to it, and really change or this will just get worse...

... Sorry for the vent ladies, I just was feeling so miserable and needed to get it out.

LLPtobe · October 2012

Oh hon, big (((hugs))) to you! I'm sorry you're feeling down about yourself. I know what you mean about 10lbs being a lot. I am only 5' and it seems that every additional pound is so noticeable, but I'm sure it's way worse to us than it is to everyone else. I also fell into a funk after my m/c and had to get back on the wagon so to speak with eating healthy and exercising. Your plan sounds like a good one and I know that there is a Healthy Living check in on the board that might help you stay on track and motivated. You can do it!!

dandywarhol · October 2012

I'm sorry you are feeling down. Emotional eating and weight gain combined with the common depression following a m/c is such a b*itch. I was in a similar place after my most recent loss. One of the things I was depressed about was the lack of control in my life. I decided, like you, that by focusing on getting healthy I could take back some control. It has helped me and I hope it will help you. Just remember that things like this take time and try not to get frustrated when you don't lose 10lbs the first day.

I always have difficulty with those expectations!

lovelainie · October 2012

I'm sorry you're having a rough time. I gained a little over ten pounds after my loss, and I struggled a lot to get them off again.

You're always welcome to join the Healthy Living Check In--it's a great place for support and ideas, and honestly, I don't think I'd be making much progress without participating in it.

weaslewam · October 2012

I'm so sorry, I know what you mean... it's so hard when you're dealing with a loss to pay close attention to your appearance and diet. What's good is that you've noticed it at 10 pounds, the worst case scenario is 50+ pounds before you decide to make a change! You can do this!!! You've got our support and we certainly understand!

(((HUGS)))

densquared · October 2012

Yes, what they all said. Come join us at the healthy loving check-in. Even though the end result won't happen overnight, it's nice to have cheerleaders for all of your small accomplishments!

lindsayanne14 · October 2012

Agree with pp...the healthy living check in is a great place to share accomplishments, stay on track and work toward common goals! Good luck!

TLR813 · October 2012

I'm sorry you're feeling down! I've definitely been there! I've definitely been emotionally eating lately, and have put on 5-10 lbs. It takes you from already feeling down, to much more depressed. It sounds like you have a good plan for moving forward though! Keep it up, and you'll feel better in no time!

LAMCH1980 · October 2012

I'm sorry you've been feeling down. You are not alone in this struggle. I'm 5' and gained 13 lbs in about 3 months after my m/c last November. I think some of it was just the change in metabolism because I had bad m/s when I was Pg and I couldn't eat. Then when I could again I just packed on the pounds. Join the healthy living check-in. It's the perfect place for you!

AmyM72 · October 2012

Sorry you are having a tough day. If I can give you one small piece of advice of something that worked for me. I lost 45 pounds last year and have kept it off or at least in a 5 pound range. Give yourself at least one small treat a day, and don't be too hard on yourself. If I tried to eliminate ALL junk or treats I just go crazy craving things.