Saturday I found out I had I had a threatened miscarrage. Bleeding, cramping, and no fetal heartbeat. Also 4 weeks smaller than we thought he/she should have been. Today I found out that there is still no heartbeat, the sac has collapsed, and the bleeding and cramping has increased by a lot. The doctor said he was 90% sure the baby was not living and then said he is only saying that because he's not aloud to say 100% without the bloodwork back. So basically... the baby is no longer living and stopped growing 4 weeks ago. 
My husband and I went to the store and bought a toooon of junk food. Sodas, candy, chips, cookies, ice cream.... we're eating our feelings. cI know it's bad but it's not something we ever do. My emotions are all over the place. One minute i'm fine and the next i'm breaking down. Knowing that this baby is still inside of me makes it harder. I'm going to try to be strong the best that I can. I find it kinda of intreresting that I found out that I lost my baby on "Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day." And in saying that, to all that have lost their children, I am so sorry for your loss. To everyone here on the may board, I pray your pregnancies are happy and healthy ones. Goodbye for now.
Re: Goodbye Everyone :(
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He's my fairytale, a dream when I'm not sleeping.
<a href="http://s279.photobucket.com/albums/kk121/behapybride/?action=viewDX: PCOS/Recurrent losses/MTHFR mutation (compound hetero)
5 hysteroscopies/2 surgical
3 Inject IUIs = 2 m/c's and 1 BFN
IVF #1= BFP. m/c at 7w6d. Needed 2 D&C's and scar tissue removal. Mild OHSS
IVF #2 = BFP. Severe OHSS. 4 Drainings. TWINS!
I'm so sorry for your loss. Are you looking into a D&C or do you think your body is in the beginning of miscarrying on its own? I found out my baby had died at our first appointment last time. I gave myself one week to see if my body would do its thing, but it didn't, so I got a D&C. I too remember feeling so dead inside, knowing I was still carrying my baby. That was the worst.
I hope you can miscarry naturally soon, or you can get a D&C. I won't lie, the healing process is a long road, but at least you will feel like you are starting to move forward, once the miscarriage is "complete," so to speak. Many ((hugs)) for you and your husband.
BFP #2 8/22/12 | EDD 5/5/13 | DS1 born 5/9/13
BFP #3 4/25/15 | EDD 1/7/16 | MMC 7/2/15 @ 13w1d | D&E 7/8/15
BFP #4 12/9/15 | EDD 8/22/16 | DS2 born 5/18/16 at 26w2d
Just keep swimming.
I'm so sorry. When mine happened, I had a night of eating a lot of candy, which I never do but I didn't care. I just needed something to make me feel different than I was.
Do what you can to make yourself feel better. I took off a week of work, for example. My thoughts are with you.
Natural MC 10/01/14
Married my very own GI Joe May 2002
BFP #2: 08/23/12; EDD: 05/04/13 ~Please stick little one!!! DS born 05/09/13 at 40w5d
BFP #1: 05/05/12; EDD: 01/01/13; m/c: 05/21/12 ~Forever in our hearts~
I was told that since the baby was only measuring at 6 weeks (even though we believed we were 10 weeks along) that they could give me 4 pills and then I lay in bed for 4-5 hours until it happens and that they will also give me vicadin because I will have contractions. He said I could wait a little while to see if it happens naturally (which I chose to do) and that on the ultrasound it looked pretty low as if it were trying to naturally leave my body. I'm thankful that I have this option rather than a D&C. And thankyou.
Thankyou everyone.
PGAL/PAL welcome

BFP #2 9.12.12, EDD 5.24.13, Baby Boy Born 5.15.13!!
My Ovulation Chart
3 Clomid (100mg) cycles + TI + Trigger = BFN's, Femara + Trigger + IUI#1 = BFN
Femara + Trigger + IUI#2 = BFP!
"Strength does not come from physical capacity. It comes from an indomitable will." ~Gandhi
my happy boy
EDD 1/31/13, MC May 17. EDD 3/31/13, MC July 26. I miss you so much already my angel loves