Just feeling blue. Mc and baby mentioned

atangiblewish · October 2012

After my interview I felt blue today. Thought of my lil mananee our nickname for our angel and how he/she was in my tummy at this time last month. I was very irritable with my fianc last night. Borderline cold. I didn't realize why I was so upset until almos near evening. I met my mom and nana for dinner and now am staying at my moms house which is also nanas. Well I'm sitting here in the living room and there are 5 pictures of my cousins baby and his family where my wedding picture used to be. I'm not married anymore but part of me was still hurt. I mean they are lined up on her organ where sheet music would be oh and there's an antique highchair that's always been there. But next to the pictures it stings a lil more.

Mom and I had a big fight after I miscarried because she said cold things to me as I passed my baby. She's usually on my side but she was cold cause I had no job and she pretty much thought I was becoming a loser cause I had to get Medicaid. It's like I had a job for 6 years and got pregnant. Didn't find out I was pregnant until after I left said job for a new job and that job didnt work out. I am still mad at her a lil bit. But we were so close until that. She was just very cold. Makes me near tears thinking about it.

I just want to be at home with my fianc and fur babies. But alas we have a garage sale tomorrow.

Sorry for the vent I'm just so sad tonight.