Had a very faint line on Monday and a darker one today..
But now I am convinced that it is not going to stick and I am going to lose this pregnancy again...
I was out on a bereavement day today for my husband's uncle's funeral and my boss and 2 other teachers contacted me during the day about work-related stress.. I officially start back with all of the new common core and APPR protocol mtgs at work tomorrow..
Don't know if I am projecting work on the IVF or the IVF on work but I am losing my mind and can't stop crying...
Anyone else stress after a positive? At what point did you finally relax and just enjoy your news?
Re: Stressing... Need ppl who understand
I'm sorry you're having a hard time. I've had a loss and so I know it's going to be harder to be happy and not totally stressed when I do get another BFP.
You might have better luck getting answers to this question on the Pregnant after IF or Success after IF boards though.
(((hugs)))
I feel like this is my story exactly. We had a failure in july and rushed through this August FEt because we never thought it was going to work and needed it behind us so we could start exploring adoption..
Then came the HPT +.. I am not complaining! Believe me I am thrilled but it doesn't feel real. It is almost if I am refusing to acknowledge it... because I don't want to crash too hard if it all goes south.. we can't try again..
I am trying to enjoy the moments of happiness we do have but the fear is overwhelming.. thanks for responding.. it is nice to know I am not alone...
IVF #1 in August 2012: BFP!
L was born on May 5, 2013, 8lb. 6oz.
PAIF/SAIF welcome!
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I hope your bloodwork gives you promising news and things progress nicely!
Fingers crossed for you!!
Me (32) DOR, elevated NK Cells/ 2 copies of MTHFR mutation/ MH (35) azoo/high DFI (TTC#1 since 2009)
IVFs#1-4: (4/10-2/12) all BFN
Surprise Bfp (9/11) - c/p
DS IUI#1-2 (9/12, 10/12) - BFN
DS IVF: (11/12) - BFN
DE/DS IVF#1: (10/13) - 2 day 3 embies transferred-BFFN
FET of 2 day 6 blasts: (12/13) - c/p
DE/DS IVF #2: (4/14) - 1 day 5 blast transferred...BFFN...again.
FET 5/14: 1 day 5 hatching blast transferred...another BFFN
Repeat SHG 6/14-normal / Endometrial Receptivity Array biopsy 7/14-Receptive Uterus
New RE, additional testing reveals elevated NK Cells
FET of 1 day 5 blast (RE recommends transferring 1 due to elevated NK cells) with lovenox, steroids & intralipids in October
I felt the same way as you. I had a loss with my fresh ivf cycle, when I got another positive with my frozen I was convinced I would loose it....I still am freaking out inside, even though I am 9 weeks Tom and my first pregnancy was fine with no problems and I never felt this way....I know deep inside it will be ok..my baby has a strong heart beat and it measuring right on track....just relax cause stress isn't good. A positive is a good thing...are you on progrestrone? The first few weeks are hard, but try and get through them as stress free and happy as possible. Be happy your pregnant and take it one day at a time....tell some people you trust, that might help you get more excited and less fearful...my family and friends were so good and positive through all of it,..even when they thought mine may be etopic cause of slow tisbg 3rd beta.....good luck
thank you for responding.. yes. I am on Crinone (vaginal progesterone-YUCK) 2x a day... I am also on estrogen patches and an estrogen vaginal ring...
Right now I am just EXHAUSTED, having hot flashes and I get heart burn if I let myself get hungry.. I also have lower abdominal aching at times...Trying not to stress and just enjoy being PUPO... We really never thought this would happen... We were given very low odds of success and we were planning on moving on to adoption this fall... I can't even process this!
thank you for responding.. yes. I am on Crinone (vaginal progesterone-YUCK) 2x a day... I am also on estrogen patches and an estrogen vaginal ring...
Right now I am just EXHAUSTED, having hot flashes and I get heart burn if I let myself get hungry.. I also have lower abdominal aching at times...Trying not to stress and just enjoy being PUPO... We really never thought this would happen... We were given very low odds of success and we were planning on moving on to adoption this fall... I can't even process this! GL to you!