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Sometimes I wish....

mrshumpmrshump
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I was on hospital bed rest. I mean, I don't really wish this because I know how hard it is for the ladies that are on it. But since I've been on bed rest, i felt like I was doing everything right. And for a week my cervix remained the same length and then in just a few days it went down .5 cm. 

i have no idea what i did differently that could cause that change and it's so frustrating and I wish i was just being monitored on a regular basis until I reach 30 weeks or so. every single thing makes me alarmed. my baby's head is usually down so i typically have a lot of pressure, but after this Thursday and seeing how i've gotten down to 1.2 cm with a substantial bit of funneling and then had to get steroid shots...and knowing i have doctors appointments this week which require me to walk down and back up the steps of our fifth floor walk up (which we are moving out of next saturday), it just makes me so frazzled waiting for the next ultrasound and just hoping that things look the same if not better.

 

so while, i don't want the financial burden of hospital bed rest or the stir crazy that i know it can cause, or just the anguish of being away from home and my husband and cooped in a hospital bed i just wish there was some way for me to know what's going on in there so i don't f up, and react or respond when it's too late.  because i really don't know what i'm doing wrong. i'm trying hard to lay on my side all day, not lift a finger. only get up to use bathroom. i rarely even sit up in the bed. *sigh*

hoping for better news on Thursday at my next ultrasound. also thinking about going for my GTT same day so I can minimize my trips out the house.  

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  • baby olseybaby olsey member
    I understand how you feel. My best advice is remind yourself that you are not  at fault.
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  • Wally3Wally3 member
    It is not your fault.  Relax as much as you can and bed rest as much as you can at home.  Your doctor must feel that home bed rest is best for you.  Being in the hospital is stressful in itself and they must feel it is better for you and baby at home.  I was in the hospital for 3 days and while LO was being monitored for heart beat and I was being monitored for contractions - they only checked my cervix when I was admitted - more checking can cause changes or infection.  If yo are in the hospital you don't sleep well or relax - at least I didn't.  Rest follow your doctor's instructions and remember it is not your fault.

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  • weddedwifeweddedwife member
    I can totally relate to this! I was on bed rest for 8 weeks and then suddenly my cervix shortened though I didn't do anything different. I sort of halfjoked at the beginning of this pg that i wish they could just keep me in the hospital foe 9 months!

    Now that I'm in the hospital, although it sucks, I honestly feel safer. I'm kind of worried about being released Monday, if that does in fact happen. However, pp is right; they don't check your cervix often because they don't want to disturb things. Also now that I'm just an observation patient, they kind of forget about you a little. They're sometimes late w my medications and let me tell you if you're on strict bed rest in here peeing in a bed pan and having a stream of different people clean you up isn't fun! Also this bed is not comfortable and you do get interrupted a lot for blood pressure checks, to empty your trash, and just about everything else. When I have a headache I can't even take a Tylenol in a timely manner. Today I had massive hemorrhoid pain, sorry TMI, and I couldn't take my suppositories that I have with me, they want the pharmacy to send one up but can't do that til 5 pm so I have to wait 4 hours! Ouch.

    I can't remember, do you have a cerclage? I think bed rest pretty much sucks either way. If you're home you worry, you still worry here. They won't be checking my cervix all wknd, couldn't something change?
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  • mrshumpmrshump
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    I can totally relate to this! I was on bed rest for 8 weeks and then suddenly my cervix shortened though I didn't do anything different. I sort of halfjoked at the beginning of this pg that i wish they could just keep me in the hospital foe 9 months!

    Now that I'm in the hospital, although it sucks, I honestly feel safer. I'm kind of worried about being released Monday, if that does in fact happen. However, pp is right; they don't check your cervix often because they don't want to disturb things. Also now that I'm just an observation patient, they kind of forget about you a little. They're sometimes late w my medications and let me tell you if you're on strict bed rest in here peeing in a bed pan and having a stream of different people clean you up isn't fun! Also this bed is not comfortable and you do get interrupted a lot for blood pressure checks, to empty your trash, and just about everything else. When I have a headache I can't even take a Tylenol in a timely manner. Today I had massive hemorrhoid pain, sorry TMI, and I couldn't take my suppositories that I have with me, they want the pharmacy to send one up but can't do that til 5 pm so I have to wait 4 hours! Ouch.

    I can't remember, do you have a cerclage? I think bed rest pretty much sucks either way. If you're home you worry, you still worry here. They won't be checking my cervix all wknd, couldn't something change?



    No cerclage. Just progesterone.
    How short is your cervix now?

    I am totally thankful to not have to be in the hospital. Especially mine. Since the past two days I've had to go for steroid shots they have been PACKED. I would probably feel even worse thinking I've been forgotten. Anyway. I'm holding tight.

    How are you doing???
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  • weddedwifeweddedwife member
    The night before the cerclage I was 8mm and fingertip dilated. The next morning I was 1 cm dilated but I'm not sure if the length had changed any. Now I'm at about a 1.7 w the cerclage in place and it's closed tight.

    I'm doing okay, I do miss my DD pretty bad. She has visited but only a couple hours at a time, I miss her lil face. I miss DH too but I get to see him a bit more. Today at least has been uneventful but I am working on a massive headache right now.
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  • KadyraKadyra member
    I've been on hospital bed rest for 13 days now. I can get up to pee and I can shower every other day the shower has a bench in it to sit on. That's all I can do. On antes I have this freedom. In LD, I had a catheter in, wasn't allowed up for any reason, and had the humiliating experience of pooping in a bedpan and having the poor nurse wipe my butt.

    My daily activities include waking up between 6 and 630 because it's too bright in here. Immediately after 630, I order breakfast. Then I check email, FB, and TB. Then I eat. Then I watch Netflix until I'm ready to order lunch. Around this time, DH comes with DS and we eat together. They usually stay 1.52 hours. When they leave, I either watch more Netflix, cross stitch, or read until I order my dinner. I eat dinner. Then, if I'm lucky, I'll see DH and DS again for an hour. Then I watch Netflix until about 10 or 1030. And I go to sleep.

    During this time, I get my vitals and nifedipine at 8am. If they get to me on time. I stress if they are more than 15 minutes late because when I cramp and contract, I bleed, and I start cramping at around the 3.5 hour mark. I take the nifedipine every four hours. At noon, pill and vitals. Same thing at 4, 8, midnight, and 4. If my bp us too low, no pill. I have to pee in a little plastic insert in the toilet so they can measure it. And boy is it awkward when I have to poop. Housekeeping comes twice a day. My doctor or covering partners stop by for 510 minutes at some point. Some gem decided I needed to be woken up to be weighed, even though she could have easily done that during vitals time. I get an NST once a shift. Now, I'm getting BPP's and dopplers twice a week.

    It's very hard to sleep. The beds suck even with the egg crate mattress and you're constantly being woken up for something. It's even harder if you e got SCD's on or are on continuous fetal monitoring. With those, you can't turn on your side without someone coming in to "find" the baby.

    Being here doesn't give me any more info than I would have had at home. I'm bored. And the constant interruptions suck. I used to prescribe prolonged hospital bedrest without giving it a thought. It's what was required, right? But now I can't get past the social, emotional, and economic impact of it. At least at home you're in your own bed. Have your own tv. My doctor keeps hounding me to bring in my own things, but my philosophy is you bring it in, you bring it out. Plus with the amount I bleed and the mess I make, I don't want to be in my own underwear and clothes or anywhere near my own bedding. I'd rather the hospital just take care of it. Everyone has an opinion. And nobody gets it. No matter how many times I post on FB I am here until delivery, another idiot asks when I'm getting out. I could just scream. Little things are getting to me now, being here.

    So, after this novel, don't wish for hospital bedrest. Open more communication with your doctor and let them know your expectations and worries. Something should be able to be worked out that's better than this. I'm sorry your cervix is shortening in spite of your good behavior. As weddedwife said, sometimes it just works out that way and for no good reason. GL.
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