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dandywarholdandywarhol member
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I am really angry today. Angry that I should still be on maternity leave with a four-month old or at least 18wks pregnant with my rainbow.  Instead I am here. Instead I have a broken heart. Instead I'm worried that I am getting too old to have a healthy viable pregnancy. Instead I am still bleeding and my breasts are still leaking from the most recent loss. Instead I am hearing about how many of the other Loss moms pg with their rainbows are approaching half-baked.

I am mad. I am angry. I am resentful.  

BFP #1 - Missed M/C, D&C 3.21.11

BFP #2 - Sylvie V. Q. born and died on 10.28.11 at 21w. Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

BFP #3 - Evie V. Q. Fetal demise @ 16w. DC 7.8.12
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BFP  #4 - Beatrix V. Q. Born 6.2.13 at 23w6d.
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  • AmyG2bAmyG2b member
    I am so sorry, dandy. It's not fair at all. Let yourself feel angry!  Huge hugs and prayers that things go your way soon.
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  • eroplaneeroplane member

    Dandy I am so sorry you are going through this. Just reading your post made me teary. Big, big hugs to you.  

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    IVF/ICSI #1 July/August 2011 BFP # 1 - B/G twins - preterm labor/cervical incompetency @ 23w3d FET # 1 March/April 2012 - BFN 5/1/12 FET # 2 July 2012 - BFN 7/24 FET # 3 BFP! EDD 5/15/13 Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers Pregnancy Ticker
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  • lmielocl1lmielocl1 member

    I am so sorry! It has been 5 weeks today since our loss and I keep thinking I should be 23w3d  along.  I so wish that I could take away your pain.  I will be 40 very soon and have concerns about my age. My OB has reassured me that I am not too old so that helps me.  I am not sure your age but wanted to let you know that.  

    Feeling angry is a part of the grieving process.  Feel angry as much as you need! Thinking of you!

     Leslie 

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  • foxxy1foxxy1 member

    *HUGS*

    I know the feeling. I get angry but not as bad as before when I was angry all the time.

    Vent away.

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  • dandywarholdandywarhol member

    Thanks, ladies. I've been saying to DH that we need to go to the batting cages so I can work out some of this anger. Maybe tonight's the night. >:$

    eroplane, that little sockmonkey is pretty dang cute.

     

     

    BFP #1 - Missed M/C, D&C 3.21.11

    BFP #2 - Sylvie V. Q. born and died on 10.28.11 at 21w. Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

    BFP #3 - Evie V. Q. Fetal demise @ 16w. DC 7.8.12
    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers

    BFP  #4 - Beatrix V. Q. Born 6.2.13 at 23w6d.
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  • Bayberry12Bayberry12 member

    It's so hard not to be angry!  I'm in my 30's and have lost two pregnancies, and now I'm also worrying that I may never have baby I can take home.  Why did we wait so long?! It's a horrible place to be.

    I wish you weren't going through this. 

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    BFP #1 Jan. 2011 - mmc Mar. 2011 
    BFP #2 Aug. 2011 - My sleeping angel Stella, born April 21, 2012 
    BFP #3 Nov. 2012 - mmc Dec. 2012
    BFP #4 April 2013 - mc May 2013
    BFP #5 Sept. 2013 - EDD 5.24.14
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  • tubbsy32tubbsy32
    I'm so sorry. ((hugs))
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  • karebear57karebear57 member
    I feel the same way too! I am so happy that the other loss moms are pg but all the bfp's make me more angry (at myself) and jealous, I really hate to admit that. Even this woman I work with, she has 2 older dd's and a few yrs back had a stillbirth at 37wks and just told me she's 9 1/2 wks pg. She knows what happened. I am very happy for her but I'm extremely jealous too. And angry at myself. So I understand, big ((hugs))
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