Anger

dandywarhol

I am really angry today. Angry that I should still be on maternity leave with a four-month old or at least 18wks pregnant with my rainbow.  Instead I am here. Instead I have a broken heart. Instead I'm worried that I am getting too old to have a healthy viable pregnancy. Instead I am still bleeding and my breasts are still leaking from the most recent loss. Instead I am hearing about how many of the other Loss moms pg with their rainbows are approaching half-baked.

I am mad. I am angry. I am resentful.  

AmyG2b

I am so sorry, dandy. It's not fair at all. Let yourself feel angry!  Huge hugs and prayers that things go your way soon.

eroplane

Dandy I am so sorry you are going through this. Just reading your post made me teary. Big, big hugs to you.  

lmielocl1

I am so sorry! It has been 5 weeks today since our loss and I keep thinking I should be 23w3d  along.  I so wish that I could take away your pain.  I will be 40 very soon and have concerns about my age. My OB has reassured me that I am not too old so that helps me.  I am not sure your age but wanted to let you know that.  

Feeling angry is a part of the grieving process.  Feel angry as much as you need! Thinking of you!

 Leslie 

foxxy1

*HUGS*

I know the feeling. I get angry but not as bad as before when I was angry all the time.

Vent away.

dandywarhol

Thanks, ladies. I've been saying to DH that we need to go to the batting cages so I can work out some of this anger. Maybe tonight's the night. >:$

eroplane, that little sockmonkey is pretty dang cute.

 

 

Bayberry12

It's so hard not to be angry!  I'm in my 30's and have lost two pregnancies, and now I'm also worrying that I may never have baby I can take home.  Why did we wait so long?! It's a horrible place to be.

I wish you weren't going through this. 

tubbsy32

I'm so sorry. ((hugs))

karebear57

I feel the same way too! I am so happy that the other loss moms are pg but all the bfp's make me more angry (at myself) and jealous, I really hate to admit that. Even this woman I work with, she has 2 older dd's and a few yrs back had a stillbirth at 37wks and just told me she's 9 1/2 wks pg. She knows what happened. I am very happy for her but I'm extremely jealous too. And angry at myself. So I understand, big ((hugs))