XP PGAL: Lost the baby.

dandywarhol · July 2012

I just got home from the ER. I lost the baby. I was supposed to be 16w4d but the baby apparently died around 16w. I had some lower abdominal pressure yesterday but no bleeding or spotting. I called my OB/GYN just to inform him and he said most likely it was just RLP. Today I took it easy and was watching tv when I felt a slight "gush". I ran to the bathroom and went to the bathroom and at first thought it was just urine. When I wiped there was some mucus with a tiny pink swirl in it. So because of our previous loss we decided to go to the ER just to get it checked out.

At the ER still no bleeding but I was leaking fluid. They did an u/s and I could see the monitor. I couldn't see a heartbeat but thought it was just my untrained eye. When we got back to the ER room, after what seemed like forever, the Dr. came in and said the baby was dead and that I was going to miscarry. I was in shock. I didn't even cry at first.

My OB/GYN came in to the hospital and said that most likely it was a chromosomal abnormality and this was just mother nature taking care of things. He started to mention that he would just let me miscarry naturally and I started to freak out. I couldn't stand the thought of having to deliver another tiny baby. So he said that we could go up to the OR and they would sedate me and let things happen and if needed, I would have a D&C. Apparently I ended up delivering the fetus but they had to do a D&C for the majority of the placenta. I am home now.

I am numb. 3 pregnancies. No living children. I don't think I can do this again.

LadyNikon · July 2012

I actually cried reading that. I am soo sorry that this is happening to you and your S/O. My prayers are with you and your family.

SchruteBucks · July 2012

Oh honey, I am so very sorry. I can't even imagine what you're going through and what you've already been through. I wish there was something I could say that would make one ounce of difference. You will be in my continued prayers.

StefandTodd · July 2012

I'm so so sorry for your loss

MrsBigTime · July 2012

Oh my gosh, my heart is aching for you. I am so sorry for your loss, and your previous losses. I can't imagine the pain you are feeling. Please know that my thoughts and prayers are with you and your husband during this horrible time.

littlepetals · July 2012

I'm so so sorry for your loss. Thoughts and prayers coming your way.

8daysaweek · July 2012

Dandy, I am so incredibly sorry. That just sucks and it's not fair. You'll be in my thoughts and prayers. Please take good care of yourself.

StephanieDM · July 2012

Oh, god. My heart is breaking for you.

Sending you lots of thoughts and prayers and strength to get through this. I'm so sorry for your loss.

bunnymay · July 2012

I am so sorry for your loss. :-( ((endless hugs))

kelseyd90 · July 2012

I'm very sorry about your loss. You've been strong thus far and I hope you can regain the strength again someday. Best of wishes go out to you.

burgergirl13 · July 2012

So Sorry for your loss, cant even imagine what you are going through.

ilenegrace · July 2012

I am so very sorry. I am in tears right now. You and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. ((HUGS))

LGalipp19 · July 2012

I am so sorry. My heart is absolutely aching for you. You seem so strong and I hope you find peace in whatever you decide from this point on. Tons of thoughts and prayers are being sent straight your way.

BrittanyDoesDerby · July 2012

Wow. I am so very sorry for your loss. Sending thoughts and love your way.

Structenggal · July 2012

I am so very sorry for your loss.

emme425 · July 2012

My heart is aching for you. I am sending prayers to you and your husband. Perhaps, when you're ready, you and your husband can go to a specialist to get some genetic testing done. There may be something going on that a specialist can address. ((hugs))

MissusTexas · July 2012

Oh no, I'm so sorry! T&P to you and your H.

lyndsihutson · July 2012

im so sorry to hear this, My heart breaks for you and your family. Sending my thoughts and prayers.

ocbabyplanner · July 2012

There are no words to soothe such a loss. Hugs, love and peace to you and your family.

missusmeeseeks · July 2012

I'm so sorry, this isn't fair and you and your s/o don't deserve to go through it. I will keep all of you in my thoughts.

lanejam · July 2012

There just aren't words to express how deeply sorry I am for your loss. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

PittPurple · July 2012

I'm so very, very sorry. I'm heartbroken for you. Please take care of yourself and we're all thinking of you.

LuffJoo · July 2012

Oh gosh...My heart just broke reading this...I cannot even imagine how you and your S/O are feeling right now, but I really am so sorry you have to go through this. You will be the center of my prayers tonight, and continued thoughts and prayers.

MrsM2008 · July 2012

I am so sorry for your loss. Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.

jp03 · July 2012

OMG. I send every ounce of strength, thoughts, prayers and healing to you. I can't begin to imagine anything - just hang in there somehow honey. Regular life probably seems absolutely surreal right now, just take the time you need - no matter how long that takes.

cassoppea · July 2012

Dandy I'm so, so sorry. I can't even imagine what you are going through right now. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Ace2011 · July 2012

I'm so sorry. That is not fair, at all. I can't even begin to imagine what you two are going through right now. Know that you and your husband are in my thoughts.

Heathirdd · July 2012

I don't think anything I could write could express how sorry I am to have read that. You are obviously strong and brave to have experienced two loses already and with this I hope you only stay that way. I know its very disheartening to think you won't ever get to bring home your baby, but I know you will. I just know it. You deserve a little one and will get one one day. I hope your family and friends are with you for support and that you find some support here as well.

Sending you my thoughts & prayers.

dukemeli · July 2012

I am so sorry for your loss. My heart goes out to you and your family.

jquirke9881 · July 2012

I am so sorry for your loss.

aprilmars · July 2012

My heart just broke for you. I really am so sorry for your loss. Please post if there is anything that you need, even if just to talk. We are all here for you.