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Took a little break (long)

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Hi ladies, I took a little break after last week. I just got into a very bad place and nothing seemed to help. I am doing okay now. I went out to dinner with DH and my parents for my birthday. My mom got me a bracelet where you add the beads and a baby cakes cake pop maker.

I would really like a fresh start, especially since today is my birthday. I would like to share my story again, hopefully that is okay. I think that it will help.

I went off the pill in November 2010, I got a BFP right away and we weren't trying yet. It was quite a surprise and we were very excited. Everything was normal, I met with a medical assistant at 6 weeks and had bloodword drawn. Everything was perfect. I had my first visit with the doctor at 9 weeks, he commented that I felt small for 9 weeks and sent me down for an ultrasound. They found an empty sac measuring around 6 weeks. I was a mess, DH wasn't with me, I felt alone. I went back at 11 weeks to confirm and chose to have a D&C after the doctor explained a natural miscarriage. I chose to do so without even looking at DH. I felt this went on long enough and it needed to end.

My doctor was unavailable so I had my D&C 2 days later with another doctor in the practice. She was amazing, even though I met her minutes before my surgery. It was an easy procedure and I had no complications. The doctor talked to DH and my parents and the procedure only took about 15-20 minutes. I went home a few hours later. I stayed home for about 5 days after to recover. It took a while for AF to return and she did not become regular. I went back to the doctor in July and he drew bloodwork and it turns out I wasn't ovulating.

I took my first round of clomid 50mg on my next cycle, which was September 2011. The drew bloodwork during the cycle and I did ovulate. I got a BFP that cycle but had a chemical pregnancy at 6 weeks. It was terrible pain, I spent the whole night awake and alone. I decided that I was going to keep going to work and I did. I was in pain and it was not comfortable but I do think that if I would have stayed home, I would have been worse off. I chose to see a counselor which helped to have someone to talk to but she did not help me or give suggestions as how to cope. I stopped seeing her in March 2012.

I had an RPL panel bloodwork drawn in October 2011. Everything came back normal. I don't know everything they tested for but I remember one of them was lupus. I also had an SHG in January 2012. It also came back normal. It was uncomfortable but I did okay. DH went with me but stayed in the waiting room.

We are currently on cycle 5 TTCAL. I canceled the appintment I made out of haste last week. We will keep trying on our own until my annual appointment in November. We currently BD EOD from CD 10-20 per doctors suggestion. If I notice EWCM we might throw in an extra BD. I do not temp because my sleep pattern is very irregular and I often have difficulty sleeping and have to take something to help me sleep. I thought about opk but I am not sure how that would work as a teacher. It might be okay for the next cycle this summer.

I appreciate all of the support, you ladies have been nothing but wonderful to me.

Wedding 08/08/08

BFP #1 12/29/10 EDD 08/29/11 Blighted Ovum 02/09/11 D&C 02/11/11

Clomid 50mg BFP #2 09/21/11 EDD 05/29/11 Chemical Pregnancy 10/4/11

BFP #3 4/19/13 Beta1- 106 Beta2- 524 Beta3- 3500 EDD 12/22/13 LO born 12/31/13

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  • weaslewamweaslewam member
    Welcome back! Thanks for sharing your story again as I didn't know it because I'm still a newbie. I'm sorry that you have to be here with us but I hope that you and your doc come up with a plan to get you KU ASAP!
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  • luvsdogs2luvsdogs2 member
    (((Hugs)))  Happy birthday!  I hope you and your DH are able to do something nice for you tonight.  
    TTC #1 since April 2010
    BFP 4/18/12, M/C 4/27/12 at 6w6d
    BFP 7/1/12 - Counting down to our little girl, EDD 3/8/13
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  • psychmajormompsychmajormom member
    imageweaslewam:
    Welcome back! Thanks for sharing your story again as I didn't know it because I'm still a newbie. I'm sorry that you have to be here with us but I hope that you and your doc come up with a plan to get you KU ASAP!
    This!! ((((huge hugs)))) and happy birthday!!
    (USE TO BE, WISH2BEMOMMY). 1st BFP ever Aug. 16, 2010.... 1st OB appt. Sept. 8, 2010, u/s showed poss. blighted ovum.... b/w 9/8/10 22,698 b/w 9/10/10 14,521.... mmc confirmed, started naturally m/c 9/15/10, d & c 9/16/10 I love you my precious monkey!! 2nd BFP March 2011.... c/p, miss you lil one!! 3rd BFP Nov. 20, 2011, subcornial hemorrhage detected 11/24/11 heartbeat found.... LO's heartbeat lost 11/25/11.... d & c 11/26/11..... I love and miss you so much baby!!!! C/P 4/26/12.... gone before I knew you.... off BCP 10-1-13.. BFP 11-20-13.. SCH for 7 weeks.. 3-4-14: It's a Girl!.. 4-22-12 emergency cerclage placed..7-7-14 cerclage removed at 36w.. delivered Lillian Marie 7-28-14..
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  • QuigleyCat1QuigleyCat1 member
    Happy Birthday Pooh! Thanks for sharing your story again with us glad to see you back. Lots O' hugs!

    Lilypie - (dLe1)

     

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  • GregermisGregermis member
    ((Hugs))  Hang in there lady
    TTC #1 Since 4/2010, Cycle 30
    Positive for HLA-B27, I'm a mutant :p
    Testing - Me ok, gluten issue? DH - borderline count, low motility
    4/28/11 IUI#1 = BFP!(5/25), EDD 2/2/12 - m/c 5w3d
    7/3, 7/31, 9/25 - IUI#2-4=BFN
    IVF#1 - 1 blast = BFP!! (12/30), EDD 9/9/12, confirmed c/p 4w2d
    FET#1 3/2/12 - 2 blasts =BFP!! EDD 11/18/12, us#1 = twins! Confirmed m/c 5w6d
    4/20-surprise BFP and another c/p 4w2d
    FET#2 7/16/12 - 2 blasts = BFN
    FET#3 8/20/12 - 1 blast - BFP!! Beta #1-2=177, 354
    1st u/s 5w6d, one beautiful little HB :), 2nd u/s 146bpm
    baby girl born 5/10/13

    TTC#2 since 12/17/2014, Cycle 8
    Repeat Testing...FSH=12, AMH=3.8, AFC=28. 
    IUI#5 5/10/15- c/p?
    IVF#2 8/19/15 - cancelled due to cysts
    IVF#2 take two 10/2015 - 5 blasts frozen
    FET#4 12/11/2015 - BFN - 4 blasts remaining
    FET#5 2/18/16 - BFP!!!  Beta1-3, 126, 250, 745!!

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  • pkarenpkaren member
    Happy Birthday!! And big hugs....sometimes a break from the board is good and we're here for you when you need us!
    BFP #1: 12/26/11, EDD 09/05/12; m/c discovered: 02/22/12 @ 12w u/s,
    D&C: 03/08/12 Waited for AF for 146 long days!
    Hysteroscopy/D&C on July 10th to fix blocked cervix (DX: Cervical Stenosis)
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  • VikingQueenVikingQueen member
    ((hugs)) missed you sweetie, thank you for sharing your story again
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  • April!April! member

    Welcome back! 

    Have you thought about using a Clearblue monitor? You use your first urine in the morning so you don't have to worry about testing outside of home. I have one and I love it. 

    Lilypie First Birthday tickers
    BFP #2 9/5/2012 -- Born 5/20/2013 -- Welcome, rainbow baby!
    BFP #1 1/24/12 -- No HB 2/16/12 -- Misoprostol 3/10/12
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  • dtowngirldtowngirl
    Lots of ((hugs)). I'm sorry you had to go through all that. I hope it gets better soon.
    BabyFruit Ticker BFP #1 - 1-25-2012. Missed M/C discovered at 9 weeks 3 days. D&C 3-9-2012

    BFP #2 - 10-11-2012 Beta 38, 10-15-2012 Beta 518!.
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  • big_noisebig_noise member
    Hugs and welcome back. I wasn't sure about opks either (I do chart through). I had to start using them two cycles ago per Dr's orders for a follow up appointment to random cycle spotting and I've continued using them. I'm glad I did. FWIW though, I just use FMU. I know it's not the best option but I can't hold it very long. It works for me and I've been able to pinpoint my surge.
    BFP #1, 12/22/09 - DD#1 born 9/2010
    BFP #2, 12/12/11, m/c 12/25/11
    BFP #3, 3/09/12, CP 3/10/12
    BFP #4, 7/22/12, DD#2 born 4/2013
     

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  • mom22labsmom22labs member
    I'm sorry you have been having such a hard time lately.  But I am glad to see you back :)    Happy Birthday and Beer to a fresh start.
    BFP #1 10/05/10 (EDD 6/10/11) , natural m/c 11/24/10 BFP #2 1/20/12 (EDD 9/20/12) , natural m/c 3/3/12 BFP #3 10/09/12 (EDD 6/20/12), hoping third times a charm
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