Pregnant after IF

Baby F is here

Lila Elise was born on Sunday at 31 weeks, 2 days weighing 3 lbs. 13 oz and 18 inches long. She is doing relatively well thanks to the steroid shots and breathing room air.  She will be in the NICU for several weeks for feeding and growth.

 Her entry into the world was not the full term, gentle unmedicated vaginal birth I envisioned.  I am having a hard time with the fact that my body failed her by keeping her safely in utero until she was ready to be born.  

TTC since 3-08 IVF # 1 Dec 2011 BFP DD born at 31 weeks 6-24-12

FET #1 Dec 2013 BFN

FET # 2 Feb 2014 BFN

No more frosties

IVF #2. September 2014

PGD yielded 2 perfect 5d blasts

SET November 9, 2014
Nov 23, 2014. Another BFN

Not sure where to go from here.

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  • I know you're frustrated that your body didn't cooperate they way you wanted, but it sounds like the steroid shots really helped out a lot.

    Sending lots of T&P's your way that Lila continues to grow stronger each day, and she's home soon.

    Congrats mama!

    Me: 35 DH: 37 TTC since 4/2010
    DX: 6/9/2011: Azoo ICSI/IVF only option for biological child
    IVF #1: ER - 9/26 * ET - 10/1 * beta#1 10/13 - 140 * beta#2 10/17 - 477 * beta#3 10/20 - 1101
    1st u/s at 6w6d - one hb * 2nd u/s at 8w3d - no hb detected 11/10/11 * natural m/c 11/13/11
    FET #1 Jan/Feb 2012 - 3 delays - cancelled 2/13
    FET #1.2 - May/June 2012 - ET 6/6/* beta#1 6/15 - 95 * beta #2 6/19 - 322 * beta #3 6/22 - 940
    7/6 1st u/s @ 7 weeks - one beautiful hb - released from RE
    EDD 2/22/2013
    PAIF/SAIF/PGAL welcome
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  • Her name is beautiful!!!!  Congratulations on your daughter, so glad she's doing well under the circumstances.  Please be gentle on yourself.  I have a rough understanding of some of the feelings you may be having, my body has failed me in labor and I've had to deliver by csection.  My first DS was low birth weight at full term and had failure to thrive his first month.  Sometimes the best we can do still falls short of our expectations of ourselves.  Thank God for modern medicine!  Hang in there, MoFree, and thanks for the update.

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  • ::lurking from August BMB::

    Mo, you did everything you could to protect your baby girl <3  I'm sorry you're struggling emotionally with all of this, but I am sending you huge (((HUGS))) and lots of T&Ps for sweet Lila to grow and thrive now that she's on the outside!  Many blessings on her arrival, and thanks for sharing your update with us!   

    ~Sweet Girl *8/18/08* c-section ~ Sweet Boy *12/2/10* VBAC ~ Sweet Boy *8/14/12* VBAC~ 

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  • I am so sorry that you didn't get th birth experience you expected. Big hugs to you and congratulations!
    TTC since 2006
    Me: 36 DH: 40
    DH dx azoospermia My dx: RA & AMA
    d-IUI's--6/10, 7/13 & 8/4: all BFN
    d-IVF#1--Lupron/Menopur/Bravelle/Novarel; mini-dose protocol
    ER: 10/25--18R; 14F; ET: 10/28--3dt of 2 embies; 3 blasts frozen
    + HPT 11/4; Beta #1--14dp3dt: 441; Beta #2--21dp3dt: 9298
    One beautiful jelly bean growing! Saw h/b on 11/28 and 12/5!!!
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  • Congratulations!  T&Ps that she grows stronger and stronger each day. You did not fail her!!  Don't beat yourself up like that. 

    TTC #1 since 8/1/10; Me:41 and BRCA1+, DH:46
    DOR (FSH 24.3)/ terrible egg quality ; homozygous MTHFR c677t
    5 IUI's: 2/11 to 6/11 and 1/12= BFN
    OE IVF#1-4 8/11-6/12= all BFN
    DE IVF#1 11/12 bad embryos= BFN
    DE IVF #2 2/13 BFP/Beta hell: m/c 5w6d
    CFNBC 7 months, not doing well; decided on guarantee program at RBA w/frozen DE
    DE IVF #3 1/14  ET 4BB; BFP;M/C 5w1d, incomplete m/c; MVA extraction in ER 7w1d

    DE FET#1 ET 3/1714; BFP, beta 1 3/27= 197, beta 2 3/31= 1586, beta 3 4/7= 13879!!
    First u/s= Twins with HBs at 6w2d! We are Team Pink x 2!!

    K & K born 11/21/14 at 38wks 4 days

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  • I'm so sorry that the arrival of Lila was not what you had envisioned. But, I am so pleased to hear she is doing so well! Congratulations!
    TTC in 2009, Dx: Unexplained IF
    Three TI cycles (BFP...miscarriage), five IUI attempts and 2.5 IVF cycles later...BFP!!
    12dp5dt: 765; 15dp5dt: 1979; 17dp5dt: 3379...TWINS!!!!!
    Our perfect baby boys were born at 36w1d!! 








  • TJ1979TJ1979 member
    Congratulations on your little girl!  I'm sorry it's not the perfect birth you envisioned, but the important thing is that she is here now and she is doing relatively well.  Go easy on yourself, you did everything you could.  Sending lots of T&P to you and Lila Elise that she continues to grow and thrive and you get to take her home very soon.  ((hugs))
    TTC with PCOS since November 2009
    IUI#1 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 3-7) = BFP, m/c
    IUI#2 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 5-9) = BFN
    IUI#3 Femara/Ovidrel (cd 3-7) = BFP!
    beta #1 11/23 = 270, P4 = 75
    beta #2 11/28 = 2055
    Our daughter E was born 7/29/2012!
    Surprise, our 2nd daughter P was born 5/22/14!
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    Congratulations!!

    I'm sorry that you're having a hard time, but try to focus on the fact that she's doing well and continues to grow stronger. 

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    Trying for #1 since May 2010   l   DX ~ Unexplained Infertility June 2011

    IUI #1&2 = BFN; IUI #3 = BFP, m/c @ 6 weeks

    November '11 ~ IVF#1 ~ ER 11/18 (29R, 17F) ~ 5dt of one beautiful blast on 11/23 = BFP!!

    Beta #1 9dp5dt = 116, P4 = 28 ~ Beta #2 13dp5dt = 700 ~ Beta #3 20dp5dt = 9500, P4 = 26

    1st u/s 12/27 - hb of 156!! EDD 8.10.12 :)   **TEAM GREEN!**

    Sweet baby boy born 8.18.12

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    Trying for #2

    FET #1 - October '13 - c/p   l   FET #2 - December '13 - cancelled :(   l   FET #2.2 - 1.30.14 - BFN

    ~ More testing - hysteroscopy, endometrial biopsy & more b/w - all normal / negative~

    Surprise BFP while waiting on FET #3 ~ beta #1 500; beta #2 1600; first u/s 4/3 - measuring 5w5d, no hb yet!; 2nd u/s 4/10 - hb 132, measuring 6w6d - EDD 11.29.14 :)    **TEAM GREEN!**

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  • Congrats sweets!

    Don't feel bad about delivering early - to me it says your mothery instincts/emotions are working perfectly! :). Unfortunately, there are some things that we just can't control.

    AND, I love her name!  Lila is at the top of our list!

    Congrats again. 

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  • Congratulations Mo! Sending lots of T&P's your way. I'm thrilled to hear that Lila is doing well and hopefully she won't be in the NICU too long.
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  • Congratulations - that is a beautiful name!

    I get your frustration, for sure, but please try not to dwell on it at this point - she is here and doing well and that is what matters now!

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  • Pnut30Pnut30 member
    Congratulations and what a beautiful name! I can't imagine what you are going through but please try to not blame yourself over something you could not control..
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  • Congrats!!! I'm glad she's doing well. Beautiful name!
    IVF #3 = Feb 2012
    beta#1 3/21 (14dp3dt)=413, beta#2 3/23 (16dp3dt)=785, u/s 4/11
    EDD 11/25/12
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  • CONGRATS!!

    Praying for you and baby Lila!  I know you wanted a different pregnancy/birth experience but she will be fine.

    <3 and ((HUGS))

    Grow Lila GROW!!!

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    Courage doesn't always roar. Sometimes courage is the little voice at the end of the day that says I'll try again tomorrow. ~Mary Anne Radmacher (thank you beadinglady)

    It's been a long journey. TTC since 9/06. multiple IUI's and IVF's and 4 m/c's. IVF#3 = BFP, twins, induced at 34w6d due to baby b passing away (no explanation). Delivered on 35w1d, Baby A - baby girl, and Baby B - baby boy, our little angel.
    MTHFR A1298C & C677T, Immune Issues and Factor II
  • congrats! and dont be hard on yourself, all that matters is that she got here. im sure we all wont/dont get the perfect delivery we envision. Enjoy that baby! sending lots of growing vibes her way!
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    missed miscarriage nov 2006- 4 failed clomid cycles-
    3 failed femara iui cycles-
    moving on to IVF oct 2011
    ER nov. 7th
    tansfered 2 blasts on 11/10
    lots of +hpt!!
    beta #1 on 11/21= 50.4
    beta #2 on11/23= 90.8
    another miscarriage 12/23
    moving on to Round 2 of IVF with an auto immune dx
    ER 4/23-retrieved 12 eggs
    ET 4/28 3 transfered
    Beta #1- 356
    Beta #2- 870

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  • Congratulations on your little girl, Mo!  So happy for you.  I love her name, very sweet and feminine.  I'm glad to hear that she's doing well for her age and size, and send continued thoughts and prayers for her to grow and thrive and come home soon! 

    Try not to beat yourself up too badly about the circumstances, they were beyond your control just like IF.  You did nothing wrong.  I know how you feel about not being able to protect them, or not being able to do what seemingly every other woman on earth could (just like they could get pregnant on their own, they give birth to full term plump babies vaginally).  There's no use in dwelling on it, your daughter is here and you're a Mommy!  Focus on that and enjoy this time, it goes by much too quickly.  :)

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  • Congratulations on your little girl.  I'm so glad to hear that Lila is doing well in the NICU.  She's in good hands. I'm sorry that her entry into the world was not what you had hoped for her.  ::hugs::
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    Tara & Dave - TTC since September 2006
    PCOS - dx 1999 (amenorrhea) | freakishly long fallopian tubes
    Hypoglycemic | thyroid issues | severely anemic
    Multiple Clomid cycles of 50, 100, 150 - absolutely no response
    Follistim 50/100 | Follistim 75/125 | Follistim 100/150 IUI - all BFNs
    Converted IVF - BFP - m/c | FET - BFN | IVF #2 = BFN
    IVF #3
  • Congratulations, glad she is doing well.  I am sorry it is not the birth plan that you were hoping for.
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  • Congrats!! Sending you lots of thoughts and prayers!!
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  • Congratulations on your baby girl!! I am sorry it wasn't the birth you were hoping for, but glad to hear you are both doing well.
    Dx: Unexplained Infertility

    TTC #1 
    IUI's #1 - #3 Clomid = BFN's, IUI #4 Follistim = BFP
    Grayson arrived via emergency c-section on 7/28/12!

    TTC #2 
    IUI's #1 - #4 Follistim = BFN's
    IVF #1 w/ ICSI + PGS: Lupron/Follistim/Menopur
    ER 4/13 - 19R, 13F, 4 PGS tested embryos, 1 normal
    5/14 FET: BFP. Beta #1: 123, Beta #2: 327, Beta #3: 854
    Cora arrived 1/23/15 via RCS!
  • Congratulations, Mo!

    I am so glad to hear she is doing well!!! And will keep her in my thoughts as she continutes to thrive.

    I am sorry it wasnt what you had envisioned and that you are struggling...she is safe. 

    TTC #2 since June '08

    ~*DD 10.21.07*~

    dx unexplained

    IUI #1-4 BFN

    IVF#1 June 2011 BFN

    IVF#2 Dec 2011

    Beta#1 12/21 : 812 Beta#2 12/23 : 1634

    EDD 8/25

    *PAIFW/SAIFW*

  • Congratulations! T & P's to Lila for growth and a quick stay in NICU. Please don't be so hard on yourself!
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  • -popping over from August-

    Congratulations on your little girl! Lots of T&P for her! Have faith in modern medicine, they can work miracles now a days but it sounds like your little one is doing SO well compared to so many babies already!

    You did great mama! Don't think anything less!

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    I can understand the feelings you are having.  I went through the same thing having K & R at 30 weeks because of pre-e.  I too wanted an non medicated natural birth and had a c-section.    But do know that you did a real good job.  The fact that she is doing as well as she is is because of you.  It will take a little while so try to be good to yourself.  31 weeks is very good if the health of you and the babies were a concern.  My girls are thriving now and I am very happy the medical made the call when they did.So take it one day at a time.  

    Congratulations on Lila Elise!  What a beautiful name I am sure to match a beautiful little girl.

       

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  • Glad to hear about you little one ! Sounds like she is doing well despite her early appearance. Congrats mama!

    IVF #1 ET 1 d3 embryo 10/30/11 BFP
    3 Embryos frozen (1 d5, 2 d6)

    DS born 07/29/12

    FET #1 ET 1 d5 embryo 02/10/15 BFN

    FET #2 1 d6 embryo didn't survive thaw, transferred last d6. CP :(

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  • I'm sorry you didn't get the experience you had hoped for.  I am still a bit disappointed in myself and my body for failing me with ds as well. (and that was 4.5 years ago). 

    Congrats on your baby girl and I hope you are back home together real soon.

    ~after 34 cycles we finally got our 2nd little bundle of joy~
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  • Congrats on your baby girl!

    I'm sorry she didn't arrive like you pictured. I'm sure the NICU will take great care of her. I hope she is home in no time! 

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  • Congratulations!!! Glad to hear Lila is doing well and sending thoughts and prayers to both you and her.
    IUIs #1-3 (1x unmedicated, 2x Clomid) = 2 BFNs, 1 m/c at 7w3d
    IUIs #4-6 (injects) = 3 BFNs
    IVF #1 = BFN
    FET #1 = BFN
    FET #2 = BFN
    IVF #2 = BFP, b/g twins lost at 20w due to partial abruption/PPROM
    IVF #3 = c/p 5w2d
    Long-shot Clomid/Prednisone cycle before next IVF = BFP, our beautiful, healthy girl born 6/26/13!
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    FET #3 - May/June 2014
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    IVF #4 - July/August 2014 
    beta 1 (11dp3dt) 220, beta 2 (13dp3dt) 671, beta 3 (19dp3dt) 10762
  • Congratulations on the arrival of Lila!  Hope she will grow quickly and be out of NICU soon.
    TTC since 10/2008  RE consult 6/2010 Dx:Unexplaied IF

    Failed multiple cycles of Clomid+TI and Clomid+IUI

    3/2011 inj+IUI #1 BFP. 4/2011 missed m/c. 

    Fall 2011 inj+IUI #2&3 BFN

    Jan/Feb 2012 IVF#1 BFP 2/23  EDD 10/31/2012 ~~~ Halloween ~~~

    Our IVF miracle, Baby Boy M, arrived on 11/8/2012!
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    Oh honey. There is NOTHING you could have done differently! Preterm labor is a mysterious thing and due to not fault of your own. She is here and doing well and that's all that matters.  ((hugs))
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  • - stopping over from August -

    Congratulations!   Such a beautiful name.   I am sorry that it didn't work out how you planned, don't beat yourself up these things are out of our control!    Hugs!

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  • Congrats and sorry to hear you didn't have the birth experience you wanted but I hope your baby girl continues to progress in NICU.
    Me (33)& DX: DOR, FSH-20.3; DH(28):SA=normal 8/11 HSG= clear!
    IUI #1 10/12/11 (Bravelle + HCG + Prometrium & acupuncture) = 10/26 BFP! Beta #1=250, Beta #2= 615. 1st u/s 11/8. image Visit The Nest! Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • Congrats on your baby girl!  Wishing you lots of strength and good thoughts!
    ~ Me, 30 DH, 32 ~ TTC since Oct 2009 septum resection 3/2010 stage IV endo 8/2011 IVF #1 1/25/12, 2 transferred, 2 frozen - BFN FET 2/22/12, 2 transferred - BFN IVF#2 5/12, transferred 3, froze 5, BFP! Beta 1: 151, Beta 2: 282 Cerclage placed @ 17 weeks due to shortening cervix, modified bed rest until delivery SAIF/PAIF always welcome image It's a girl! ~ Clare was born 1/31/13
  • ((HUGE HUGS))

    I can only imagine how frustrated you're feeling right now. I'm so glad little Lila is safe and doing well in the NICU though.

    Just remember, you did everything in your power to keep her safe and you're STILL doing that because you've placed her in very capable hands. ((MORE HUGS))

    TTC 12/2009
    Me: 32 - Stage II Endo / DH: 36 - Low count and morphology (1%)
    IUIs 1-3 BFN, lap Dec. 2010, IUIs 4-6 BFN
    IVF w/ICSI #1 - ER 2/8: 24R 19M 9F ET 2/13 2-5 day blasts (no frosties) = BFP - b/g twins!
    E & C Born 10/19/2012
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  • Congrats on your baby girl!! I'm so sorry you had to go through a premature delivery, but many T&Ps for you and your little girl. 
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  • Congrats and many prayers for Lila's swift stay in the NICU!

    "I prayed for this child and the Lord has granted what I asked of him." ~1 Samuel 1:27
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  • Congratulations.  I love the name.  Wish everything had turned out the way you wanted.  But the important thin is that she is here.  And that you are both ok.   Sending hugs and kisses.
    Beautiful Miracle Baby lost at 21 weeks due to pre-term labor and incompetent cervix. FET#1 BFN, FET#2 BFP, early loss. FET#3 BFN. IVF#2 BFFN. FET #4 BFP after removing bilateral hydrosalpinx and 3 months of lupron depot. Sticky Bun is here!! Image and video hosting by TinyPic Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
  • congratulations!  i am glad she is doing well.

    please don't blame yourself. hopefully you can enjoy having a beautiful child in your arms. 

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  • Please dont beat yourself up. You did nothing to cause her early arrival. Im glad that she's doing well and I hope you get to bring her home very soon. Congrats Mo!
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  • I am so sorry you feel this way - I know exactly how you feel. But please don't be so hard on yourself. Congratulations!!!!! I love the name!
    TTC since 8/07 DX - Severe MFI/azoospermia & MTHFR/ TESEs found sperm - 7/08 & 6/09/ 12/08 - IVF#1 - BFN/ 6/09 - IVF #2 - cancelled due to OHSS risk (had retrieval)/ 7/09 - FET #1 - BFN/ 9/09 - FET #2 - BFN/ 11/09 - IVF #3 with new RE cancelled twice - 10/09 & 11/09/ 1/10 - IVF #3 take 3 - BFN/ 4/10 - IVF #4 - first ever BFP on 5/13/10!!! 108 @ 10dp3dt/ 2nd beta 311!/ sono on 5/28/10 said TWINS!!!! Lilypie Second Birthday tickers
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