Not quite sure whats going on...
gajumper
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My LO is 7 months old...for the first few weeks things were a mess but seemed to even out once I figured out a routine, got back to work, etc.
The last month or so I feel like I am fighting a loosing battle. My son is great and so easy, thank goodness...generally a very happy baby. Myself...I just feel like I cant get ahead no matter what...I feel overwhelmed, spastic, angry (oh so angry), like I can hardly keep my head above water. My husband seems to drive me batty the second he gets home...I feel like I am loosing control of myself and my life.
I will say that I have felt twinges of this for some time and actually thought it was my mirena making me act so nutso (along with other things)...so I had it removed a month ago...no help.
I have never gone thru anything like this before...I keep telling myself its just part of being a mom with a full time job, a farm, etc...that its just a part of life...but maybe its more than that?
I really dont know what to do...I guess I should really go see my OB but I feel so silly telling him I feel so overwhelmed.
Re: Not quite sure whats going on...
You sound alot like me. Sounds like PPA. I also blamed it on my Mirena, baby blues, going back to work and being stressed, etc. I finally worked thru on my own, but wish I had gone to a psych and gotten meds looking back... I finally got on Zoloft after my m/c last yr, and it was the best decision I ever made. If felt normal again. I realize now I was naive, but I had PPA, as I am prone to anxiety and stress. I too, took it out on DH. I am experiencing antepartum depression now, which is loads of fun
I am going to see a phsychiatrist who specializes in this, b/c I cant' let it get ahead of me this time. I am determined to beat it!! I would recommend seeing someone. The great thing is, you are aware of it, and want to change. That is the first step.
I will say, the one single thing that made my SO much better after DD was quitting breastfeeding. I felt like a new woman, bye bye crazy hormones once I quit. Not encouraging that, but it really worked for me.