I lost my Job over TTC (long)

TTCAE · June 2012

***Let me start by saying that I have been a frequent poster for the last 3 months. I created this AE because I think I might have a problem. I was posting this under my real SN but looking it over I think you would all look at me differently. Please tell me others do this same thing.***

I lost my job today. I am completely devastated and blindsided by this. My boss told me that he had to let me go due to my productivity being slim to none in the last 3 month, my internet usage at work and that my office mate complained about me. He continued to tell me that they were watching my computer and said that I was on thebump all day. One of the other girls at work said that my office mate complained about me storing containers of urine in my desk.

This has made me reflect on my possible obsession with TTC. Here are my daily TTC activities:

-wake up at 5:30am. Temp both vaginally and orally and document in FF. Each has its own chart and account

-FMU test with OPK, IC HPT and FRER. Every Saturday and Wednesday I test with a Digi. Save urine

-I pee about 7 times a day and will always test with an OPK and save my urine from each pee. I have several small containers that seal well to hold onto my pee.

-10:00pm I compare all my OPKs from the day and test the urine with the darkest line with a digital OPK.

I know that we have only been trying for 3 months but I want to make sure that we are doing the best TTC possible! Maybe I am a bit obsessive but I should not have lost my job over it!! <end vent>

BankerBSN · June 2012

TTCAE:

***Let me start by saying that I have been a frequent poster for the last 3 months. I created this AE because I think I might have a problem. I was posting this under my real SN but looking it over I think you would all look at me differently. Please tell me others do this same thing.***

I lost my job today. I am completely devastated and blindsided by this. My boss told me that he had to let me go due to my productivity being slim to none in the last 3 month, my internet usage at work and that my office mate complained about me. He continued to tell me that they were watching my computer and said that I was on thebump all day. One of the other girls at work said that my office mate complained about me storing containers of urine in my desk.

This has made me reflect on my possible obsession with TTC. Here are my daily TTC activities:

-wake up at 5:30am. Temp both vaginally and orally and document in FF. Each has its own chart and account

-FMU test with OPK, IC HPT and FRER. Every Saturday and Wednesday I test with a Digi. Save urine

-I pee about 7 times a day and will always test with an OPK and save my urine from each pee. I have several small containers that seal well to hold onto my pee.

-10:00pm I compare all my OPKs from the day and test the urine with the darkest line with a digital OPK.

I know that we have only been trying for 3 months but I want to make sure that we are doing the best TTC possible! Maybe I am a bit obsessive but I should not have lost my job over it!! <end vent>

NatalieHolmes · June 2012

I am at a loss for words................................

I hope at your next job you don't do any of that again. GL

scgirl89 · June 2012

Oh.....

Mysterious_wife · June 2012

Why would you bump on your work computer?

Beaglechon2012 · June 2012

TTCAE. I am sorry you lost your job. After reading your post, I believe you should seek help (and I mean this in a non-snarky way) if TTC is impacting your life this dramatically in such a negative way. Especially if it is the root cause for losing your job. Again, I am sorry, and I hope everything works out for you.

Foxlover · June 2012

Please step away from the urine! I think a agree with your boss. I hope you figure things out,OP. GL to you!

Shayliz · June 2012

You need a therapist, for real. 2 temping accounts, using OPKs, IC HPTs, and FRERs on a regular basis (OPKs with EVERY pee and you save it) - this is not healthy.

allthecoolkidsdoit · June 2012

The first step is admitting you have a problem, so congrats on that. The second step is to quit saving your piss. Good luck finding a new job, have you given any thought to what you will tell any future employers as to why you were let go from your most recent job? Can we say awkward?

wiggles527 · June 2012

Shayliz:
You need a therapist, for real. 2 temping accounts, using OPKs, IC HPTs, and FRERs on a regular basis (OPKs with EVERY pee and you save it) - this is not healthy.

Yes Seriously.

novelblessings · June 2012

Beaglechon2012:
TTCAE. I am sorry you lost your job. After reading your post, I believe you should seek help (and I mean this in a non-snarky way) if TTC is impacting your life this dramatically in such a negative way. Especially if it is the root cause for losing your job. Again, I am sorry, and I hope everything works out for you.

Agree. If you are so obsessed with TTC that you lost your job, you need to stop obsessing, stop saving your pee, and get some help. The extra obsessions aren't going to help you get pregnant any faster.

allthecoolkidsdoit · June 2012

Mysterious_wife:
Why would you bump on your work computer?

Some people don't have the luxury of staying at home all day, duh.

Kaetbeth · June 2012

I'm just wondering - what exactly is the point of saving your pee? I know I'm new to this whole TTC thing, but, really? Saving your pee?

steph620 · June 2012

Kaetbeth:
I'm just wondering - what exactly is the point of saving your pee? I know I'm new to this whole TTC thing, but, really? Saving your pee?

That's the exact thing I was thinking! I was surprised no one else asked that!

TTCAE · June 2012

allthecoolkidsdoit:
The first step is admitting you have a problem, so congrats on that. The second step is to quit saving your piss. Good luck finding a new job, have you given any thought to what you will tell any future employers as to why you were let go from your most recent job? Can we say awkward?

I do not plan on telling them about why I was let go. I am paranoid that I will miss my LH surge or a +hpt if I do not check and double check.

I always thought I might be going overboard but I get sick thinking about letting good pee go to waste and not testing it.

notkateanymore · June 2012

allthecoolkidsdoit:
Mysterious_wife:
Why would you bump on your work computer?
Some people don't have the luxury of staying at home all day, duh.

Yes, because that was what she was suggesting.

Sorry, but I don't believe this OP for one minute. Nobody is that stupid. Good try though.

TTCAE · June 2012

bbg676:

Shayliz:
You need a therapist, for real. 2 temping accounts, using OPKs, IC HPTs, and FRERs on a regular basis (OPKs with EVERY pee and you save it) - this is not healthy.

Don't forget - at the end of the night, she compares ALL of the OPKs from the day and retests the urine with the darkest line, using a digi.

OP - I think you might need to take a step back. It really does sound a bit compulsive, with all your urine storing. This isn't normal. I also recommend a therapist. And I'm not trying to be snarky - I just worry that if you're THIS obsessively compulsive about TRYING to get pregnant... what is going to happen when you are actually pregnant.

It actually makes me feel good to dip things into my pee. I get some kind of rush out of it-it is hard to explain. I have had to sometimes stop myself from tasting it (I am so embarassed that I am admitting this).I know that this is not normal. I do not know what to do. I feel like I can't stop. I am not obsessive about other things in my life.

Would any therapist help? I do not want to stop TTC and I am afraid that they might want me to not have a baby right now.

notkateanymore · June 2012

ChancieMark:
TTCAE:
allthecoolkidsdoit:
The first step is admitting you have a problem, so congrats on that. The second step is to quit saving your piss. Good luck finding a new job, have you given any thought to what you will tell any future employers as to why you were let go from your most recent job? Can we say awkward?

I do not plan on telling them about why I was let go. I am paranoid that I will miss my LH surge or a +hpt if I do not check and double check.

I always thought I might be going overboard but I get sick thinking about letting good pee go to waste and not testing it.
Ok, this has got to be fake...right??

Totally. 100% fake.

cassandrae913 · June 2012

This is the best MUD I have read in a long time.

badrianne · June 2012

Nevermind grrrrrrrrrrrrr

notkateanymore · June 2012

TTCAE:
bbg676:

Shayliz:
You need a therapist, for real. 2 temping accounts, using OPKs, IC HPTs, and FRERs on a regular basis (OPKs with EVERY pee and you save it) - this is not healthy.

Don't forget - at the end of the night, she compares ALL of the OPKs from the day and retests the urine with the darkest line, using a digi.

OP - I think you might need to take a step back. It really does sound a bit compulsive, with all your urine storing. This isn't normal. I also recommend a therapist. And I'm not trying to be snarky - I just worry that if you're THIS obsessively compulsive about TRYING to get pregnant... what is going to happen when you are actually pregnant.

It actually makes me feel good to dip things into my pee. I get some kind of rush out of it-it is hard to explain. I have had to sometimes stop myself from tasting it (I am so embarassed that I am admitting this).I know that this is not normal. I do not know what to do. I feel like I can't stop. I am not obsessive about other things in my life.

Would any therapist help? I do not want to stop TTC and I am afraid that they might want me to not have a baby right now.

And there is where a good AE goes bad. You just couldn't help yourself...you should have stopped, but now you are not believable at all.

Kaetbeth · June 2012

TTCAE:
bbg676:

Shayliz:
You need a therapist, for real. 2 temping accounts, using OPKs, IC HPTs, and FRERs on a regular basis (OPKs with EVERY pee and you save it) - this is not healthy.

Don't forget - at the end of the night, she compares ALL of the OPKs from the day and retests the urine with the darkest line, using a digi.

OP - I think you might need to take a step back. It really does sound a bit compulsive, with all your urine storing. This isn't normal. I also recommend a therapist. And I'm not trying to be snarky - I just worry that if you're THIS obsessively compulsive about TRYING to get pregnant... what is going to happen when you are actually pregnant.

It actually makes me feel good to dip things into my pee. I get some kind of rush out of it-it is hard to explain. I have had to sometimes stop myself from tasting it (I am so embarassed that I am admitting this).I know that this is not normal. I do not know what to do. I feel like I can't stop. I am not obsessive about other things in my life.

Would any therapist help? I do not want to stop TTC and I am afraid that they might want me to not have a baby right now.

Wait...did you just say you sometimes want to taste your pee? I'm hoping you meant "test".

MoonBeamLove · June 2012

This had credibility until she mentioned tasting it.

At that exact moment we all went "nope; sucky AE trying to bring on the MUD".

TTCAE · June 2012

KateMW:
ChancieMark:
TTCAE:

allthecoolkidsdoit:
The first step is admitting you have a problem, so congrats on that. The second step is to quit saving your piss. Good luck finding a new job, have you given any thought to what you will tell any future employers as to why you were let go from your most recent job? Can we say awkward?

I do not plan on telling them about why I was let go. I am paranoid that I will miss my LH surge or a +hpt if I do not check and double check.

I always thought I might be going overboard but I get sick thinking about letting good pee go to waste and not testing it.

Ok, this has got to be fake...right??

Totally. 100% fake.

Trust me-I wish this was fake.

notkateanymore · June 2012

Kaetbeth:
TTCAE:
bbg676:

Shayliz:
You need a therapist, for real. 2 temping accounts, using OPKs, IC HPTs, and FRERs on a regular basis (OPKs with EVERY pee and you save it) - this is not healthy.

Don't forget - at the end of the night, she compares ALL of the OPKs from the day and retests the urine with the darkest line, using a digi.

OP - I think you might need to take a step back. It really does sound a bit compulsive, with all your urine storing. This isn't normal. I also recommend a therapist. And I'm not trying to be snarky - I just worry that if you're THIS obsessively compulsive about TRYING to get pregnant... what is going to happen when you are actually pregnant.

It actually makes me feel good to dip things into my pee. I get some kind of rush out of it-it is hard to explain. I have had to sometimes stop myself from tasting it (I am so embarassed that I am admitting this).I know that this is not normal. I do not know what to do. I feel like I can't stop. I am not obsessive about other things in my life.

Would any therapist help? I do not want to stop TTC and I am afraid that they might want me to not have a baby right now.

Wait...did you just say you sometimes want to taste your pee? I'm hoping you meant "test".

Nope, she's working hard for her AE Dollar...she said taste. That was the moment we all knew...

tinamorgan · June 2012

You almost had me convinced that you were actually real. And then you mentioned the tasting of the urine. Ewwww.... ::shivers:: that sh!t is just plain nasty!!!

Shayliz · June 2012

What does fertile urine taste like?

TTCAE · June 2012

tinamorgan:

You almost had me convinced that you were actually real. And then you mentioned the tasting of the urine. Ewwww.... ::shivers:: that sh!t is just plain nasty!!!

I have NEVER tasted it. I just have an urge to try it. I truly am embarrassed by these urges and it is clear that I might need some help. This does not seem normal.

Beaglechon2012 · June 2012

tinamorgan:
You almost had me convinced that you were actually real. And then you mentioned the tasting of the urine. Ewwww.... ::shivers:: that sh!t is just plain nasty!!!

Yep. You took it too far.

Beaglechon2012 · June 2012

TTCAE:
tinamorgan:

You almost had me convinced that you were actually real. And then you mentioned the tasting of the urine. Ewwww.... ::shivers:: that sh!t is just plain nasty!!!

I have NEVER tasted it. I just have an urge to try it. I truly am embarrassed by these urges and it is clear that I might need some help. This does not seem normal.

Then why are you talking to us instead of a therapist? Seriously, if this is not MUD...we cannot help you.

notkateanymore · June 2012

Shayliz:
What does fertile urine taste like?

Spicy...like curry.

Svenny1011 · June 2012

Obviously, this is MUD. If anyone thought otherwise, then I feel sorry for you. If someone is keeping jars of pee pee at their desks, imagine what their house is like. TLC's Hoarders show wouldn't even know what to do with that. It is like the character from "In Living Color", the homeless guy that carries around a jar of his pee with a log of poop in it (although it really was a pickle jar with juice and a pickle). Either way, nasty and totally not real.

Shayliz · June 2012

Svenny1011:
Obviously, this is MUD. If anyone thought otherwise, then I feel sorry for you. If someone is keeping jars of pee pee at their desks, imagine what their house is like. TLC's Hoarders show wouldn't even know what to do with that. It is like the character from "In Living Color", the homeless guy that carries around a jar of his pee with a log of poop in it (although it really was a pickle jar with juice and a pickle). Either way, nasty and totally not real.

Hoarders finds human waste all the time - in bags, jugs, tupperware, etc. I don't think the storing her pee part makes it "obviously" MUD, it's the tasting that takes it there.

AliciaS1411 · June 2012

TTCAE:
allthecoolkidsdoit:
The first step is admitting you have a problem, so congrats on that. The second step is to quit saving your piss. Good luck finding a new job, have you given any thought to what you will tell any future employers as to why you were let go from your most recent job? Can we say awkward?

I do not plan on telling them about why I was let go. I am paranoid that I will miss my LH surge or a +hpt if I do not check and double check.

I always thought I might be going overboard but I get sick thinking about letting good pee go to waste and not testing it.

*dead*

TTCAE · June 2012

Svenny1011:
Obviously, this is MUD. If anyone thought otherwise, then I feel sorry for you. If someone is keeping jars of pee pee at their desks, imagine what their house is like. TLC's Hoarders show wouldn't even know what to do with that. It is like the character from "In Living Color", the homeless guy that carries around a jar of his pee with a log of poop in it (although it really was a pickle jar with juice and a pickle). Either way, nasty and totally not real.

I only keep the pee for one day until I know what pee to use the digi on. I then dump them all out, clean the container, and get them prepped for the next day.

KNemo · June 2012

Kaetbeth:
TTCAE:
bbg676:

Shayliz:
You need a therapist, for real. 2 temping accounts, using OPKs, IC HPTs, and FRERs on a regular basis (OPKs with EVERY pee and you save it) - this is not healthy.

Don't forget - at the end of the night, she compares ALL of the OPKs from the day and retests the urine with the darkest line, using a digi.

OP - I think you might need to take a step back. It really does sound a bit compulsive, with all your urine storing. This isn't normal. I also recommend a therapist. And I'm not trying to be snarky - I just worry that if you're THIS obsessively compulsive about TRYING to get pregnant... what is going to happen when you are actually pregnant.

It actually makes me feel good to dip things into my pee. I get some kind of rush out of it-it is hard to explain. I have had to sometimes stop myself from tasting it (I am so embarassed that I am admitting this).I know that this is not normal. I do not know what to do. I feel like I can't stop. I am not obsessive about other things in my life.

Would any therapist help? I do not want to stop TTC and I am afraid that they might want me to not have a baby right now.

Wait...did you just say you sometimes want to taste your pee? I'm hoping you meant "test".

OMG! She did say tasting it. Gah!

BankerBSN · June 2012

Shayliz:
What does fertile urine taste like?

Forget the Pee! What does fertile CM taste like?

Svenny1011 · June 2012

Shayliz:
Svenny1011:
Obviously, this is MUD. If anyone thought otherwise, then I feel sorry for you. If someone is keeping jars of pee pee at their desks, imagine what their house is like. TLC's Hoarders show wouldn't even know what to do with that. It is like the character from "In Living Color", the homeless guy that carries around a jar of his pee with a log of poop in it (although it really was a pickle jar with juice and a pickle). Either way, nasty and totally not real.
Hoarders finds human waste all the time - in bags, jugs, tupperware, etc. I don't think the storing her pee part makes it "obviously" MUD, it's the tasting that takes it there.

True, that is very true. So I guess she'd fit in well on the show. Par for the course. Still, totally nastarino.

KNemo · June 2012

TTCAE:
Svenny1011:
Obviously, this is MUD. If anyone thought otherwise, then I feel sorry for you. If someone is keeping jars of pee pee at their desks, imagine what their house is like. TLC's Hoarders show wouldn't even know what to do with that. It is like the character from "In Living Color", the homeless guy that carries around a jar of his pee with a log of poop in it (although it really was a pickle jar with juice and a pickle). Either way, nasty and totally not real.

I only keep the pee for one day until I know what pee to use the digi on. I then dump them all out, clean the container, and get them prepped for the next day.

So in essence, you are just preparing yourself for when you have to clean bottles daily.

KNemo · June 2012

Banker&BSN:
Shayliz:
What does fertile urine taste like?

Forget the Pee! What does fertile CM taste like?

Sweet. Non-fert CM is salty and neon pink!

BankerBSN · June 2012

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