Let me start out by saying. I have always been a very distant and emotionless person. When I gave birth to my baby I felt nothing for him, no love, no anger just oh there he is. I love my little man very much and I'm very patient with him I NEVER snap or cry or become overwhelmed. There is nothing he can do to upset me. Sometimes though, I find myself tired of him. I wish he would go away for a while...if that makes any sense.
I know myself, I know I don't love easily...Im embarrassed to say, I don't even think I love my husband yet. He could leave me and I wouldn't bat an eyelash. I know I'm emotionally void. So with all this said, should I talk to a doctor about depression? I don't even know if this qualifies as depression, but I do love my son and I want to be a good mother to him...I'm just afraid he will be like me.
Also I'de like to know if anyone else finds themselves in a similar situation. Thanks in advance.