Left over Mother's Day junk or normal Monday crap... let it all out
The girl that sits near me is back fresh from maternity leave. She just happens to not have computer'/network access, so she has NOTHING to do but talk about her baby and show off pictures.
Re: Monday Biotchfest
Dealing with MFI, good count, good motility, 3% morph-HSG all clear, all other test results came back normal, IUI is our next step
May 2012- Clomid 50mg + IUI = BFN
June- Cycle Break
July- Forced cycle break due to cysts
August- Femara, Trigger, IUI#2= ?
I POAS Thurs (14dpt) and got a BFN. Had to go in this morning for beta (RE policy) and I told the girl taking my blood that I was pretty sure it would be negative due to my previous tests at home. Her response? "They could be false negatives!"
Thanks. Thanks a lot. Now I am staring at my cell phone waiting for the news. I had already told myself I was out and was ready for the next cycle, (and I felt okay about it), but she totally mind-f*cked me and now I think the news will be hard to hear. Plus its making the minutes tick by VERY slowly. Ugh!
ETA: BP--your biotchfest turned me bronze!
I hate my left ovary. It never dominated before the ectopic. It's like it senses the tube is missing and is like oh hey guys, let's get our shiit together now and respond every single time.
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Sweet!
Ugh - I hate the mind-eff of any sort. I gotta love people for trying to cheer you up and help you be optimistic, but sometimes they just need to STFU
Shay - I'm sorry your left ovary is being an a-hole
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7DPO Progesterone: low. CD3 BW: normal, HSG: clear
DX: severe MFI (low all 3) and low T. Undergoing replacement therapy.
I HATEEEEEE the time between state tests and the end of the year. What a waste!! I am from NY and it is much better there as the Regents exams are given at the end of June.
Can you have them do a long activity? Like they can create a review board game or powerpoint or something that will take awhile?
When is her episode of Bridezillas?
wait,the last post i read was you asking what to do about sizing. what happened in between??
Seriously. And why is she making people buy dresses a year in advance anyway? I never responded to that thread, but I think the whole thing is ridiculous, and I'm telling you that now.
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7DPO Progesterone: low. CD3 BW: normal, HSG: clear
DX: severe MFI (low all 3) and low T. Undergoing replacement therapy.
Since the wedding is a year away, I'd say wait about a year and a half and you'll see her on there. I was proud of myself for not ripping her a new one though. I usually cuss like a sailor but didn't this time. She's lucky.
AF like symptoms since Friday evening. Horrible on Saturday. Still a no show. I just want her to show her face so I can start this new cycle for IUI#1. And I have tested per DH's request "because you never know" if you ask him, and just whiteness stared back at me.
Why does this cycle by body have to have the longest LP I have had in almost 2 years of trying?!?
I told her that I talked to the dress place and they were going to give me the last possible date. She said that was me going behind her back as if what she was telling me wasn't the last possible date. I told her it wasn't something worth fighting over and that I would just order, no big deal. She called and went off on me, yelling, cussing, calling me names. "I'm sorry you're having problems getting pregnant but..." Not cool, even after I told her I would order. She's very immature and will only text me about it now. I told her I prefer working this out by phone because things can be misunderstood in text. She said she doesn't want to call me just so I can blame everything on her. This isn't even half of what was said...I feel sorry for my BIL.
I know it's family and that makes things tricky, but I think you'd be dodging a serious bullet and giving yourself the gift of sanity by declining to be in that wedding.
Does she honestly think you guys are dumb enough to think it takes a year to make a dress? Run. Far, far away.
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7DPO Progesterone: low. CD3 BW: normal, HSG: clear
DX: severe MFI (low all 3) and low T. Undergoing replacement therapy.
She seriously needs to chillax. I think we ordered dresses in May for my October wedding, but that was because the dresses went Special Value/Clearance at David's Bridal. It must be a ploy to get you to order though, because they STILL carry the damn dress.
That's the decision I've come to as well. My husband stands completely behind me (he's always hated her and isn't surprised this has happened). I think there's no going back on a lot of the things that she has said. I can see things getting worse as her wedding date gets closer.
I think FF is wrong or that those crosshairs will dissapear. Sorry it's so frustrating.
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TX: IUI #1-4 = BFN + 1 c/p
IUI #5: Clomid 100mg + Bravelle + Trigger + B2B IUIs + 800mg Progesterone = BFP!
Beta #1 (14dpiui): 460 Beta #2 (16dpiui): 998 Beta #3 (23dpiui): 21,832 Beta #4 (29dpiui): 129,771
Mother's Day. Enough said, right?
I actually came into it with a pretty good attitude. We spent it with DH's family which includes my sweet little nephew and my SIL who thinks you just need to bone every other day to get knocked up. *eye roll* It was all going as good as it could be until we went to bring out the cake we got for DH's mom. I brought it out with him and his brother and they were singing some Mother's Day song (apparently from Full House?) and clapping and SIL starts yelling "Wait, wait! Jen should NOT be bringing the cake out, she's a mom too!! Sing to her too!!"
1. We were only singing and bringing it out to my MIL. Not all the mothers in the room. I don't know why she felt like she had to include me.
2. She KNOWS about how long we've been trying and a bit about the struggle it's been. Enough where I feel like she should know better then to put me in a situation where it's super awkward and I feel like I have to say that I'm not actually a mom.
3. She's sitting there with her beautiful baby boy and is trying to say that I'm a mom because our puggle was there. I'm sorry, I love our dog but I don't feel like she makes me a mom in anyway on Mother's Day.
Ahh I seriously needed this today!!
MH won't talk to me about our upcoming IUI at all... and every time I bring something up about it he gets mad (I asked him last night if he would ease up on his pot intake this week - not stop, just not smoke as much - it's a medically necessary thing for him but he doesn't need to smoke as much as he does). He got really mad at me and said he never told me he would cut back.... and has just been in a bad mood since. Today is the last day he should have a "release" I think (in case our IUI is Thursday - I'm getting checked Wed) but honestly I'm too nervous to say something to him about it. I guess I just have to trust that he knows and will do what he needs to do (or not do, such as the case may be). I'll admit I probably didn't approach the pot thing well but I'm tired of having to walk on egg shells around him about this whole process - as if it's not hard enough for me and I can't even talk to the most important person in my life about it!
On top of that, I went to visit my brother and SIL yesterday to see my nephew. SIL is KU now after IVF (she had 4 IUIs before she got KU with my nephew, 3 IUIs this time and got KU on 1st IVF) and she's about 15 weeks I think? Anyway, they found out they are having a boy and I asked her how she felt about another boy. She was like, "oh fine, but now we're just going to start fighting about names and about the baby's room and I still feel sick..." Her negativity about everything just drives me crazy... how many people would be happy to be in her shoes? Me, for one! And she is very aware of my m/c and our upcoming IUI so it just annoys me that she can't be more positive about it.
::vent over::
Wow she is cray cray! Kudos to you for not losing your crap. I would be tempted to tell her to find herself another BM
How did you end up with dark brown trying to do strawberry blonde? I wouldn't have left the salon!
Me too! Or I would have complained until I got a refund.
Kristy- good for you for deciding not to be in the wedding! She sounds like a piece of work, and I'm sure there would've been drama with the bridal shower, bachelorette party, etc.
My biotch is semi Mother's Day related. My little sister had several seizures friday night and ended up in the hospital all weekend. She is feeling better now, but it was very scary for the whole family. In the ER Saturday morning, she was asking for pain meds because she was having muscle spasms in her back (related to the seizures). The nurse came in and said she had to wait for the pregnancy test results before giving her any IV pain meds. My mom's response, "Oh, wouldn't that be the best Mother's Day gift for me!!" Really, Mom, REALLY?? My sister doesn't want children for many years, and my mom knows everything about our struggles. My sister immediately looked at me and grimaced because at least she understood how that comment would make me feel. I just put my head down and kept quiet, then had a good cry when I got home & DH was at work. Did I mention that AF showed minutes before I left to head over to the hospital? As DH would say, "that was the pickle on the crap sandwich that was my day"
First RE appt 10/11
Me- 29; DX- Stage II Endo & hydrosalpinx
DH- 34 w/ "borderline morph"
12/2011, 1/2012, & 3/2012- tamoxifen+TI= BFNs
Lap- 4/11/12- removed ovarian cyst, adhesions, and repaired twisted tube
IVF#1- BFN
IVF#2- ER 10/14; Transferred 3 beautiful 8cells on 10/17; BFP! 10/29 beta#1- 152, beta#2- 378, beta#3- 755
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Kristy - I agree with all of the other PP's. Your future SIL is a crazy bitc* - time to get out of that wedding!
My bitc* and moan today is nothing to out of the ordinary. I'm tired. I feel blah.... I don't want to work and I slept for shi* last night.....
I need a vacation in the worst way
"I won't give up on us, even if the skies get rough, I'm giving you all my love, I"m still looking up."
TTC #1 since August 2011 MFI Diagnosis - April 2012
IVF #1 - July 2012 - Stims start 7/2, ER 7/12, 20 retrieved, 16 mature, 13 fertilized!
ET - 7/17 - 1 blast transferred. Beta - 7/26 273, Beta 2 7/30 - 1143. Beta 3 8/6 - 11,597
12/25 - Santa tells us "IT'S A GIRL!" EDD - April 4th
Our Little Easter Bunny has arrived!
Molly Mildred born 03/31/13
TTC A Sibling....... FET #1 11/14/14, Transferred one beautiful blast
Remaining four frosties arrested due to "embryologist error"
Plllllleasssee stick little icicle.....Beta 11/23...BFN
Starting ALL over with a fresh IVF cycle
Stims start 11/28/14, ER December 10th, 13 eggs retrieved, 11 mature, only 4 fertilized
1 Blast Transferred on December 15th..... Beta Christmas Eve... Please Santa, bring me a baby!
Beta #1 345.....Beta #2....750/ First U/S 1/13/15/HB 131....EDD 9/2/2015
I can't believe your mom said that while your poor sister was in pain and knowing what you're going through. Yikes. Major fail on her part. I'm so sorry.
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didn't have anything but now i do!
Freaking AF has showed up 1 week early (thx irregular cycles). I called my RN who can't even write me the script for my meds until they get the all clear from this dumb breast biopsy I had on Friday.
I called dr's office who was sent the results, and they have them, but won't release the results to me over the phone. So now i have to shuffle stuff around and change my appointment from tomorrow to 4:15 today to get the results.
Them not telling me the results over the phone makes me nervous. My BFF says, maybe its good news and they want to get you in so you can start your IUI cycle without any further delays. I'm totally glass half empty and think they want to let me know i can't start fertility treatment.
In my head i was ready to do this tomorrow with my DH going with me, but now i have to go by myself cuz DH can't get out early today.
4/12: HSG All Clear
5-1-12: DX of PCOS
5-4-12: DH S/A all normal.
5-16-12: Offically start IUI#1-->Clomid(50mg) + Trigger + IUI + progesterone supplements=BFN
IUI #2-same treatment-->BFN
July IUI#3-same treatment--->BFN
Aug 22, 2012-Laparoscopy Found/Removed extensive endometreosis.
September 2012-IUI #4-Same treatment as before. BFN
October 2012-forced break/Surgery to remove abnormal cells in left breast.
November 2012-First Injects Cycle (IUI #5)! 225IU Follistim CD 3-5, then monitoring appointment. 20+ follier & e2 >2000-Mild OHSS
December 2012-#2 Injects + IUI#6): Beta 1/18/13-BFN!
Jan 2013-Starting IVF!!! BC starts Jan 17/Lupron on Feb 13/Stims on Feb 18/ER on March 1 IVF Protocol: Lupron 10 units in am until stimms. Then 5 units of Lurpon in am, 150iu of Follistim and 1 unit of Menopur in pm. Holding dosage throughtout since response has been great. Thought we would be freeze all due to OHSS, but ended up getting more follicles then expected! 14 total!!! 12 mature and 11 fertilized. Dr calls for a 5 day transfer!!
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WHEN, not IF!!!
TTC since 9/10 consult 1/12 All testing came back fine Diagnosed with Unexplained infertility -3 medicated IUI's All BFN IVF - ER 11/14 24R, 15M, 13F ET 11/19, BETA 11/28 BFFN --Next step FET in Jan ET scheduled for 1/24. Beta #1 350 Beta #2 735. U/S Hell. miscarriage D&C at 9weeks. FET #2 ET 5/28 cancelled FET# 2.5 6/26 ET Beta 7/5 302 7/7 Beta #2 632 Everyone welcome
She said that since my natural color is lighter than the color it was previously, the dark brown was the closest she could get. Unfortunately, we had a wedding to go to that night so I couldn't stick around long enough for her to change it. I want to call and complain, but honestly I don't even have the energy right now.
TX: IUI #1-4 = BFN + 1 c/p
IUI #5: Clomid 100mg + Bravelle + Trigger + B2B IUIs + 800mg Progesterone = BFP!
Beta #1 (14dpiui): 460 Beta #2 (16dpiui): 998 Beta #3 (23dpiui): 21,832 Beta #4 (29dpiui): 129,771
The end of my 2ww is near and it's really starting to get to me. DH said that he is expecting for it to not have worked, and I'm starting to think the same way. I am 12dpIUI and nothing is telling me either way if it worked or not. I know there is still hope, ive just got to wait it out a little more.
I've also got a wine tasting at work today(I'm a server) and I can't have any. I decided to go booze free for medicated cycles, so no free wine for me
I am just ready for the next few days to be over with already! I just want to know!
June- Femara 7.5mg + Trigger + IUI = BFN August- Lap & Hysteroscopy = Blocked & Partially Blocked Tubes
September- Femara 5mg = CX - No Response on Left = BFN October- 100mg Clomid + Trigger + TI = BFN
IVF # 1: Stims 11/30 ER 12/12/12! (10R, 10M, 8F, 2T, 6 F) :: Beta #1- 176 c/p @ 4w4d
FET #1 February 26th :: Lost 4 to Thaw, Transferred 2 = BFFN
IVF # 2 Stims 5/10 ER 5/21 (15R, 13M, 13F, 2T, 7F- 6d3 & 1d5) :: Beta # 1- 15 c/p @ 4w
FET #2.2 Scheduled for September 20th
2 Thawed, 2 Transferred! Beta #1- 96, Beta #2 906! :: EDD June 10th
2015- 2 failed FET. We are done
SURPRISE! BFP 8/8/16 EDD 4/1/17
LOL!
Me: 29, Mild DOR
DH: 31, SE mostly normal, 1st SE morph 5%, 2nd SE morph 15%...yeah!.
BFP July 2011, Natural MC August 2011.
3 cycles of 50mg Clomid = BFN
*New RE* Feb/Mar 2012 100 mg Clomid + Trigger + IUI = BFN
*3rd RE* April-June -Break Cycles begin prep for IVF by doing 2 Heparin injects daily....fun fun!
IVF #1 - ER 7/19, ET 7/24, 2 beautiful embies transferred. Beta 8/2 = BFN
*New RE...yes again* FET Nov 2012 with our lone ranger = BFFN
RE Suggests Trying IUI Again, Jan. 2013 IUI #2 =BFN
Feb. 2013 IUI #3 = BFP!!!, Beta #1 (15dpIUI) = 90, Beta #2 (17dpIUI) = 210, U/S Scheduled for 3/18
Oh sweetie that is strange that they want you to come into the office. I hope it's not bad news. Keeping my fingers crossed for you. ((hugs))
Me: 29, Mild DOR
DH: 31, SE mostly normal, 1st SE morph 5%, 2nd SE morph 15%...yeah!.
BFP July 2011, Natural MC August 2011.
3 cycles of 50mg Clomid = BFN
*New RE* Feb/Mar 2012 100 mg Clomid + Trigger + IUI = BFN
*3rd RE* April-June -Break Cycles begin prep for IVF by doing 2 Heparin injects daily....fun fun!
IVF #1 - ER 7/19, ET 7/24, 2 beautiful embies transferred. Beta 8/2 = BFN
*New RE...yes again* FET Nov 2012 with our lone ranger = BFFN
RE Suggests Trying IUI Again, Jan. 2013 IUI #2 =BFN
Feb. 2013 IUI #3 = BFP!!!, Beta #1 (15dpIUI) = 90, Beta #2 (17dpIUI) = 210, U/S Scheduled for 3/18
I was more stunned than pissed, but I went to a client's house yesterday and as soon as I walked into her door her daughter( she lives with her daughter) says " Yay last mother's Day that you're not a mother!" what do you even say to that?
And I am sick of my SIL posting things on facebook about how rewarding it is to be a mother and it's the best gift/ job in the world. It's like we get it you are a mom and you love it. Stop rubbing it in the faces of the women who can't have children right now.
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Trying for a baby since 4/10
DX: Infertile 6/11 Me: LPD, all other blood work clear.
DH: low sperm motility,low count.
Met with RE start clomid + TI + IUI 5/12= IUI cancelled due to positive Cystic Fibrosis carrier test. DH tested Neg. for Cystic Fibrosis,
6/12 Clomid + TI +IUI=BFN 8/10 IVF consult.
IVF #1 Started BCP 9/2 Lupron 10/11 stims 10/27 ER 11/6!! 5 eggs retreived only 1 mature. FERT report shows none made it.Cancelled cycle.
IVF #2 BCP 11/18 Lupron 12/14
Stims start 12/29 ER 1/8 ET 1/11 put in 1 grade B and 1 grade C. Beta: 1/20 = BFN
IVF# 3 7/13 BFP ended in chemical pregnancy
9/15 diagnosed with PCOS and insulin resistance gearing up for IVF# 4 Dec/ Jan
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Don't stress too much about the results. I've had several biopsies and they'll never give the results over the phone even if they're good. Mine weren't breast biopsies but I would think the protocol is similar. Try to stay positive!
TTC#1 since 5/2011
DX: Hypothyroidism, PCOS, Myasthenia Gravis, Aplastic Anemia, one copy MTHFR DH SA: count 52% motility (slow progressive), 0% normal morph
June-July 2012: Clomid cycles=BFNs
August 2012: New RE, started Metformin, Letrozole 7.5mg+TI=BFN Sept. 2012: IUI#1: Letrozole 7.5mg=BFN
Oct. 2012: IUI#2 Letrozole 7.5mg+Dexamethasone=BFN
Nov '12-March '13 on a break
April 2013: IUI#3 Letrozole 7.5mg+Dexamethasone=BFN
June 2013: IVF#1 Follistim/Menopur/Ganirelix =BFN, 3 Frosties
August 2013: FET#1=BFP 8/20/13, EDD 4/30/13, MMC 10/1/13
December 2013: IVF#2 Follistim/Menopur/Ganirelix=?
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Here goes....
I worked nights all weekend! I'm out of the IF closet, I don't broadcast but if someone has the guts enough to ask me about children I don't hold back. So one of my coworkers looks at me on Saturday night and says "are you gonna be ok tomorrow, I bet it's really going to bother you." I didn't even know how to respond to her so I just walked away saying nothing at all. Seriously, does she have any brains... this woman knows how difficult things are for me right now and has a two year old that she bitches about.. all.the.time!
To top that off, I switch to do 3 day shifts this week with a one day turnaround. Got off work at 5 am, and have to be to work first thing tomorrow morning. Fantastic!
Hope everyone's day/week only gets better from here.