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uuggghhh does it ever get easier??! (vent)

Boyl7904Boyl7904
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This is my first pregnancy, at first I was very excited!! But the good feelings are starting to wear off as I am having a difficult time getting my blood glucose (BG) in check. My endo is very happy with where my numbers are at, my last A1c (done monthly) was 6% a little higher than I normally run, but my endo would rather have my BG a little high than too low... I am having such a difficult time with this pregnancy!! I have not enjoyed it ONE BIT!! I have been too nervous that something is going to go seriously wrong, and I already feel like a terrible mother because my little bambino is already not getting a fair shot, no matter how hard I try. I have been absolutely miserable, it is all I can think about, bed rest, high BG, low BG, big baby, baby with type 1 diabetes, c-section, low amniotic fluid... blah blah blah. I know it would be best if I took this "one day at a time" but unfortunately that is easier said than done (for me at least). I am worried that the combination of the Type 1 diabetes and the stress (from me) is going to be too much for little Bambino.

At any point during your pregnancy... did it get better?? I just wish there was a definitive time that I was "out of the woods" per say and I could just sit back and enjoy this, but I highly doubt I will be doing this again. Sad

Any advice would be greatly appreciated!! Wishing everyone a H&H 9 months!

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    FridleyMom12FridleyMom12
    I wish I could say it has gotten better for me but I'm 22 weeks now and I still panic all the time - especially when I get a number that's out of my range.  We've had our anatomy scan and everything looked great with both of our twin boys, but I still panic all the time - am I only feeling one twin kick, where is the other twin, how are my babies doing, will this food fit into my diet, should I call my diabetes specialist... and on and on.  We have our echocardiogram coming up soon and my doctors have all said they don't expect to find anything but they still do one just in case.  I think after that I will feel a little better - at least I will know my diabetes didn't cause any birth defects.  And from then on I will just panic about my blood sugars being perfect, pre-term labor, and pre-eclampsia lol.  I know it's hard to go one day at a time but that's literally what you have to wrap your mind around.  I have my good days and my bad days.... I also think once I can tell which twin is kicking me and they are consistent enough to do kick counts that will ease my mind a bit.  Good luck!  And I know the feeling - I'm not sure I could do this again!
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    smacbsmacb
    I haven't enjoyed this pregnancy.  I've had too many issues, too many scares and too many fears.
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    Boyl7904Boyl7904

    Bleh... I wish I could get out of this "funk" I would LOVE to love being pregnant, but my little bambino is going to be an ONLY bambino... Thank you for making me feel not so alone. I just wish October was here already. :/

     

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