1. We went shopping last night and I bought 5 new pairs of shoes. 3 flops, 1 pair of croc knock-offs for me to try as "yard shoes" and some awesome new Nikes that are perfect to wear with shorts when we go to Disney.
2. I have absolutely no desire to work today. I hit snooze for an hour before I drug myself out of bed.
3. We have our new pool all ready but the darn weather hasn't warmed up enough yet to get the temp of the water to something that doesn't freeze you to death when you're in it. Supposed to be warm all week but now it says rain over the weekend. UGH!!
4. We watched 6 degrees of separation last night. Odd movie. Always love Stockard Channing though!
5. Should find out today if a new contract that will keep me working through the summer will go through. Here's hoping!
6. The team I am working with on this current contract is all men. We are supposed to go to a luncheon Thursday to celebrate our successful upgrade. I really like all the guys. They're cool. I just feel weird being the only girl in the group and going out with them all.
7. My son is the best kid ever. If he decides to go into the military after high school, I might die of heartbreak.
8. I ordered some new summer shirts from a place in the UK and they will hopefully be here by Friday. So excited! They are super-pretty!!
9. I wake up feeling lucky every day to have Sandy.
10. I've run out of steam...I don't have a number 10.....
1. Our donor was out of town over the weekend, which was when we should have inseminated - so we're out this month. Heartbreaking.
2. I got my ticket to the PostSecret event at Cleveland State University yesterday!
3. The even is tomorrow night and I'm SO, SO excited about it!
4. J's direct manager is leaving her company on disability soon (either that or he's taking a step down from management). She's been passed over for this promotion before, so we're not expecting anything but we're hopeful. She definitely deserves it.
5. We're going grocery shopping today. For some odd reason, I love grocery shopping but normally I do it alone. J is coming with me today and when it's the two of us, it turns into a 3 hour long event - which is not as much fun lol.
6. It's a bit chilly outside today - so different from the past two days! Surprisingly, I'm perfectly ok with wearing a hoodie out
7. The screen on J's phone cracked and it's giving her a lot of problems. We really don't want to spend $100 on a replacement... Ugh.
8. I'm pretty much out of things... Maybe I'll be back later to finish! Off to run errands!
1. Yesterday would have been so great if it was just us.
2. Extended family is too much drama for me to deal with right now. I'm annoyed that I let them get to me on such an important day.
3. Unfortunately I cant exactly cut them out right now...
4. Because my brother is in the hospital and has been for a week. He's in bad shape. But, I think better than before he entered the hospital, so that's something.
5. I've been doing a lot of praying.
6. Someone (ie: my dad) just sent me an email saying, "Congrats on your first day as a mom!" Umm, seriously?! wtf
7. Apparently I'm cranky today...
8. Tomorrow I'm starting Whole 30 - has anyone here tried it? I'm excited, but also nervous that I cant quit sugar for a full 30 days. I need it though, I've got to re-set my sweet tooth and take a good swing at my sugar addiction.
9. i love my kids. they bring so much joy. I want to fast forward to their adoption party and enjoy that day with full abandon!
10. we've got a half day planned for Friday and are heading to the beach to take some pictures. I'm looking forward to it
1) We have not got a positive OPK yet this month and it is day 17...wtf?
2) The night out at the club/bar got rescheduled to tonight.
3) All I can think about with #2 is that I have to be up early tomorrow for work.
4) My bff from IN is coming into town on Saturday to celebrate her birthday with family. We are then going out for dinner and drinks sans toddlers!
5) I was directed to a website that gives free kindle book suggestions (like 10+ a day usually) and I am in LOVE with it! I even got Ky a few picture books!
6) If I hear, "well if I only worked 40 hours" come from Ann as an excuse one more time I am going to scream. I understand she works more hours than me but that is not an excuse to leave the bathroom a mess in the am and your dirty clothes on the floor!
7) Some of the workers in another department need retrained. I am tried of doing their job and mine.
8) I read someone's blog on a daily basis (not anyone here) and I have to laugh at the audacity of the blogger. I mean really? Everything is oh so perfect and your situation is so "unique" that no one could possibly understand? Really?
9) I am stopping here becasue I just realized how b*tchy those last three sounded and I am afraid it will not get much nicer...
C and I have been (seriously) talking about trying for a third child.
I can't wait until I get my glasses , I am tired of trying to figure out blurry letters and not being able to read small print at all. However, my age is showing, they are bifocals.
Aren't trivial spats annoying?!
I am so worried about my Mom's health. It is where she has to sit on a stool when she washes dishes; she gets exhausted so quickly. She sees her cardiologist soon...her heartrate averages about 40 bpm.
I received a work email today that may get me sent to Stockholm for a conference...I am hoping not. It would be a long trip for a one day meeting.
It is so expensive now that we have to pay for the Kiddos' travel. We had planned to fly out to San Francisco to meet up with C (after her conference) but we just cannot afford it.
One great thing about Texas ... NO STATE TAXES! (I miss home right now!)
Last night C went out back with the Kiddos while I cooked dinner. That set up worked really well. I wonder If I could convince C to make that a habit...
I want to redo the porch, landscape the backyard, buy a new grill, and get a play yard............a woman can dream.
1. Two more classes left (and about 40 pages of papers) and I have officially survived my first semester of my MSW.
2. As much as I am looking forward to summer I CANNOT wait to start field in the fall. My mother gets nervous whenever I talk about being excited about spending my days working on an inpatient psych ward. She said maybe I need to check myself in lol.
3. Summer is almost here (although the heat feels like it has already arrived)
4. Number 3 means 24 hours a day of us time with no grad school and DW is off teaching for summer break.
5. Number 3 also means baby tries. Bring on the rollercoaster.
6. We booked out hotel room for our annual overnight for DC pride in June. We act like we are in our early 20's again and usually complain about our knees the next day from too much dancing.
7. I have been able to pick up a lot of sub jobs for May/June so DW and I decided it is time to get our kayaks. We have been waiting until I was far enough along in my weight loss that I wouldnt sink the boat. I even have room to spare now
8. Speaking of weightloss I think my two year post op blood work is going to be bad . Running around for school and stuff means I have been not getting enough protein
9. I need to get to work.
10. I am super excited for CT and her family. I am a sucker for happy family stories.
We had three BFN in the Fall of 2011. It is back on to some baby making come June. Swim little fellas, SWIM!!!!
1. I can't stop thinking about CT and her family and how excited I am for all of them. Nothing will change for their family, yet everything changes.
2. I am pretty sure everyone in DC was out looking at the shuttle besides me. Darn phone calls.
3. Sometimes I feel like I am great at my job and other times I think I stink. It can vary from hour to hour.
4. I am DONE with my period. I have no need for it any longer. Why must I have another 10 or so years or this nonsense?
5. L saw me with the Bump open last night and said, "Uh....why are you on THAT site?" LOL. I had to explain it has nothing to do with pregnancy (at least for me!)
6. I talked to my father last night about his date. The lady told him that she just wants friends. My dad said to me, "But I want a girlfriend." Um. Gulp. I understand..but it is still so weird for me to hear that. (my mom died last June.)
7. I had a dream with my mom in it last night. Now I always have dreams in which my mom can walk and talk (she couldn't for the last 8y of her life.)
8. Damn. Now I am crying at my desk.
9. I feel like I need a vacation alone. I should have done it during the last few months when L was home and not off writing - but the finances weren't there. Poo.
10. Why is the high 75 and sunny on Friday, but 60 and raining on Sunday? Too bad I can't have Friday off and work Sunday!
1. BIG GIG HuGS, CT ! MAY THIS DAY BRING YOU LOTS OF PEACE. HEY -WHENS THE PARTY ?
2.PUMPKIN GOT WAY TOO USeD TO SLEEPING IN SOMEONES ARMS. I NEeD TO WORK ON THAT THIS WeEK.
3. I AM OVERWHELMED BY THE NUMBER OF THINGS THAT NEED TO BE DONE IN THE NEXT 60 DAYS BEFORE THE GIRLS MOVE IN.
4. MOSTLY FINDING NEW SCHOoLS WHEN ITS WAY PAST OpEN ENROLlMENT. L IS GOiNG TO USE ALl HER SCHOOL CONTACTS.
5. We ARE IN A CATCH 22. We CANT ENROLL THEM UNTIL We GET A PLACEMENT LETTEr, BUT IF THEY GIVE US A PLACEMENT LETTER, THEY HAVE TO GIVE ONE TO MOM AND THE GIRLS. WE ARE NOT ReADY FOR THAT YET.
6. WeNT TO THE HOUSE OF SOME NEW FRIENDS ON SAT. HAD LOTS OF FUN W THEIR 2 (ADOPTED) GIRLS
7. I KEPT PROCRASTINATING STARTING DINNER UNTIL I REALIZED I WAsNT IN THE MOOd FOR SALMON. AND I WAs AN ADULT. I CAN CHANGE IT.
1. I have a headache. I don't want to have a headache.
2. A co-worker (and the big boss' daughter) asked me to officiate at her wedding. We need a letter attesting to my good character for my one-day designation, so I figured I'd ask my boss (her dad). I thought she had told him, so I just went into his office this morning and said, "Hey, I need this letter so I can marry S and S (his daughter and her fiancee)." The look on his face was priceless. He didn't know yet and thought I was talking about marrying his daughter. HAHAHA! I cracked up.
3. I'm trying not to think about the bad news I got last Thursday. It's not working.
4. I've been spending most of my free time doing J's room in the new house, and it's turning out really nice. I'm enjoying it a lot more than I thought I would.
5. We have fantastic friends in the city we're moving to (one of the reasons we decided to move there). They just stopped by yesterday to drop off a box of toys for J and ended up hanging out. One of them hung out with J and the other helped K finish the fence around our backyard. Where was I? Painting his room.
6. I've been having a hard time lately with the thought that we won't have another squishy baby. J is growing SO fast!
7. He knows all of the letters. Isn't it kind of early?
8. Lo.we.s can kiss my behind. I think I mentioned yesterday they delivered the wrong stove to the house - a floor sample missing knobs. Turns out they no longer had the stove they sold us a week ago. They ended up giving us an upgrade because the new model is a bit more expensive, supposedly. They came back in the p.m. to deliver the right stove, and it was just a couple of guys from the store (not the delivery company). One was super cranky and kept saying the stove wouldn't fit. Uh, dude, this is your JOB. Figure it the he** out. They did, eventually, but seriously? There's a stove in the house now, and it's the same size as the new one. It got in, right? There's a way, dude - just make it happen.
1. The first week of our new farm share was delivered today. Lots of yummy greens, some that I'm unfamiliar with. French sorrel and kale buds?
2. Now that things are *mostly* done for the babies, I want to have some fun before they come. I think Jen and I will go to the movies and I'll go antiquing with my mom.
3. I need to clean the kitchen but Jen is asleep on the couch. Maybe I'll do a Target run instead, and clean the car.
4. We need to get the car seats installed and keep putting it off b/c two carseats in a Honda Fit definitely limits our cargo space.
5. We're going to an open house at our new pediatrics clinic tonight. Being in charge of someone else's health is intimidating.
6. I had my adoption physical yesterday and the doctor told me that I can expect my metabolism to drop 40-45% between the ages of 35 and 45. So I've got that to look forward to.
7. I'm terrible at keeping up with email now that I don't have a desk job.
8. I need around 10 more hours of CLE this year, and I'm doing them all online. Zzzzzzz...
9. I have no idea what to do for my mom, or for Jen, for Mother's Day.
10. I'm going to be a mom too! How many times in your life do you suddenly get a new holiday? :-D
1. Like everyone else, I am so happy for CT. My wife even teared up when I showed her your picture on fb. But clearly you have been a mom for years, CT, and I'm sorry your brother's illness is interfering with your joy.
2. LV - Inpatient psych is fascinating. Don't listen to your mom.
3. My hard drive and smartphone failed on the same day this week. I'm liming by on the phone, but it's an annoying problem and a very unwanted expense.
4. 2ww. Need I say anymore?
5. I'm so sick of this.
6. I left work early today (really an end of the day lunch break, but that's technically against the rules). It feels great.
7. Our apartment is constantly over 80 degrees in this crazy warm weather.
8. I went to a fair this afternoon and got to spend an hour talking w a person with a similar job at the same level as me in another office. It was really nice to hear how many of the same things she deals with.
9. I wish there was any chance this vague nausea, etc. was due to pregnancy and not progesterone supps. But I've had enough BFNs to know that I will always concince myself I'm pregnant no matter what.
10. I always feel bad that there's not enough time/space/etc. to comment on the things going on ineveryone's TTT.
TTC with PCOS since July 2011.
IVF Oct/Nov 2012
Beta #1 = 77, Beta #2 = 190, Beta #3 = 1044
Cautiously optimistic.
1. Work is crazy busy today but I had to rush here this morning to see CT's update and say congrats! I am so happy for them...sending big congratulatory hugs!!!
2. This week is spirit week at E's school, each day with a different theme. Yesterday crazy hair, today pajamas, etc. Thursday is mismatched clothes day. Tell me I should restrain myself from sending back the horribly mismatched outfit she wore home from her dad's last week and tell him it will be perfect for that day! It might just put T*T's DD's birthday outfit to shame!
3. I need sleep. Long uninteruppted by a child or by thoughts about all the things I have to do in the next week and a half before we move.
4. We are moving in a week and a half to a dream house!!!
5. I hope E does ok with the move. She'll only be in the new house with me for a few days before I leave for vacation and she'll be with her dad for a week.
6. I am so relieved that things finally closed on the house. I waited a long time to take E there to show her and then after I'd signed closing papers it came back that the gov't. was reviewing and I feared it would all fall through.
7. Things with K are blissfully good. She has been super sweet in offering to help with things and I am so grateful.
8. I am stuck between one of the docs I work with and management on a sticky political issue. I just want to be out of it completely...
9. E is going to be six in a month.
10. I need to get on the party planning for E's birthday but I'm at a loss for where to have it...
1. I am so happy for CT and her family. That picture is so priceless (and Sprout looks so big!).
2. It's 5:29 and all I've eaten today is two donuts and an iced coffee.
3. Not working has me completely untethered from any kind of routine or schedule. Like eating regularly. Or checking email. Or wearing pants for an entire day.
4. I got a job offer this week! The job is great, but I need to negotiate the salary. Still, I'm incredibly excited, even if it means wearing pants every day
5. I'm having another big flare in fibromyalgia symptoms. Haven't we done this twice already this year? I am seeing a new holistic doctor tomorrow. I'm hopeful he will help me get things moving in the right direction with my health again.
6. Our donor has a fabulous sense of humor, and it has helped lower our stress levels around all the preparation we are doing...
7. ...because we are inseminating for the first time on THURSDAY.
8. And again on Friday. We're just crossing our fingers the timing is good enough, because our donor is leaving for an out of town wedding on Friday afternoon, so that's our only shot.
9. I freaked out a little today that we're actually doing this. Called my BFF, who was like "Remember this is a huge step, but it is what you want. You will be so happy." And she's totally right.
10. Now I'm just focusing on keeping my expectations realistic. And even more on keeping C's realistic.
Same sex couple TTC with donor sperm. I am 35 and carrying. Endometriosis and DOR. AMH 0.5, AFC 5-8, FSH 7ish
9. I want to do a Couch to 5k program. Anyone have a free app or program they like?
I did the Conservative Couch to 5K program on Beginner Triathlete. (No I am not and have no intentions of becoming a triathlete, but I just liked this program better than others I found). A lot of Couch to 5K programs have you alternate walking and jogging (i.e. "alternate 90 seconds of jogging and two minutes of walking for a total of 20 minutes"); I preferred that this one allows you to do it in blocks -- so in week 1 of phase 2 when I was doing 28 min walking/2 min jogging, I would walk 14 minutes, run 2, then walk 14 (you could also put your 2 mins at the beginning or end of your workout -- it doesn't really specify, but that's what worked for me). I hated running when I started and I liked knowing that once that 2 minutes was up, I was done with it. I also found that having bigger chunks rather than short intervals let me pay less attention to the exercise (which I hated) and more attention to the TV, which made the workout go faster.
Anyway, it worked -- I went from not running at all in early January to running 5k at a time (for me that is about 35 minutes) sometime in the summer. I am NOT and was never an athlete. And I don't love running even now, but it's not hard for me at this point and I do it because it burns a lot of calories and lets me eat more.
Married my wife 8/2007 ~ TTC #1 since 7/2011 9 IUIs = 9 BFNs IVF October 2012: 22 eggs retrieved, 17 fertilized, 5 frozen ET #1: 1 blast = BFP; Blighted ovum discovered at 7w5d; D&E FET #1: 1 blast = BFP; Missed m/c discovered at 9w5d; D&E Karyotyping: normal ~ RPL Testing: normal ~ Hysteroscopy: normal FET #2: 1 blast transferred 10/25; BFP 10/31! EDD 7/13/14 ~ Induced at 37w4d due to pre-eclampsia ~ Born on 6/28/14 *Everyone welcome*
1. There is a REALLY LOUD bird in our yard and it drives me crazy. He/she seems to sing at all hours. This morning it woke me up at 5 am when I didn't have to get up until 5:30. We can't sleep with windows open in the spring because it has woken us up at 2 am before. Even with windows closed it will wake us up if we don't have a fan or noise machine running. It is singing now. SHUT THE EFF UP BIRD!
2. I just finished running the sprinkler. In April. This is something I definitely never expected to need to do until summer, and I don't even do it much then (because screw the lawn and the veggies are established by then), and I feel guilty about using so much water. But we are trying to re-grow grass from seed in a few patches, and growing veggies from seed, and they won't get started if they don't get enough water. Between the unusual heat and the fact that this has been a really dry spring (April is supposed to be muddy!), they aren't going to make it without a little help. Fortunately they are predicting rain all weekend.
3. I hate taking time off from TTC.
4. We are still working on picking a new donor. I went through the whole catalog and got it down to 15 possibles. My wife is now supposed to be picking her favorites. It has been over a week and she has looked at 3 profiles. THREE.
5. Also, we still haven't heard back from the cryobank about our credit. They originally told me it would take a week to process the claim and then they said three weeks. I am calling tomorrow to inquire and/or b!tch.
6. BUT I got out of a $750 bill for my HSG! My insurance said they'd cover it, I got an explanation of benefits statement post-procedure saying they'd covered it, and then I got a bill for half the cost from the hospital where it was done. When I called my insurance they said, "Oh, we paid that, they made a mistake, we'll take care of it." Phew.
7. My boss collected comments about me from people we work with to put in my annual review, and she told me today that they were really good. Now I'm looking forward to my review (and my teeny raise, and hopefully my bonus).
8. I want cake. The caramel egg I just ate was delicious, but it was not cake.
9. Every other thing I pin on Pinterest is dessert.
10. Off to the drugstore to pick up Flonase for the wife! Yay allergy season!
Married my wife 8/2007 ~ TTC #1 since 7/2011 9 IUIs = 9 BFNs IVF October 2012: 22 eggs retrieved, 17 fertilized, 5 frozen ET #1: 1 blast = BFP; Blighted ovum discovered at 7w5d; D&E FET #1: 1 blast = BFP; Missed m/c discovered at 9w5d; D&E Karyotyping: normal ~ RPL Testing: normal ~ Hysteroscopy: normal FET #2: 1 blast transferred 10/25; BFP 10/31! EDD 7/13/14 ~ Induced at 37w4d due to pre-eclampsia ~ Born on 6/28/14 *Everyone welcome*
3. Hope Emma + Karen is coping through the two week wait so far
4. Day 7 of the first two week wait is driving me nutso - and this is the first one
5. Every other minute I convince myself that something that I am feeling is a sign of pregnancy and then that I am definitely PMSy.
6. I really want to pee on a stick.
7. I ordered pregnancy tests online so that they would take a while before they arrived in my bathroom and I couldn't be tempted to take an early (and really pointless) test.
8. I've had to give myself times that I am allowed to look at pregnancy related stuff online. If I didn't I'd be wasting work time online.
Re: TTT
1. Monster will not be a long term placement, a family member is already being checked out.
2. Definitely not taking anymore foster placements when he leaves, adoption only from now on.
3. Remember sea monkeys? I bought A and Iz their own tanks, they are excited to add the eggs today and watch them hatch.
4. I decided on a theme for Apple's birthday...apples.
5. I think we are doing a monster theme for Owl's birthday.
6. Apple said dada and now Owl has started babbling...in the car...when the music is on...but stops when we turn to look or praise her.
7. One of my chickens died yesterday, I sat under the pomegranate tree with her until she passed.
8. I told my grandma that we are naming Apple after her, I could hear the smile in her voice when she told me it was an old fashioned name.
9. I haven't exercised since I was sick, I need to hop back on the wagon.
10. And off the let's.eat.everything.in.sight wagon.
Two Mommies Healing Hearts
1. We went shopping last night and I bought 5 new pairs of shoes. 3 flops, 1 pair of croc knock-offs for me to try as "yard shoes" and some awesome new Nikes that are perfect to wear with shorts when we go to Disney.
2. I have absolutely no desire to work today. I hit snooze for an hour before I drug myself out of bed.
3. We have our new pool all ready but the darn weather hasn't warmed up enough yet to get the temp of the water to something that doesn't freeze you to death when you're in it. Supposed to be warm all week but now it says rain over the weekend. UGH!!
4. We watched 6 degrees of separation last night. Odd movie. Always love Stockard Channing though!
5. Should find out today if a new contract that will keep me working through the summer will go through. Here's hoping!
6. The team I am working with on this current contract is all men. We are supposed to go to a luncheon Thursday to celebrate our successful upgrade. I really like all the guys. They're cool. I just feel weird being the only girl in the group and going out with them all.
7. My son is the best kid ever. If he decides to go into the military after high school, I might die of heartbreak.
8. I ordered some new summer shirts from a place in the UK and they will hopefully be here by Friday. So excited! They are super-pretty!!
9. I wake up feeling lucky every day to have Sandy.
10. I've run out of steam...I don't have a number 10.....
1. Our donor was out of town over the weekend, which was when we should have inseminated - so we're out this month. Heartbreaking.
2. I got my ticket to the PostSecret event at Cleveland State University yesterday!
3. The even is tomorrow night and I'm SO, SO excited about it!
4. J's direct manager is leaving her company on disability soon (either that or he's taking a step down from management). She's been passed over for this promotion before, so we're not expecting anything but we're hopeful. She definitely deserves it.
5. We're going grocery shopping today. For some odd reason, I love grocery shopping but normally I do it alone. J is coming with me today and when it's the two of us, it turns into a 3 hour long event - which is not as much fun lol.
6. It's a bit chilly outside today - so different from the past two days! Surprisingly, I'm perfectly ok with wearing a hoodie out
7. The screen on J's phone cracked and it's giving her a lot of problems. We really don't want to spend $100 on a replacement... Ugh.
8. I'm pretty much out of things... Maybe I'll be back later to finish! Off to run errands!
*DS 6/28/2013*
1. Yesterday would have been so great if it was just us.
2. Extended family is too much drama for me to deal with right now. I'm annoyed that I let them get to me on such an important day.
3. Unfortunately I cant exactly cut them out right now...
4. Because my brother is in the hospital and has been for a week. He's in bad shape. But, I think better than before he entered the hospital, so that's something.
5. I've been doing a lot of praying.
6. Someone (ie: my dad) just sent me an email saying, "Congrats on your first day as a mom!" Umm, seriously?! wtf
7. Apparently I'm cranky today...
8. Tomorrow I'm starting Whole 30 - has anyone here tried it? I'm excited, but also nervous that I cant quit sugar for a full 30 days. I need it though, I've got to re-set my sweet tooth and take a good swing at my sugar addiction.
9. i love my kids. they bring so much joy. I want to fast forward to their adoption party and enjoy that day with full abandon!
10. we've got a half day planned for Friday and are heading to the beach to take some pictures. I'm looking forward to it
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1) We have not got a positive OPK yet this month and it is day 17...wtf?
2) The night out at the club/bar got rescheduled to tonight.
3) All I can think about with #2 is that I have to be up early tomorrow for work.
4) My bff from IN is coming into town on Saturday to celebrate her birthday with family. We are then going out for dinner and drinks sans toddlers!
5) I was directed to a website that gives free kindle book suggestions (like 10+ a day usually) and I am in LOVE with it! I even got Ky a few picture books!
6) If I hear, "well if I only worked 40 hours" come from Ann as an excuse one more time I am going to scream. I understand she works more hours than me but that is not an excuse to leave the bathroom a mess in the am and your dirty clothes on the floor!
7) Some of the workers in another department need retrained. I am tried of doing their job and mine.
8) I read someone's blog on a daily basis (not anyone here) and I have to laugh at the audacity of the blogger. I mean really? Everything is oh so perfect and your situation is so "unique" that no one could possibly understand? Really?
9) I am stopping here becasue I just realized how b*tchy those last three sounded and I am afraid it will not get much nicer...
1. Two more classes left (and about 40 pages of papers) and I have officially survived my first semester of my MSW.
2. As much as I am looking forward to summer I CANNOT wait to start field in the fall. My mother gets nervous whenever I talk about being excited about spending my days working on an inpatient psych ward. She said maybe I need to check myself in lol.
3. Summer is almost here (although the heat feels like it has already arrived)
4. Number 3 means 24 hours a day of us time with no grad school and DW is off teaching for summer break.
5. Number 3 also means baby tries. Bring on the rollercoaster.
6. We booked out hotel room for our annual overnight for DC pride in June. We act like we are in our early 20's again and usually complain about our knees the next day from too much dancing.
7. I have been able to pick up a lot of sub jobs for May/June so DW and I decided it is time to get our kayaks. We have been waiting until I was far enough along in my weight loss that I wouldnt sink the boat. I even have room to spare now
8. Speaking of weightloss I think my two year post op blood work is going to be bad . Running around for school and stuff means I have been not getting enough protein
9. I need to get to work.
10. I am super excited for CT and her family. I am a sucker for happy family stories.
1. I can't stop thinking about CT and her family and how excited I am for all of them. Nothing will change for their family, yet everything changes.
2. I am pretty sure everyone in DC was out looking at the shuttle besides me. Darn phone calls.
3. Sometimes I feel like I am great at my job and other times I think I stink. It can vary from hour to hour.
4. I am DONE with my period. I have no need for it any longer. Why must I have another 10 or so years or this nonsense?
5. L saw me with the Bump open last night and said, "Uh....why are you on THAT site?" LOL. I had to explain it has nothing to do with pregnancy (at least for me!)
6. I talked to my father last night about his date. The lady told him that she just wants friends. My dad said to me, "But I want a girlfriend." Um. Gulp. I understand..but it is still so weird for me to hear that. (my mom died last June.)
7. I had a dream with my mom in it last night. Now I always have dreams in which my mom can walk and talk (she couldn't for the last 8y of her life.)
8. Damn. Now I am crying at my desk.
9. I feel like I need a vacation alone. I should have done it during the last few months when L was home and not off writing - but the finances weren't there. Poo.
10. Why is the high 75 and sunny on Friday, but 60 and raining on Sunday? Too bad I can't have Friday off and work Sunday!
1. BIG GIG HuGS, CT ! MAY THIS DAY BRING YOU LOTS OF PEACE. HEY -WHENS THE PARTY ?
2.PUMPKIN GOT WAY TOO USeD TO SLEEPING IN SOMEONES ARMS. I NEeD TO WORK ON THAT THIS WeEK.
3. I AM OVERWHELMED BY THE NUMBER OF THINGS THAT NEED TO BE DONE IN THE NEXT 60 DAYS BEFORE THE GIRLS MOVE IN.
4. MOSTLY FINDING NEW SCHOoLS WHEN ITS WAY PAST OpEN ENROLlMENT. L IS GOiNG TO USE ALl HER SCHOOL CONTACTS.
5. We ARE IN A CATCH 22. We CANT ENROLL THEM UNTIL We GET A PLACEMENT LETTEr, BUT IF THEY GIVE US A PLACEMENT LETTER, THEY HAVE TO GIVE ONE TO MOM AND THE GIRLS. WE ARE NOT ReADY FOR THAT YET.
6. WeNT TO THE HOUSE OF SOME NEW FRIENDS ON SAT. HAD LOTS OF FUN W THEIR 2 (ADOPTED) GIRLS
7. I KEPT PROCRASTINATING STARTING DINNER UNTIL I REALIZED I WAsNT IN THE MOOd FOR SALMON. AND I WAs AN ADULT. I CAN CHANGE IT.
8. PUNKINS UP !
Thanks hon
The party is in July
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1. I have a headache. I don't want to have a headache.
2. A co-worker (and the big boss' daughter) asked me to officiate at her wedding. We need a letter attesting to my good character for my one-day designation, so I figured I'd ask my boss (her dad). I thought she had told him, so I just went into his office this morning and said, "Hey, I need this letter so I can marry S and S (his daughter and her fiancee)." The look on his face was priceless. He didn't know yet and thought I was talking about marrying his daughter. HAHAHA! I cracked up.
3. I'm trying not to think about the bad news I got last Thursday. It's not working.
4. I've been spending most of my free time doing J's room in the new house, and it's turning out really nice. I'm enjoying it a lot more than I thought I would.
5. We have fantastic friends in the city we're moving to (one of the reasons we decided to move there). They just stopped by yesterday to drop off a box of toys for J and ended up hanging out. One of them hung out with J and the other helped K finish the fence around our backyard. Where was I? Painting his room.
6. I've been having a hard time lately with the thought that we won't have another squishy baby. J is growing SO fast!
7. He knows all of the letters. Isn't it kind of early?
8. Lo.we.s can kiss my behind. I think I mentioned yesterday they delivered the wrong stove to the house - a floor sample missing knobs. Turns out they no longer had the stove they sold us a week ago. They ended up giving us an upgrade because the new model is a bit more expensive, supposedly. They came back in the p.m. to deliver the right stove, and it was just a couple of guys from the store (not the delivery company). One was super cranky and kept saying the stove wouldn't fit. Uh, dude, this is your JOB. Figure it the he** out. They did, eventually, but seriously? There's a stove in the house now, and it's the same size as the new one. It got in, right? There's a way, dude - just make it happen.
9. This is turning into a book.
10. I need coffee. Ugh.
1. The first week of our new farm share was delivered today. Lots of yummy greens, some that I'm unfamiliar with. French sorrel and kale buds?
2. Now that things are *mostly* done for the babies, I want to have some fun before they come. I think Jen and I will go to the movies and I'll go antiquing with my mom.
3. I need to clean the kitchen but Jen is asleep on the couch. Maybe I'll do a Target run instead, and clean the car.
4. We need to get the car seats installed and keep putting it off b/c two carseats in a Honda Fit definitely limits our cargo space.
5. We're going to an open house at our new pediatrics clinic tonight. Being in charge of someone else's health is intimidating.
6. I had my adoption physical yesterday and the doctor told me that I can expect my metabolism to drop 40-45% between the ages of 35 and 45. So I've got that to look forward to.
7. I'm terrible at keeping up with email now that I don't have a desk job.
8. I need around 10 more hours of CLE this year, and I'm doing them all online. Zzzzzzz...
9. I have no idea what to do for my mom, or for Jen, for Mother's Day.
10. I'm going to be a mom too! How many times in your life do you suddenly get a new holiday? :-D
1. Like everyone else, I am so happy for CT. My wife even teared up when I showed her your picture on fb. But clearly you have been a mom for years, CT, and I'm sorry your brother's illness is interfering with your joy.
2. LV - Inpatient psych is fascinating. Don't listen to your mom.
3. My hard drive and smartphone failed on the same day this week. I'm liming by on the phone, but it's an annoying problem and a very unwanted expense.
4. 2ww. Need I say anymore?
5. I'm so sick of this.
6. I left work early today (really an end of the day lunch break, but that's technically against the rules). It feels great.
7. Our apartment is constantly over 80 degrees in this crazy warm weather.
8. I went to a fair this afternoon and got to spend an hour talking w a person with a similar job at the same level as me in another office. It was really nice to hear how many of the same things she deals with.
9. I wish there was any chance this vague nausea, etc. was due to pregnancy and not progesterone supps. But I've had enough BFNs to know that I will always concince myself I'm pregnant no matter what.
10. I always feel bad that there's not enough time/space/etc. to comment on the things going on ineveryone's TTT.
IVF Oct/Nov 2012
Beta #1 = 77, Beta #2 = 190, Beta #3 = 1044
Cautiously optimistic.
1. Work is crazy busy today but I had to rush here this morning to see CT's update and say congrats! I am so happy for them...sending big congratulatory hugs!!!
2. This week is spirit week at E's school, each day with a different theme. Yesterday crazy hair, today pajamas, etc. Thursday is mismatched clothes day. Tell me I should restrain myself from sending back the horribly mismatched outfit she wore home from her dad's last week and tell him it will be perfect for that day! It might just put T*T's DD's birthday outfit to shame!
3. I need sleep. Long uninteruppted by a child or by thoughts about all the things I have to do in the next week and a half before we move.
4. We are moving in a week and a half to a dream house!!!
5. I hope E does ok with the move. She'll only be in the new house with me for a few days before I leave for vacation and she'll be with her dad for a week.
6. I am so relieved that things finally closed on the house. I waited a long time to take E there to show her and then after I'd signed closing papers it came back that the gov't. was reviewing and I feared it would all fall through.
7. Things with K are blissfully good. She has been super sweet in offering to help with things and I am so grateful.
8. I am stuck between one of the docs I work with and management on a sticky political issue. I just want to be out of it completely...
9. E is going to be six in a month.
10. I need to get on the party planning for E's birthday but I'm at a loss for where to have it...
1. I am so happy for CT and her family. That picture is so priceless (and Sprout looks so big!).
2. It's 5:29 and all I've eaten today is two donuts and an iced coffee.
3. Not working has me completely untethered from any kind of routine or schedule. Like eating regularly. Or checking email. Or wearing pants for an entire day.
4. I got a job offer this week! The job is great, but I need to negotiate the salary. Still, I'm incredibly excited, even if it means wearing pants every day
5. I'm having another big flare in fibromyalgia symptoms. Haven't we done this twice already this year? I am seeing a new holistic doctor tomorrow. I'm hopeful he will help me get things moving in the right direction with my health again.
6. Our donor has a fabulous sense of humor, and it has helped lower our stress levels around all the preparation we are doing...
7. ...because we are inseminating for the first time on THURSDAY.
8. And again on Friday. We're just crossing our fingers the timing is good enough, because our donor is leaving for an out of town wedding on Friday afternoon, so that's our only shot.
9. I freaked out a little today that we're actually doing this. Called my BFF, who was like "Remember this is a huge step, but it is what you want. You will be so happy." And she's totally right.
10. Now I'm just focusing on keeping my expectations realistic. And even more on keeping C's realistic.
AMH 0.5, AFC 5-8, FSH 7ish
IVF #1 - antagonist. Empty follicle syndrome. 1 retrieved, 0 fertilized.
IVF #2 - antagonist. Ovulated early. 3 retrieved, 2 fertilized, 0 blasts
I did the Conservative Couch to 5K program on Beginner Triathlete. (No I am not and have no intentions of becoming a triathlete, but I just liked this program better than others I found). A lot of Couch to 5K programs have you alternate walking and jogging (i.e. "alternate 90 seconds of jogging and two minutes of walking for a total of 20 minutes"); I preferred that this one allows you to do it in blocks -- so in week 1 of phase 2 when I was doing 28 min walking/2 min jogging, I would walk 14 minutes, run 2, then walk 14 (you could also put your 2 mins at the beginning or end of your workout -- it doesn't really specify, but that's what worked for me). I hated running when I started and I liked knowing that once that 2 minutes was up, I was done with it. I also found that having bigger chunks rather than short intervals let me pay less attention to the exercise (which I hated) and more attention to the TV, which made the workout go faster.
Anyway, it worked -- I went from not running at all in early January to running 5k at a time (for me that is about 35 minutes) sometime in the summer. I am NOT and was never an athlete. And I don't love running even now, but it's not hard for me at this point and I do it because it burns a lot of calories and lets me eat more.
https://www.beginnertriathlete.com/Programs/conservative_program.htm
9 IUIs = 9 BFNs
IVF October 2012: 22 eggs retrieved, 17 fertilized, 5 frozen
ET #1: 1 blast = BFP; Blighted ovum discovered at 7w5d; D&E
FET #1: 1 blast = BFP; Missed m/c discovered at 9w5d; D&E
Karyotyping: normal ~ RPL Testing: normal ~ Hysteroscopy: normal
FET #2: 1 blast transferred 10/25; BFP 10/31!
EDD 7/13/14 ~ Induced at 37w4d due to pre-eclampsia ~ Born on 6/28/14
*Everyone welcome*
1. There is a REALLY LOUD bird in our yard and it drives me crazy. He/she seems to sing at all hours. This morning it woke me up at 5 am when I didn't have to get up until 5:30. We can't sleep with windows open in the spring because it has woken us up at 2 am before. Even with windows closed it will wake us up if we don't have a fan or noise machine running. It is singing now. SHUT THE EFF UP BIRD!
2. I just finished running the sprinkler. In April. This is something I definitely never expected to need to do until summer, and I don't even do it much then (because screw the lawn and the veggies are established by then), and I feel guilty about using so much water. But we are trying to re-grow grass from seed in a few patches, and growing veggies from seed, and they won't get started if they don't get enough water. Between the unusual heat and the fact that this has been a really dry spring (April is supposed to be muddy!), they aren't going to make it without a little help. Fortunately they are predicting rain all weekend.
3. I hate taking time off from TTC.
4. We are still working on picking a new donor. I went through the whole catalog and got it down to 15 possibles. My wife is now supposed to be picking her favorites. It has been over a week and she has looked at 3 profiles. THREE.
5. Also, we still haven't heard back from the cryobank about our credit. They originally told me it would take a week to process the claim and then they said three weeks. I am calling tomorrow to inquire and/or b!tch.
6. BUT I got out of a $750 bill for my HSG! My insurance said they'd cover it, I got an explanation of benefits statement post-procedure saying they'd covered it, and then I got a bill for half the cost from the hospital where it was done. When I called my insurance they said, "Oh, we paid that, they made a mistake, we'll take care of it." Phew.
7. My boss collected comments about me from people we work with to put in my annual review, and she told me today that they were really good. Now I'm looking forward to my review (and my teeny raise, and hopefully my bonus).
8. I want cake. The caramel egg I just ate was delicious, but it was not cake.
9. Every other thing I pin on Pinterest is dessert.
10. Off to the drugstore to pick up Flonase for the wife! Yay allergy season!
9 IUIs = 9 BFNs
IVF October 2012: 22 eggs retrieved, 17 fertilized, 5 frozen
ET #1: 1 blast = BFP; Blighted ovum discovered at 7w5d; D&E
FET #1: 1 blast = BFP; Missed m/c discovered at 9w5d; D&E
Karyotyping: normal ~ RPL Testing: normal ~ Hysteroscopy: normal
FET #2: 1 blast transferred 10/25; BFP 10/31!
EDD 7/13/14 ~ Induced at 37w4d due to pre-eclampsia ~ Born on 6/28/14
*Everyone welcome*
1. HUGE congrats to CT and family
2. Best of luck to Hike
3. Hope Emma + Karen is coping through the two week wait so far
4. Day 7 of the first two week wait is driving me nutso - and this is the first one
5. Every other minute I convince myself that something that I am feeling is a sign of pregnancy and then that I am definitely PMSy.
6. I really want to pee on a stick.
7. I ordered pregnancy tests online so that they would take a while before they arrived in my bathroom and I couldn't be tempted to take an early (and really pointless) test.
8. I've had to give myself times that I am allowed to look at pregnancy related stuff online. If I didn't I'd be wasting work time online.
9. I've had weird stomach and heartburn all day.
10. I ordered this diaper bag and ordered it online - LOVE it! https://www.serenaandlily.com/Baby/Must-Haves-For-Baby-Gypsy-Tote-Peacock-Gypsy-Tote-Collection my justification is that it can be used as a non-baby bag too