Ugh, I'm having a bad few days... I'm not sure if it's just pregnancy hormones making me extra emotional, or if this is a hump I would have had no matter what since Peyton's 6 month birthday is coming up. It seems like everything makes me cry again. I had a total meltdown at acupuncture yesterday... then today I just sort of broke down for no real reason. After I cried for a while I fell asleep and had a nightmare about losing this baby.... I could feel pressure (but no pain) so put my hand down and felt this baby coming out. He/she was about the right size for how far along I am. Ugh... this is just hard. I just needed a vent.
Married the love of my life 7/11/09 - Our first baby, Peyton Mark, was born sleeping 10/25/11 at 33 weeks - Our second baby, BFP 2/4/12, welcome to the world Raylan! Holy Moly, BPF 2/4/14, please be safe and sound little one! My Blog
Re: Falling apart lately (pregnancy mentioned)
I'm sorry you're struggling lately. I think it's just one of those things that probably goes along w/ PgAL. I guess you'll never know whether you would've been having a hard time anyway or not, but my guess is yes since your 6 mos. is coming up. It's hard to know, this is all uncharted territory. We all (whether pg w/ our rainbows or not) are living a life that's different than the one we planned. Each new day is a day that's different than the one we imagined we'd be having.
The pg dreams are CRAZY, I will say that. I had them w/ both my pregnancies. It would drive me nuts since I felt like I was thinking and doing things all night long. It was exhausting.
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Remembering Robby
Hugs. I'm right there with you. Hitting the 6 month mark brought me down A LOT and I have just been so down. And like you said, hormones don't help. I'm just trying my hardest to be happy for my little girl in my belly.
Good luck and hope you feel better soon.
I am so sorry that you are going through this. (Hugs)
I'm so sorry you are having a rough time. 6 months is a hard milestone. Pregnancy after a loss is an uphill battle and the hormones and dreams definitely don't help.
Callan George and Bennett Charles born and died 11/7/10
FET #1 April 2011= BFN
FET #2 July 2011= no transfer because my lining sucked
FET #3 February 2012= BFP! 1st beta 9dp5dt=314 2nd beta 11dp5dt=977 1st U/S 3/20 Twins- Heart rates of 111 and 138
Living After Losing
Thank you!
Married the love of my life 7/11/09 - Our first baby, Peyton Mark, was born sleeping 10/25/11 at 33 weeks - Our second baby, BFP 2/4/12, welcome to the world Raylan! Holy Moly, BPF 2/4/14, please be safe and sound little one!
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