Guilt

Re: Guilt

• PrettyAccountant member

  April 2012

  Don't feel guilty! It means you are healing and that is great. Your baby would not have wanted to see you sad all the time. It is normal to feel guilty for missing an anniversary but don't beat yourself up over it - it really is a good thing that it passed and you didn't mourn the day.

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• pb&fluff member

  April 2012

  Oh honey.  Don't feel guilty.  (((hugs)))  I thought about Addie's 6 month angelversary for the entire week and then forgot on the actual day of.  You think of Andrew every.day.  Don't feel bad that there was one thing that you didn't remember.  Andrew knows you love him with all your heart.

  I miss you and I'm here for you.  ((hugs))
  

  
  
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• blessedhope member

  April 2012

  This weekend I tried to imagine my LO was busy in heaven celebrating Easter. I'm sure your LO could see you celebrating Easter and Passover and though how nice it was that both of you were celebrating the resurection at the same time. I don't know if things like that help you but it helps me to think of things like that. ((hugs))  

  My little boy went to heaven during childbirth
  
  
  
  
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• weddedwife member

  April 2012

  I forgot the 4 months one. I felt so bad. I think it's normal sometimes.
  

  

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