Let me preface this by saying I am not someone who believes in signs and things like that.
Last night I had the most vivid dream. I was celebrating the birthday of the baby I just lost. He was turning one, and we had named him Hudson (I don't know where this name came from, I am not a big fan of this name). He looked just like my son Jack. I had been saying that I wanted to name the baby that we lost because i felt like it needed an idenity. After my dream last night, I have decided to name it Hudson.
I had been commenting to a friend that I was really doing well, no cyring or anything like that. I woke up from this dream upset. I hated seeing myself so happy and seeing this big, happy family. This loss has left a hole in my heart, one I know that can never be filled. I hope that by finally naming the baby, I can finally get some closure and begin to move forward. We are going to plant a tree in our yard for Hudson in a few weeks.
There really wasn't a point to this post. Just wanted to share. Hope all you ladies have a nice Wednesday!
Re: Strangest Dream
I think planting a tree is a BEAUTIFUL way to honor and remember baby Hudson!
I was talking to a friend who had a miscarriage and is now pregnant again and she mentioned that she wonders in her mind if this baby is the same as the baby that she lost a few months back just getting a second chance at life? For me, it was comforting. Not sure how it makes you feel, but wanted to pass along none the less.
Sending you hugs. Hang in there. We're all here for you!
2/13/12 Partial Molar Pregnancy diagnosed
Forced break for two cycles
TTC June 2012
Cycle 9: BFP 5-3-12:EDD 1-24-13 It's a girl! Born 12-27-12
Wow!
Reminds me of a dream I had right after my loss. Sometimes dreams can say a lot and they force you to open your eyes a bit.
((hugs))