Vent (current unviable pregnancy mentioned again)

panacea05 · March 2012

I have morning sickness today. How fvcked up is that?

I think this means my poor baby still hasn't given up yet.

I want to scream and break sh!t.

panacea05 · March 2012

Jessiebug81:
I say do it, whatever helps. I'm so sorry you're having to go through this. My heart is breaking for you.
When do you go back to the doctor?

Monday morning. I almost want to reschedule for Tuesday or Wednesday, because I don't think I can bear hearing that the weak little heart is still beating at 40bpm.

raashton · March 2012

Hugs darling. I can't imagine how that must feel.

Honestly, if you feel the need, go to the dollar store, buy some cheap glasses and throw them around. I broke one of our glasses one day "accidentally" and it felt so freaking good! Very therapeutic to crush and break something the way I had been. It was even worth the clean up. But I bet you could talk your husband into it or just put plastic on the floor to roll up.

Much love sweetie!

buckeyebaby814 · March 2012

Big ::HUGS::

jonesdouglas · March 2012

((hugs))

So sorry...

crystal8503 · March 2012

I am so sorry you are going through this. My heart breaks for you and I have been thinking of you a lot since yesterday. Do whatever it is you feel you need to do.

DCWJes · March 2012

I am so sorry hun. I say scream. Sometimes when I scream it out, it's the best. When I was in school, one of my classrooms had a poster and On it it said "a scream a day keeps the shrink away". I always try to remember that. *hugs*

minicheezburg · March 2012

RosiePeare:
raashton:

Hugs darling. I can't imagine how that must feel.

Honestly, if you feel the need, go to the dollar store, buy some cheap glasses and throw them around. I broke one of our glasses one day "accidentally" and it felt so freaking good! Very therapeutic to crush and break something the way I had been. It was even worth the clean up. But I bet you could talk your husband into it or just put plastic on the floor to roll up.

Much love sweetie!

This is awesome advice! I say "yes"!

This is really awesome advice, do you have any guns? I find going to the range very theraputic.

aussiedaze · March 2012

I had a missed m/c. I was 13 weeks when it was discovered but the baby had died at 7w2d. At 13 weeks I still had my pg symptoms and I asked the dr why. She said it was b/c the hormones were still in my body, and would be for a while even after the Cytotec.

Sorry you're going through this. ((HUGE HUGS)) It really sucks. I hope the m/s goes away soon. It's a sick reminder.

Allycat11 · March 2012

((HUGE HUGS)) I am so angry for you right now. Sending lots of thoughts and prayers your way.

smcjmk09 · March 2012

Sending big, fat, fluffy hugs. It is cruel and you have every right to feel angry. I'm so sorry you're going through this.

NBBride05 · March 2012

I am so sorry. Even though I am new and don't really know you, my heart still breaks. Hugs!

uneek1323 · March 2012

Oh I'm so sorry. Love and {{HUGS}}

ChloBub · March 2012

I want to break stuff for you and with you. I am so, so sorry. It's just cruel.

hrgunasekera1 · March 2012

I'm so sorry (((big hugs)))

Missuskeekers · March 2012

aussiedaze:
I had a missed m/c. I was 13 weeks when it was discovered but the baby had died at 7w2d. At 13 weeks I still had my pg symptoms and I asked the dr why. She said it was b/c the hormones were still in my body, and would be for a while even after the Cytotec.

Sorry you're going through this. ((HUGE HUGS)) It really sucks. I hope the m/s goes away soon. It's a sick reminder.

This. My first Mmc we found out at 12w4d and the babies heart had stopped at 8 weeks, almost identical story with the second Mmc. Both times I was still throwing up until after my d&cs. It's such a mind **.

panacea05 · March 2012

Missuskeekers:
aussiedaze:
I had a missed m/c. I was 13 weeks when it was discovered but the baby had died at 7w2d. At 13 weeks I still had my pg symptoms and I asked the dr why. She said it was b/c the hormones were still in my body, and would be for a while even after the Cytotec.

Sorry you're going through this. ((HUGE HUGS)) It really sucks. I hope the m/s goes away soon. It's a sick reminder.
This. My first Mmc we found out at 12w4d and the babies heart had stopped at 8 weeks, almost identical story with the second Mmc. Both times I was still throwing up until after my d&cs. It's such a mind **.

These stories bring me comfort. Oddly enough.

FreyaWin2382 · March 2012

Oh lady, I wish I could reach through the screen and give you a huge hug. This totally sucks and I am so upset that you are having to go through this. I say, if you want to scream and break stuff, then do it.

I'm not especially proud of it, but I ripped apart a pillow.

Big, big ((HUGS)) and vent all you need to.

ETA: Also, FWIW, I threw up daily right up until I had both of my D&Cs.....symptoms, for better or worse, really don't say anything about how things are going. It's all just hormones....but is a major mind fcuk.

KacyChicago · March 2012

panacea05:
Missuskeekers:
aussiedaze:
I had a missed m/c. I was 13 weeks when it was discovered but the baby had died at 7w2d. At 13 weeks I still had my pg symptoms and I asked the dr why. She said it was b/c the hormones were still in my body, and would be for a while even after the Cytotec.

Sorry you're going through this. ((HUGE HUGS)) It really sucks. I hope the m/s goes away soon. It's a sick reminder.
This. My first Mmc we found out at 12w4d and the babies heart had stopped at 8 weeks, almost identical story with the second Mmc. Both times I was still throwing up until after my d&cs. It's such a mind **.
These stories bring me comfort. Oddly enough.

I was the same way. I only lost my symptoms two days before the ultrasound ... Her heart had stopped beating the week before. I am so sorry you're sick today.

GatorBaby2012 · March 2012

Oh Panacea. I'm so sorry. ((hugs))

bananers · March 2012

KacyChicago:
panacea05:
Missuskeekers:
aussiedaze:
I had a missed m/c. I was 13 weeks when it was discovered but the baby had died at 7w2d. At 13 weeks I still had my pg symptoms and I asked the dr why. She said it was b/c the hormones were still in my body, and would be for a while even after the Cytotec.

Sorry you're going through this. ((HUGE HUGS)) It really sucks. I hope the m/s goes away soon. It's a sick reminder.
This. My first Mmc we found out at 12w4d and the babies heart had stopped at 8 weeks, almost identical story with the second Mmc. Both times I was still throwing up until after my d&cs. It's such a mind **.
These stories bring me comfort. Oddly enough.
I was the same way. I only lost my symptoms two days before the ultrasound ... Her heart had stopped beating the week before. I am so sorry you're sick today.

The morning after our u/s where we found out or baby had died a week earlier, I was still throwing up... And sobbing uncontrollably while doing so because it was such a cruel reminder of the baby that would never be. Insult to injury. ((huge hugs)). My heart is breaking for you.

ecmleo · March 2012

I am so sorry that you have to go through this!!! Do what ever gets the frustration out...go break something!!!!

LEP424 · March 2012

Take care of you, whatever that needs to be. ((Hugs))

EKGibs · March 2012

I'm sooooo sorry. break whatever you need too.

TA110980 · March 2012

I am so sorry.

twotexans · March 2012

I am so sorry. The morning sickness really is a cruel joke. Mine continued up until I had my d&c, and my baby's heart had stopped beating a week and a half before. It was awful. I did a lot of screaming in the shower. Many hugs to you!

katharine25 · March 2012

Break all the Sh!T you need. Scream at the top of your lungs. I also find hitting DH with pillows to be very therapeutic. Just don't break *** on DH... you don't want to have to take care of his wounds on top of all this. Puking on him, however, is perfectly acceptable.

Seriously, I can't even tell you how much my heart is breaking for you - and how utterly incredible cruel this world. You have a heart of gold and it's ok to let it be angry, and getting that anger out in anyway possible will help you.

AnoraStar · March 2012

I can't imagine what you are going through

So sorry

paisleybaby33 · March 2012

I am so flucking angry for you right now. (I vary rarely use that word, so know I'm very angry for you). Go ahead, break sh!t, scream, cry and cry and cry, and feel no shame in any of it. This is awful and you should feel allowed to be angry and sad and everything that comes with it. My heart breaks for you. You'll continue to be in my prayers for weeks to come.

Not that it eases the painhot helps at all, but my baby's heart stopped beating two weeks before we found out, and our OB told us my body would have hung on to that pregnancy for weeks to come, hence why we chose to have a D&C. I remember goingto dinner the night before the D&C and throwing up at the restaurant from having such awful morning sickness. It's an experience that has changed me forever. We're all here for you. (((HUGS)))

benoitfan · March 2012

Pan, I am so sorry. This whole thing just sucks @$$. As if it's not bad enough your lo is fighting a battle they can't win, that you can't help your lo, mother nature feels its necessary to give you m/s too. I have to look at it like when you get your rainbow baby, you will have the easy, peasy pg you totally deserve. You sure as hell have earned it. If you need to scream, by all means, scream away. Maybe it's time to take up boxing and beat the crap out of a punching bag? ((HUGS)). I wish I could do more, I so wish I could make this better/easier for you. T&P for you and you lo my friend.

jinxycat24 · March 2012

Big (((hugs))) I'm so so sorry you are going through this

foxxy1 · March 2012

I have no words of support so just ****HUGS*** to you.

holly_g13 · March 2012

I'm so sorry to hear this. I'm going to have to go back and find your other post. I've been MIA for about a week and it broke my heart to see this post was from you. {{ HUGS}}. And scream away. I like the idea of going to the dollar tree to get some cheap glasses to break. I say go for it.

cielos1980 · March 2012

I am so sorry again for your situation and my heart does break for you. I too wanted to break things, so my SIL (who is the best SIL I could ever ask for) sent me a bunch of water ballons, I know it sounds goofy. But I fill up my water ballons and throw it at the fence in the back yard. It really is theraputic! {{{HUGS}}} and you are in my prayers!

amandachs · March 2012

I am so sorry sweetheart ((((ginormous squishy hugs)))) Scream as loud as you want, you have every right to be angry.

KDS1987 · March 2012

My heart breaks for you, I am so sorry for your loss, do whatever you need to. Its ok to break stuff every now and again. And I feel like screaming is always acceptable.

Deshi2013 · March 2012

panacea05:
I have morning sickness today. How fvcked up is that?
I think this means my poor baby still hasn't given up yet.
I want to scream and break sh!t.

Im late to this, but I am just heart broken for you, you are always so supportive to everyone else and totally don't deserve this. (who does really), but I just wanted to second what everyone else has said, YOU ARE CERTAINLY ENTITLED TO SCREAM AND BREAK STUFF..DO IT! ((Hugs))